Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter: Anita Blake/Nathaniel Graison
Tear Me Up
An Anita Blake story for 1sentence
by mhalachaiswords
Fandom: Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter
Pairing: Nathaniel Graison /Anita Blake
Theme set: Alpha
Rating: up to R for imagery and themes
Notes: Follows the Anita/Richard and the Anita/Jean-Claude sets. Also, #29 isn't a typo. Not my characters or my world, etc.
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01. Comfort
It takes him a while, but finally Nathaniel realizes that Anita's looking for safety and comfort as much as he is.
02. Kiss
He's kissed hundreds of women and men, but it isn't until Anita bites his lip, hard, that he feels like he's ever been properly kissed.
03. Soft
There's something about the soft sound of her breathing, when she is asleep, that makes Nathaniel want to die.
04. Pain
The first time he feels the pain of her teeth sink into his skin is the closest he's ever come to heaven.
05. Potatoes
She said she wanted potatoes for dinner, so he spends almost half an hour looking for the best ones.
06. Rain
He wants to scream until his throat is raw, claw at the ground until his fingers bleed, but instead he just lets the cold rain fall over him... why doesn't she understand?
07. Chocolate
She buys him chocolate sometimes; he never tells her of the johns who used to buy him chocolate first.
08. Happiness
He refuses to believe in the happiness she promises -- nothing this good can last.
09. Telephone
He answers the phone like they do on TV; he doesn't get why Anita always looks at him weird when he does.
10. Ears
He listens, to all she says, and to what she doesn't say.
11. Name
Her name tastes like sex and frustration and comfort in his mouth.
12. Sensual
He's spent so much time pretending to be sensual, a well-paid feast for the senses, that he forgets how to be normal around her.
13. Death
He knows now that he'll die when she does... no more worries about being left alone.
14. Sex
She refuses to think of sex as currency, but it's the only way he can make her need him.
15. Touch
For so long, she touches him, but doesn't let him touch her -- sometimes he thinks he'll die without ever pushing himself into her body.
16. Weakness
She says she loathes weakness; she doesn't see how he uses the illusion of his weakness to get closer to her than any other man.
17. Tears
When she comes home from the hospital, bruised and still bleeding, she tries not to let him see her tears of pain.
18. Speed
Occasionally, he is happy she can't run with the leopards; the speed is the only thing he has left that is all his.
19. Wind
She bought him a winter jacket; never knowing of all the years he spent huddled under lampposts in the cutting wind.
20. Freedom
She doesn't understand that he doesn't want freedom -- he wants her.
21. Life
Every time he shifts, it's like life begins anew -- when she's there to see, it's like he'll never die.
22. Jealousy
The first time he feels jealousy, real jealousy, is when he listens through the thin wooden door as Jason fucks her.
23. Hands
It startles him, sometimes, to see how small her hands look against his thigh.
24. Taste
The wereleopard in him loves to taste things; sweet things, salty things, but mostly her.
25. Devotion
She asks him why he doesn't go to church -- what else could he pray for, now that she's there to guide him?
26. Forever
He doesn't believe in forever, no matter what she promises... one day, he'll die and he won't have her anymore.
27. Blood
She liked to draw blood during sex, he gets that -- the beast likes it, but he'll never mark her skin.
28. Sickness
She thought he never got sick; but she couldn't see the decay and ugliness under his skin from years on the street as someone else's trash.
29. Melody
There's some kind of silent hum, the most beautiful song he's never heard, in the sound of her breathing when she sleeps.
30. Star
She's uncomfortable with his job... even so, he wants her to see him on stage, see how he shines.
31. Home
She tells him to go home; she doesn't see that his home is at her feet, wherever she is.
32. Confusion
Even when she forces him to tell her exactly what he wants, she can't comprehend his desires for pain and domination -- at least that's what she says.
33. Fear
She took him away from Gabriel, from Raina... all he fears now is losing her interest.
34. Lightning/Thunder
The force of her anger falls upon him like a thunderstorm, loud and painful, but even the thunder has to rest.
35. Bonds
She asks him if the handcuffs are too tight -- the answer to that will never be yes.
36. Market
He doesn't like going to the market without her list... what if he buys something she didn't want?
37. Technology
She doesn't understand the computer, but she lets him buy the most expensive one anyway, just because he says he wants it.
38. Gift
She likes to buy him things, just because... she doesn't expect anything in return, and the first few times he didn't know how to say thank you.
39. Smile
The curve of her lip, the way she ducks her head when she smiles... Nathaniel wishes he was smart or witty or something, to tell her how she looks like an angel.
40. Innocence
She is so innocent, about sex and pain and stuff, it makes Nathaniel feel old.
41. Completion
Every time he thinks he's happy, complete, he thinks of something else he wants from her -- at this rate, he'll never be satisfied and it makes him angry at her, if only for a moment.
42. Clouds
Her emotions flow over her face like clouds on a summer day... one moment she's happy with him, then she's angry, and he can't stop it any more than he could stop the rain.
43. Sky
Centred beneath her body is like being sheltered under the sky; so safe, so real.
44. Heaven
Nathaniel knows that Anita is going to heaven; after all, she's done so much for everyone, even him.
45. Hell
He remembers what that priest said about hell; Nathaniel hears the echo of hells fire every time Anita screams at him in anger.
46. Sun
He doesn't spend much time in the sun, because she wakes so late, but that's okay -- he's always hidden from the light.
47. Moon
He stares at her in the moonlight... she's as pale as death and even more lovely.
48. Waves
She loves the bath, flicking little waves of water at him playfully, but he doesn't mind -- he likes her wet.
49. Hair
One day, he knows she's going to ask him why he keeps his hair so long, and he's going to have to lie to her.
50. Supernova
There's a champagne supernova behind his eyes when she's not around; worlds exploding just because she's not there to save him.
--fin