Messed up dream tonight, posting what I wrote down
Just as an FYI, Pristiq has a side effect of making dreams more real and vivid, and to top this, I already have vivid dreams (and dream in color).
Bad dream. woke up at 4:31am. Body and brain feel like they are on fire. Feel like throwing up.
In dream, it was a test to not move. Was in lots of scenarios. like being dragged through broken ornaments and sewed to.
Went on for long time. Floated down river, attacked by bears. Thought I was in / watching a movie alternate version where the person continues pretending to be dead through the entire story instead of getting up after initial torture. Wanted to see it out to the end, so kept not moving and getting dragged around by other things. Less torture further in, just goofy, like other characters keeping me around for situations even though they thought I was dead. Couldn't see much, most of time head was down into the dirt or floor or table.
Think I finally woke up because my arm was pinned and not getting oxygen. When I woke up, rapid fire of weird images were hitting my eyes at the same time I was awake and staring at ceiling. Room was lit up in red diamond patterns also, what are those things in your eyes that are supposed to identify color? Think they were messing up bad. Images were totally bizzarre. Coming one after another, really fast. Cartoonish, like old 30s / 40s strips. Monkey person pulling daggers from face and dissolving, really cartoonish guy in suit pulling self apart. In fact, all images have at least a cartoonish face and all were smiling.
Started to panic at this, so I got up, got some water. Tried to go back to bed. Brain and spine on fire, was afraid I was dying. Decided to go downstairs and release the bunnies to calm down. Took bottle of pills, ice pack, and water with me.
Released bunnies, decided to document incident in case they find me dead in the morning. Feeling too sick to start up computer, must hit bathroom.
4:35am Dry heaved in bathroom. Nothing. Fire going away from head, still in spine. Guts starting to feel like diarhea. Was my body trying to tell my brain I'm sick?
4:39am Back in basement writing most of above. Bunnies are right here beside me, letting me pet them. Haven't used ice pack or pills, just drank some water while in bathroom. 4:48am now. Fire gone from spine, forehead feels muddled like it was crushed into pillow or something all night.
Correction, Bonnie letting me pet her. Bradlee just here for Bonnie.
4:50am Head finally normalized. Guts feel okay now too. Wave of panic gone. Feeling really sleepy again. Correction, guts feel like I'm very gas-y.
4:56am Adding to text above. Super tired again. But Bonnie is bouncing around all happy. Not sure how to tell the bunnies I want to go back to bed. Feels like spider bite or something on base of skull. Scratching at it. Does not feel good. Head still really warm, but not on fire. Well, back of head, or inside back, not outside.
5:00am Closed eye test. No images. Gonna try to go back to bed. Plan: coax rabbits with carrots or something. Funny thought earlier while I was panicked and wanted to document this. (It's currently written on a Sticky Note on my desktop) Was going to make sure I wrote, "Aimee, I love you." on here in case I did die. Wanted to make sure I got that out to her even though I say it all the time.
Gonna post this to LJ since I took the time to write it out. Also to preserve it. Not going to keep it on desktop.
Bad dream. woke up at 4:31am. Body and brain feel like they are on fire. Feel like throwing up.
In dream, it was a test to not move. Was in lots of scenarios. like being dragged through broken ornaments and sewed to.
Went on for long time. Floated down river, attacked by bears. Thought I was in / watching a movie alternate version where the person continues pretending to be dead through the entire story instead of getting up after initial torture. Wanted to see it out to the end, so kept not moving and getting dragged around by other things. Less torture further in, just goofy, like other characters keeping me around for situations even though they thought I was dead. Couldn't see much, most of time head was down into the dirt or floor or table.
Think I finally woke up because my arm was pinned and not getting oxygen. When I woke up, rapid fire of weird images were hitting my eyes at the same time I was awake and staring at ceiling. Room was lit up in red diamond patterns also, what are those things in your eyes that are supposed to identify color? Think they were messing up bad. Images were totally bizzarre. Coming one after another, really fast. Cartoonish, like old 30s / 40s strips. Monkey person pulling daggers from face and dissolving, really cartoonish guy in suit pulling self apart. In fact, all images have at least a cartoonish face and all were smiling.
Started to panic at this, so I got up, got some water. Tried to go back to bed. Brain and spine on fire, was afraid I was dying. Decided to go downstairs and release the bunnies to calm down. Took bottle of pills, ice pack, and water with me.
Released bunnies, decided to document incident in case they find me dead in the morning. Feeling too sick to start up computer, must hit bathroom.
4:35am Dry heaved in bathroom. Nothing. Fire going away from head, still in spine. Guts starting to feel like diarhea. Was my body trying to tell my brain I'm sick?
4:39am Back in basement writing most of above. Bunnies are right here beside me, letting me pet them. Haven't used ice pack or pills, just drank some water while in bathroom. 4:48am now. Fire gone from spine, forehead feels muddled like it was crushed into pillow or something all night.
Correction, Bonnie letting me pet her. Bradlee just here for Bonnie.
4:50am Head finally normalized. Guts feel okay now too. Wave of panic gone. Feeling really sleepy again. Correction, guts feel like I'm very gas-y.
4:56am Adding to text above. Super tired again. But Bonnie is bouncing around all happy. Not sure how to tell the bunnies I want to go back to bed. Feels like spider bite or something on base of skull. Scratching at it. Does not feel good. Head still really warm, but not on fire. Well, back of head, or inside back, not outside.
5:00am Closed eye test. No images. Gonna try to go back to bed. Plan: coax rabbits with carrots or something. Funny thought earlier while I was panicked and wanted to document this. (It's currently written on a Sticky Note on my desktop) Was going to make sure I wrote, "Aimee, I love you." on here in case I did die. Wanted to make sure I got that out to her even though I say it all the time.
Gonna post this to LJ since I took the time to write it out. Also to preserve it. Not going to keep it on desktop.