I feel restless. I hate unfinished business, and I feel like that is what my life is comprised of right now and I just hope it all starts fitting into place in the next couple days. I hope I find another job by tues cuz that is my last day at OG, at least tues my business will be finished with OG.

Life is just exhausting. Everything is just taking a mental toll on me right now and I am getting tired quicker in the last couple days. I can't wait to be away from OG...that day marks the beginning of my life being happier.

I have a bad feeling about tomorrow. I just do.

I'm a a little stressed right now. I have so much to pay out. Here is my list of monies to be paid out ( Read more... )

Life just feels strange. I don't know how to explain it. Like there are so many ppl around me but no one is really there for me. It's been that way at work for a while which is why I stopped talking to ppl at work. But the last week it's been just like I'm talking to ppl who say they care about me, but nobody's listening.

So when I fell asleep last night Trevor was rolled against me with his arm laying across my stomach and I was laying on my back. Some time later I had nightmares of being strangled/suffocated that lasted at least 10 minutes, then I came to a little and realized there was heavy pressure on my neck. So I freaked out. Seriously just F-R-E-A-K-E-D ( Read more... )

Alright so I love my ass (weird way to start off an LJ entry but work with me here) it may not be perfect but it looks pretty good in a pair of jeans. Well one thing it doesn't look good in at all is a thong. I hate thongs. SO how did I end up with some you may ask? Well after the boyfriend told me I should wear thongs I jokingly said "I will ( Read more... )

Right now I am looking up stuff on-line about cruises. Me and Trevor are thinking about going on one next month. He really is my baby even though it's all still very complicated...I'd rather be with him and everything be one big mess than to be without him.

I went to a party last night with Trevor and his two roomates Ambir and Brandon (they also work at OG). I smoked, then drank, then got depressed. Very depressed almost like paranoia if you understand what I'm saying. It was terrible. Needless to say there was no sex last night. I wish I would have gotten hammered last night. Anyways I am ( Read more... )

So much drama. It's just too crazy. Life is muych better than it was a few days ago. Much much better. Nobody hate me at OG and I don't hate anyone...thank goodness! As for Trevor and me...hmmmm...that is a very complicated situation and always has been ( Read more... )