so after a year of struggling with my decision of where to go to college and what i want to do with my life i came to the realization that design is not a good major for me so i have finally decided that i would like to double major in fine arts and history....i'm nervous about doing it but i think ultimately it will be a good thing for me and now ( Read more... )

oh oh oh and also i havent had a cigarette in like five or six days now and holy shit!

p.s. there is nowhere i would rather be right now than on the terrace smoking a pack of camels

so yea, i didnt really have many expectations for this summer, but its not really even living up to my smallest ones. i guess i've been home for like two weeks and this is the state of my life: have not gone through and organized all my stuff for when we move in like three weeks, have not gotten a job/applied for a job/looked for a job, and i've ( Read more... )

wow. so this year is basically over. its kind of surreal to think about the fact that a year ago i graduated from high school and now my first year of college is over. i really thought that by now things would be different or i would feel different but that hasnt really happened. the past year has been the most difficult one of my life and i've ( Read more... )

so i am starting to stress out hardcore for all the shit i need to have done by tuesday to pass all these fucking classes: and while this really is just wasting more time that i could spend actually doing the work, i think it would also help me to list it out ( Read more... )

tonight.
drank a bunch of wine. ran around. took pictures. laid on the floor of the covel bathroom for like half an hour or something. threw up outside. i feel like im about to fall down.

i met a guy online that i really like talking to. is that lame? whatever i dont care, im lame.

uhmmmm....i have class in seven hours so i should go to sleep.

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScorePurgatory (Repenting Believers)Very LowLevel 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)LowLevel 2 (Lustful)Very HighLevel 3 (Gluttonous)Very HighLevel 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)HighLevel 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) ( Read more... )

i guess its pretty much official that we are going to be moving and i am freaking out...we're having an open house at my house on saturday so that people can look at it. i dont think that people really get why i am freaking out so much but i have lived in that house longer than i have anywhere else. after my parents got divorced i did a lot of ( Read more... )

this weekend made me truly realize how much my life is changed and how much its going to change even more. i hate that how coming home now isn't going to be the same home. i feel like im leaving my whole life behind me once i get on that airplane in the morning and i just dont know how to deal with it. i dont know how to say goodbye.