things have been going a tad better ( Read more... )

*sighs*

i'm so stressed out.  that's the story of my life, really.  i've been thinking back to 5 years ago and wishing like hell i would have been smarter about my decisions.  this is NOT the life that i want.

classes have been going well still.  i'm still behind in music... more so now.  i'm caught up in everything else.  we have a test next week in ( Read more... )

so i am happy to announce that i found my wedding band... by complete accident, i might add.  i caught raven playing in a little container that i had some rings and necklaces in it.  i had brought it down last week because i had cleaned out a closet and brought them down to put them with my other shit.  well, i was trying the rings on, and i must ( Read more... )

as if i wasn't stressed out enough, when i was going to bed last night, i realized that my wedding band was missing.  i have never had it fall off, but i've been doing a lot of cleaning with water so it very well could have then.  i've been searching high and low today, and i haven't found it.  the last place i know to look would be out in the van ( Read more... )

class has been going well for me.  i'm keeping up fairly well.  i'm a little bit behind in my music class because it's surprisingly really boring.  lots of articles to read, and i'm just not interested.  otherwise, there's not much to say regarding class.  i should be getting my student loan dispersement in the next two weeks.  i'm excited to go ( Read more... )

ben was home from 4:30a on the 14th to about 12:30p on the 18th.  ben just told me today that his boss wants to start paying his workers hourly.  (currently, some are paid $100/day, plus $25 non-taxable for food, and others are on salary.)  that's would be awesome, BUT if you figure it out, right now ben is making between $10-12.50/hour depending ( Read more... )

i'm sorry about that last post... i'm just really upset, and i really need to just get out what i was feeling, in all intensity.  the last fews days have just been a nightmare... and i've been on edge... i just got my period tonight, and i'm wondering if that's part of what's causing this clusterfuck of emotion... if this is what it's going to be ( Read more... )

i'm seriously about ready to lose my freaking mind.

i can't stand the kids, anymore.  i feel like beating my head into a wall until i'm fucking bleeding profusely and hope i die.  they fucking bicker all the fucking time.  my daughter needs a fucking exorcism.  i'm sure of it.  she's the devil in a 3-year-old girl's body.  she destroys EVERYTHING ( Read more... )

i'm sad...

i took raven to her well-child check-up today, and it didn't turn out as i had hoped.

dr. markham isn't concerned with her tantrums, as he says he believes it's still relatively age-related.  but he does think that she is having night terrors, and that's why she awakens during the night and throws tantrums.  that's nothing that i didn't ( Read more... )

i'm bored, and although nothing really exciting has occurred, i feel that i should update.

it's a few hours shy of being day 34 since benjamin has left on the road... and it's a few hours shy of being 14 days since i've seen him last (and remember, that was only for 3 hours!).  the kids and i miss him, and he misses us terribly.  the good news is ( Read more... )