Or recognize who you've become, how'd you grow to be so strong?
Benjy's dead...
Benjy Fenwick. My first boyfriend, my first love. Dead. Murdered.
Those bastards. Benjy. If they got to Benjy---oh G-D.
I failed him. I should have done more, tried more. He needed me, he needed a distraction---some sort of something to have besides this war. And he was alone.
I can't tell Gid, I just don't know how. I'm scared. What if I loose him too? I can't, I just--I can't. I hate that I'm reduced to crying in the bathroom.
I love you.
*lipstick kiss*
I love you so much. I just, wanted to make sure you knew.