I am NOT happy and I am so SICK of pretending to be happy all the time. I did it all through junior high and high school and I am so exhausted. I cannot physically handle pretending anymore. I am SO upset and SO sad. I am SO angry. I can't stop crying..I called my mom a few minutes ago and woke her up bc I could't stop crying...and then a girl ( Read more... )

Ok some of you may think I'm a dork..and crazy but I love Clay Aiken....but come on I still love Hanson so you can't shun me anymore for this lol. But DUDE!!!! Clay just announced his tour dates and he's coming to MA on March 8th!!!! So what's the problem??? I'm going to be in Arizona for spring break doing community service from the 5th-13th!!!! ( Read more... )

Art History is gonna own my life this semester...two art history's on tuesdays and thursdays...only a few hours apart with the same teacher...the classes are EXACTLY the same except for a few centuries. Errrr..I like learning art history but I do not like sitting through lectures on Picasso and Degas. My sign language class is awesome though...my ( Read more... )

Recently the mother of a friend of mine that passed away in October (from a skin condition called EB) sent one of my friends an email. In it she was writing about how it felt to loose my friend. This part made me bawl so hard..I haven't cried about her for awhile and it hit me again. Its taken a bit out of context but here's what she said: "I feel ( Read more... )

Well I'm back at school!!!! YAY! I am sooo glad to be back..I feel at home. I got back last night and I forgot my comforter...lol I'm a bit blonde. So this morning I got up and my mommy met me during her lunch break to bring me my blanket..I love my mommy!! Then I went and got my schedule...headed to the Plaza for a chicken tender wrap... ( Read more... )

Well today I went to school so I could move my room around a bit....I didn't find any mice...yay!! But they had us take our sheets and bed stuff home over break because mice like warm places..I am so afraid I'm going to come back from class one day ready for a nice nap and find a little friend in my bed ( Read more... )

Hello my loves! Hehe. Well right now I'm waiting for the timer to go off so I can rinse out the highlighting stuff my aunt put in my hair. She makes me laugh so much...I love having her here. I've begun to realize that no matter how crazy family can be or what bad stuff they do..they are still your family..this is the family God gave me..and I'm ( Read more... )

Here are the lyrics to Natalie Merchants "Wonder"...hence my live journal name. This was always my favorite song because I always felt like it was about me..it sounds conceded but growing up as a child with a skin disorder it was a source of comfort for me..and I always loved the video for it because it was all autistic children and my cousin Bill ( Read more... )

Well things haven't gotten much better since I came home. Endless bickering..stupid drama and stuff with my sister again. My parents have been mad at my sister..furious actually..and then I got yelled at because I WASN'T furious..I'm like okay...so I'm told to shut up if I get mad and if I don't get mad that means I'm weird? I just don't choose ( Read more... )

One thing you must know about me is I don't get witchy when I have my period...which is good. But on the otherhand I do become an emotional basketcase ( Read more... )