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[123kid]

I believe this is my first post in 6 years, but livejournal appears to be making a comeback, and who knows, I might receive some wisdom as I collect smart opinionated friends to comment on my ponderings

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[cptscience]

I don't know how to begin responding to this. I want to offer condolences and say that everything is going to be alright. I wish I could tell you that the pain goes away, but in my experience, it doesn't. When you love someone like that, it stays with you. However, it does dull as time passes

[shetiyah]

i can sympathize with you. i hope its not that abnormal to still cry like that at times cause i'm there with you. The whole just seeing a photo thing... well i definitely can more than sympathize. listen it may be too cold to sit on the porch and drink beers till 1 am but the couches are still comfy and the beer is still here if you ever want to come over and shoot the breeze till god awful hours in the morning. love ya hun. hopefully jason is right and the love from friends will help make it all easier, for both of us. hope i'll see ya soon.

[silvius]

I hate to sound trite, but the people who truly influence your life are never really gone. Particularly the romantic kind. I cannot tell you how many things in my life, big and small, are influenced by my past. Especially by Anna, for whom I was willing to throw away absolutely everything I had worked for. I can point to so many elements of my personality, little habits I have, manners of speech, and all sorts of things and immediately recognize the influence of my time "with" her. It still hurts, too, to think about it. Several years and a whole lot of distance have softened the actual regret that I loved her but could not have her, but the anger and shame are as fresh as ever. Every time I wince and then say something sarcastic when my academic failure is brought up, I guarantee you in my mind's eye I'm seeing myself deciding to skip class and take care of her during a migraine, or writing another check to cover the cost of her costuming project. I know it's not the same as mourning the loss of a love but it's something that