update*

[07_the_look_07]

Dang it's been a while since i've updated this thing..

Well well...where to begin at okay so let me see if i can remember every little detail that has happened within the past 2 weeks or so.. hmm*

January 12, 2007 -- i lost a close friend bj riddle to an overdose of drugs... i couldnt believe it when i first heard it, i just seen him the day before

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[stidham_44]

i've lost many many friends over time...
but i've never lost one to a drug OD.
all of my friends have been killed in car accidents.
but i know how you feel.
& there's nothing anyone can say to make you feel better.
but you know that i'm here for you always.
i hope that helps a little. =]

i love you & please call me if you need me.

[07_the_look_07]

he was only 15.. died 11 days b4 his 16th birthday!! :'( god i miss him soo much.

[stidham_44]

& i know when you say Seth that you're talking about Seth Bailey right?
i was best friends with him in high school.
he used to have a crush on me, but i thought being friends was better.
i should've went out with him.
maybe i could've prevented him from dying...
because that whole mess was from that girl causing him to do things like that.
she treated him like crap. he was/is so much better than that.
i still haven't forgiven myself for not going out with him.
honestly, i liked him a lot, but i was scared (he was a senior, i was a freshman)
anyhow, that made me sad when i saw his name.
i'm at work & here i sit crying. ;]
it's okay though...at least i feel a little bit better now.

enough rambling.
please call me if you need me.

i love you -

[07_the_look_07]

yeah i was talkin bout Seth Bailey.. me and him were sooo close
he was like my BIG Brother, now i dont know what to do without him
here. it seems like a bad dream yet i know it's not.. i'm sorry that it
brought tears to your eyes.. i didnt mean to make you sad
i just wish for one more time that i could change what has already
happened.. but i know he suffered and so did the others but as long
as their in a better place and happy !

shew i could've used you last nite, cause i was soo depressed and ballin my eyes out, but it's okay.. i will definately give you a call !!

love you!!

[stidham_44]

i should be home around 5 so give me a call when you can.

& it wasn't your fault that made me sad. i was just thinking...

i love you -

[07_the_look_07]

i will try to give you a call..

i miss you & love you