I'm still really upset about not being able to go back to Extreme Makeover on the reveal day.
I never even got to see Ty. :(  Or Paul, well I saw him for like a second from far away. 
But if they end up putting that stupid song part in the show there's a pretty good chance Courtney and I will be in the episode for a second.

Still haven't been able to ( Read more... )

I just realized how early I went to sleep last night, and I only woke up once and it wasn't until like 4:30.
I keep having dreams lately that are like really strange horror movies.
I don't think that's very good, haha I don't know.
I still just wish they could be recorded somehow.

Nine days and counting. Ha, this really sucks. It already feels way longer than that.
Oh well, I can deal with it. I just hope he's getting all the help he needs and he gets at least a little better.
I can't wait until I finally get to talk to him though. And see him, ahh! I'll be so happy.
But enough about that.

Tomorrow me and my sister are going to ( Read more... )

Pat is being very persistant about taking me out tonight, and says that he already bought me flowers this morning ( Read more... )

So last night my dad walks in very clearly fucked up ( Read more... )

So things are definitely different since the last time I updated this thing.
I have an amazing boyfriend, who I get to have sleepovers with all the time and it's the best fucking feeling in the world. (:
For the most part things with my friends are great.
I actually really enjoyed Christmas this year.
Right now I kinda feel like I have way more than I ( Read more... )

Not to sound completely morbid...
But honestly if I could actually be sure that I'd be with my mom, 
I'd be dead already.
Whatever.
I need to find somewhere to live.

i know i just updated yeterday but i don't care. i've been in the strangest moods lately. i'm just so 'blah' and aggravated and i don't know. and today it's at its worst i think. i can tell because all i will listen to is bright eyes. because it's the only thing that feels right. that may sound stupid but whatever.

and then i look at this

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i need too many things. i don't know how or when the fuck i can get a car. my hair is getting disgustingly long i need it cut and dyed cause my roots are like 2 inches long and about 5 shades darker than the rest of my head. i need new clothes. i kinda need new shoes too. most importantly i need a job, but i can't even get one if i don't have a car ( Read more... )

so it's 2:30 and of course i'm up. i can't sleep and it's driving me crazyyy. i've been like this for the past couple weeks. the other night i didn't fall asleep til about 6 in the morning, and then slept til almost 6 the net night. i have problems. ha. i don't wanna be here right now. i wanna be home in my own bed. for once i actually want to be ( Read more... )