Falling on Death EARS aGaIn.......
Realizations:
No one listens, reads or cares
Come to realize through analyzing that some of my "friends" try to inadvertenly control what i do.... can we walk togther---and then leave while u talk to someone on the way and alienate and not even acknowldge me from thereon
People would rather not rely on me for answers, but will gladly ask me for help---sounds confusing, until u think about it and let it penetrate
The "social have-nots" are the only people that will listen, give u the truth and just be normal
People always the assume the worst whenever i say something vaguely or low, "I like ur hair" would be heard as "I kill baby bears"
People think that all of my actions are done out of malice or ill-intent
No one truly knows or tries to understands the real me---and i know someone will write or think... well u can't expect others to understand and get to know you if you don't get to know them... too bad i try unsuccessfully
The most philosophical self-realization is that for as much of a routine, rigid, strict, formulaic, ordered, ritualistic person I am that no one has bothered or figured out Alterrell-----With the exception of one person, remaining nameless, and HER NAME SHANT BE SPOKE(I think that is clue enough)
And i take it this will be speaking to a brick wall as well