well, i...actually, i just had a new thought. i don't know jack-shit about anything. i can prove it, too. just look at all my entries. there enough ups and downs in them to leave you breathless and ten lbs. lighter. everytime you think to yourself,"man, my ass is so big," just read my shit and you'll be happy (because of the loss in weight) and so ( Read more... )

i give up ( Read more... )

i went to a waking the other day with the shannons and charlie the other day. it was so hard. i only met the guy a couple of times, but i liked him. i felt really terrible. i was fighting tears but i tried not to cry or anything because i wanted to be there for shannon, especially at a time like that, when she needed it. it was weird but seeing him ( Read more... )

well, kiddo's, here what's on the d-l ( Read more... )

Hell yes!!! hey mercedes is coming twice in march. i am so fucking excited. i recently missed one of their shows because i thought it was two days later than it actually was. goddamnit ( Read more... )

life is looking up and i love it. i realized that after you fall off the "my life is so wonderful" hill, all the little mounds seem 100 miles higher. and every step it appreciated that much more. heh...am i just a roller-coaster of emotions or what?
catch you on the flip-side, homies.

i don't know how to cope with all of this. i think i'm freaking out. everything hurts. all the memories, all the reminders, the smiles, every fucking wave, and every apology and compliment. i don't know how to deal with this except by blocking it all out and if that keeps up i am just going to crack. i'm not ready to let everything go. i keep ( Read more... )

well, well, well...things always change, let me tell you. i feel so dead. i want to watch every thing just burn away and sleep in the fucking ashes. i am so tired of everything. piece of advice-always go with the worst of things. if you think you should kill yourself, for the love of fucking god, do it. life really isn't worth living. i would ( Read more... )

Man, i haven't written in here in quite awhile. where to begin? well, lets see...christmas eve, i guess. i had a blast. me and charlie went out to the mall to pick up moms christmas present and i went home and go cleaned up and then me, shannon, and my family went out to my rich aunts house where me and shannon ate and played pool and cards all ( Read more... )

i had a pretty split day today but it's ended pretty well. i woke up and nicole and ritchie left and then i blew charlie's shit out at super smash bro. melee. that game is so fucking sweet. charlie got really pissed off because he couldn't beat me and he threw the controller against the wall. i thought it was funny and laughed. then we went and ( Read more... )