Why is it now, at 1:45 in the morning, that I feel this powerful urge to do many many creative things...most of which includes writing and solidifying my thoughts and memories as they are all in my head at this very instant? I worry that I want to do too much now and that mid way through something my energy will fizzle away or my interest will ( Read more... )

alright...Iffy's parental units are slowly finding out about Shawn in their own way due to the lack of conversation skills on both Iffy and their parts. Cece's dad is putting her down constantly always pointing out negative things about her (true or not true they're still hurtful and won't help create any type of positivity). Why was I blessed ( Read more... )

I dove headfirst into a day that began with self inflicted boredom only meaning to soothe then journeyed into stress which turned into sickness which woke up my phobia (emetophobia to be exact) which fried my nerves to overly-sensitive bits. Then when all seemed utterly violently disgustingly negative and practically hopeless...Iffy came and Cece ( Read more... )

I don't get the need for everyone to analize Valentine's Day. People who aren't complaining their asses off about being lonely and loveless are worrying themselves sick trying to impress and second guess their significant others. Too much drama really. Just love what you've got...whether that be a life partner or a friend or a pet or your family ( Read more... )

I'm still jobless but after yin-yang boy graced Cece, Iffy, and I at B&N with his presence today I feel slightly more motivated so the urge is growing. No promisses only actions my darlings ( Read more... )

I tried to deny myself the wonderful splash of experencing my true feelings and their varying intensities. This caused the feelings to pile up from lack of expression. So of course when I let some of it go the rest followed in this tidel wave like fashion. I wrote diary entries and several letters and cried a few times. Boy that took a lot out ( Read more... )

Umm...yeah so LJ is being a punk. Err I think it's LJ...it could be my funky computer but anyways I can't seem to reach my site or my friends. It'll allow me to log in and update though. Strangeish ( Read more... )

found the book...on my shelf with my notebooks.. whoopsies. So I'm going to continue to read that and some Francescia Lia Block because I heart all of her books and never get tired of reading them...ever ( Read more... )

Alrighty...Today is the day that my brother Ricky and his family come over. I think that if my mom could handle it better I could because pretty much all of her feelings rub off on me. Right now she has a migrane and is still listing the things she and I have to accomplish. Ugh ( Read more... )

I'm feeling much better...just tired. I am trying to stay awake so I can atempt (yet again for the hundreth time)to go to bed at a "decent" hour which will lead me to be awake and among the living during the day. Right about now I'd rather be sleeping...but waking up at five in the evening isn't getting me anywhere. I really want to sleep ( Read more... )