god if i have to die you have to die...

[0omercedeso0]

fuck.

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Things needed to be said

[anonymous]

First off, for anyone who knows me and is worried that I may pry into your personal lives via live journal, dont worry. I only want to know the things you want to tell me and be blissfully ignorant of the things you do not. I bookmarked this site several months ago just in case I changed my mind about letting things go. As time has passed, I find I cannot. Because I do not want to say these things personally to Dave, he would either ignore it or try to explain things away, I write it here. I do not know if he has access to the internet, but I am hoping someone will come across this and tell him this is here. The rest of this is for David

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[anonymous]

I held your hand through the several breakups between you and Shannon. The real problem between the two of you was that you never listened to what she was trying to tell you of the problems between you two. You dismissed it and pretended that it was not there. What happened was exactly what I told you would happen. Despite your intense focus on Shannon, you were blind to the fact that you lost that part of you that she loved the most. You spent so much time focusing on how you felt about her, you ditched your friends and your responsibility to me and lost everything in its wake. You need to realize that you are responsible for it all. You need to take personal responsibility and stop feeling sorry for yourself because you fail. You have to do the work to succeed, you were never willing to put forth the effort. You wanted instant results and lamented at the fact that your instant results never lasted. This is because the problems were never solved

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[anonymous]

Then you stayed at your sisters house. You told me that you felt bad for abandoning your brother and sister and that you were not a good grandson, son, or sibling. You expressed a desire to work at it. It was then I realized that you would be moving out soon. That you were going to use the difficulties in your moms house as an excuse to quit school. So I waited

Last but not least

[anonymous]

As I told you many times, for Gods sake, prove me wrong. Be the person you want others to care about. Be the son that understands nobody is perfect but a mothers unconditional love is always there for you and forgive as you are forgiven. Be the role model you told me you wanted to be for your brother. Be the support your younger sister will need. Be the person who cares more about the people who love you than you do about yourself and the people you care about will always care more for you. This is something you do because you appreciate the gift of friendship and love and realize how precious it is.

When you do all of this, you will just be beginning your journey into adulthood. Fail, and you will spend your life alone. I also want you to know that my home is not your home, and for the time being, you are not welcome here.