Oh no...

[0kamisama]

I think it's coming back. For a long time when I was really young, I was secretly a hell-bent, destructive kid who for one reason or another seriously reveled in the pain and suffering of others. Dinner tonight made me realize that I'm unable to get close to other people for fear that I'll seriously hurt them... or worse. I never told anyone about

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[ex_remembran445]

no one ever wants to hear what i think, but i still say it.

hold in anger/agression for whatever reason is always bad. it's like shaking a bottle of coke. the more you shake, the worse it gets. so pop your cap and release your feelings. best advice: make an ephigy of your roommate and beat it with a tennis racket. or if you are reall REALLY angry, go beat the shit out of a big tree trunk. i'm sure it won't mind much

[_scottish_dude_]

hahaha...do what she says...jk...um...i dont know what happened at dinner, but im sorry. i think youre really cool one on one or in group so...

[eyenocpr2]

ur presence isn't a burden. not even close! most people, myself included tend to expose themselves one on one, and not in a group situation... its how you know who cares and who doesn't. Something i've noticed is that when people are in a group they usually act differently then they would one on one. Don't be ashamed of who you are, or your past. its all a learning experience. sometimes we change into a different person then we once were. and as far as the people that feel "burdened" by you... fuck em! they aren't worth it. you are a great guy and a good friend.
get some sleep, and so you know...i care

"life has its peaks and its valleys and if you let the valleys get to you then you will never see the peaks that are just around the corner" -lolo

(sniff) Thanks you guys!

[0kamisama]

Thanks for the encouragements, they did make me feel a whole lot better. I think it was the fact I was thinking of my history earlier that day along with my whole quietness at dinner that brought the feelings I had when I wrote the entry. Again, you're all great friends, and I'll see you all tommorow!

PS: Good luck on all your finals!