in a little while

here's to the good life or so they say
all those parties and games that all those people play
they tell me this is the place to be
all these beautiful people and nothin to see

sometimes i feel like something is gone here
something is wrong here, i don't belong here
sometimes i feel like a stranger in town
and i've lost what i found, it' ( Read more... )

ALittleLessWild: so here's what your new job is going to be ( Read more... )

have you ever had someone just .. tell you something that stops your heart for half a beat and makes you think, "oh, wow"?

junior wrote this for me. i want it here. where i can read it and think to myself, "i know i have the kind of friends some people dream about".

"My Samantha: I don't understand Sam, I never have. Sometimes I desperately try to ( Read more... )

stranger than your sympathy
this is my apology
i'm killing myself from the inside out
and all my fears have pushed you out

i wish for things that i don't need
all i wanted
and what i chase won't set me free
all i wanted
and i get scared but i'm not crawling on my knees
oh yeah
everything's all wrong, yeah
everything's all wrong, yeah
where the hell did i think ( Read more... )

i'm feeling crazy.
and i don't know what kind of crazy. maybe the ready to move kind.
today's not much better than monday or tuesday, but i'm trying to forget.

mamacitafelise: we're all sick of being alone and we're all sick of being in a huge group of people who are sick of being alone.
((a real good point. scary she can read my mind. she always ( Read more... )

 some days, are just not worth getting out of bed for.

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you'd ( Read more... )

*sarcasm intended* everything seems just about right. i'm perfectly miserable, with small amounts of happiness thrown in randomly from surprisingly, all the people i never thought would try. 'cept for katie. she's my constant. and my sanity. i guess i'm just tired of hurting.

annnnd i guess i'm not going to work. fantastic. there's a black line ( Read more... )

so i'm sitting here, eating my breakfast out of a pan, contemplating why exactly my life is turning out the way it is. and there are no answers looming on the horizon. and i keep thinking about how alone i am. aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i hate valentine's day. i know it was 2 days ago, but the effects of the god damn holiday are still following me ( Read more... )

so i just finished watching sex and the city and i really do think everyone has a "Big" in their life.

i know i do. and, i still can't figure out why or how it happened.