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I should probably be posting this with my fandom journal, entrecasteaux, but I'm too lazy to log out. XD
SO YEAH I GUESS THIS IS A BIT LATE. I signed up for this about a year ago, and wrote it, and then for some reason forgot all about it and didn't post it until, you know, a year later. So, without further ado, here it is.
Fandom: Harry Potter
Pairing: Sirius/James
Rating: PG-13
Theme Set: Beta
10. Weddings
He watches carefully from the third row, his eyes shaded by the brim of his hat, and says nothing.
42. Neutral
When James told him that he was going to be best man, he just stopped and stared at him, face so expressionless that he didn’t have to say anything.
47. Valiant
Sirius still loves him.
8. Whiskey and rum
Whiskey and rum are his only friends now; in this haunted old house, the broken man sits and remembers a boy.
44. Near
They’re in the showers, after the match, and James is frowning heavily and saying, “I dunno, I thought Finch might’ve done a bit better with defending stuff from the right,” but he’s dripping wet and his towel’s slung low around his waist and suddenly, suddenly, Sirius feels sort of dizzy.
45. Natural
It all seemed so natural, somehow: the first time they kissed, it was almost like they’d been doing this for all of their lives, and just never stopped to notice.
29. Jewel
It’s a nice ring, Sirius admits grudgingly, but sometimes he just wants to grab one of her pretty little white hands and rip that undeserving finger off.
22. Quirks
“How many sugars do you take again?” she says to her husband of eight months, and James opens his mouth to reply but Sirius cuts in violently -- “He likes it with three, and no milk,” -- and sits back with the air of a point well-made.
30. Just
They lie on their backs all day -- feeling the rough wood of the boardwalk against bare skin -- doing nothing but laughing and talking and the occasional sloppy kiss, and it is glorious.
6. Whimsy
PotterandBlack didn’t do things for any particular reason, PotterandBlack did things because they wanted to, impulsively, and damn the consequences, so was this any different, after all?
2. Waltz
They’re teenagers, and they’re drunk, and somehow it makes sense to put on James’ mother’s Celestina Warbeck albums and dance; neither of them wants to be the girl, so they both try to lead at the same time and end up a tangled mess of limbs and laughter on the floor.
5. Worry
It seems to James that Sirius is never worried about anything, and that’s part of the charm of being with him, isn’t it, ‘cause Sirius is so confident that everything will be all right in the end, that something will turn up, that it’s like a high-wire act -- falling and grabbing onto something, swooping and exhilarating.
37. Soliloquy
A duo, a duple, a duet, they were, but now only half’s left and he sings his song alone as he tends to the fire, he tells his story to the audience that isn’t there.
1. Walking
They go out when it’s rainy, just the two of them, when no one in their right minds would possibly want to be outside: freedom, laughter, and hasty handjobs behind the old oak tree, and isn’t that just the way it’s supposed to be?
17. Belief
You see, James and his motorbike and happiness are all one and the same in Sirius’ head, however jumbled-up they might be, and sometimes, just sometimes, as he sits in that dirty old kitchen in his dirty old family home, he thinks that if he can just get that bike back, he’ll see James right outside, grinning and ready to go.
19. Balcony
Having made it to Grimmauld Place relatively unscathed, James completes The Great Rescue of ‘75 by breaking into the yard and climbing up into Sirius’ balcony -- he always has had a romantic streak -- and Sirius says “You great big bloody poofer, what the hell are you doing here,” and James says, grinning, “Rescuing my damsel in distress,” and Sirius takes a swipe at his head, and that’s how James knows he’s glad to see him.
28. Jousting
Er, it seemed like a good idea at the time?
13. Bias
“Now, was that an amazing catch, or what?” Sirius the Quidditch Commentator shouts, face alight with glee.
18. Balloon
They decide to go to the Muggle fair nearby, and after going on all of the more dangerous rides at least twice, they buy a bunch of balloons and release them into the sky, all at once, just for the hell of it.
23. Quarrel
“I already promised Lily that I’d go out with her today, and--”
39. Share
Sirius Black has never been very good at sharing.
31. Smirk
“Who d’you fancy, Sirius?” Peter asks curiously, and Sirius can see James smirking at him out of the corner of his eye, and just for a moment he wants to punch the daylights out of the arrogant bastard.
38. Sojourn & 16. Breaking
Lily goes off for a brief stay with her family before the wedding, and, just for a few days, things go back to normal again. He knows it’ll hurt even more when they do get married, but right now he doesn’t care.
49. Victory
Sometimes, James hates that he’s always gotten everything he’s ever wanted, in the end.
33. Stupidity
"Hopefully, he hasn't been mauled to death yet," James snaps, preparing to dash off to the Whomping Willow; he spits, "God, Sirius, how could you be so fucking stupid?" and it feels like a slap in the face.
48. Virtuous
Lily’s out with Harry, getting baby food or something, and Sirius has him pinned against the wall, Come on, for old time’s sake, but James breaks away, face torn, and says No, no, we can’t -- Sirius stares at him, angry and disgusted, sneers, Since when are you so virtuous?
46. Horizon
Flying on Buckbeack that night, as he escapes from the castle, is like everything and nothing he’s ever experienced: like his beloved motorbike, like standing on the roof of the castle when they’d snuck up late at night, like freedom itself, and he flies into the horizon.
43. Nuance
But James knew every nuance of Sirius’ features, every subtlety of his emotions, and that’s why it was so transparently false when he pretended not to know why Sirius was upset.
11. Birthday and 3. Wishes
“Blow out the candles,” Molly says bracingly, trying to be cheerful, and Sirius, touched despite himself, grins; “Go on, blow them out, what d’you wish for?” and, just like that, his smile vanishes. He looks at her, his eyes blank, and Molly wants to kick herself -- she tries to apologize, but what can you say?
7. Waste/Wasteland
It’s a wasteland when he arrives, rubble and death and that fucking skull in the air; amid the wreckage, a baby begins to cry.
9. War
“They killed Marlene yesterday,” Sirius says grimly, and James whirls on him, bright-eyed, with an ugly look on his face, and tells him to shut up.
4. Wonder & 12. Blessing
They’re in awe of each other, those two: James of his recklessness and his brilliance and his sudden grin and his incredible, indescribable beauty and Sirius of his messy hair and his friendly disposition and his nobility and his perfection. James, rather arrogantly, takes Sirius for granted -- of course he’d have wonderful parents, and lots of money, and brains and talent, and the best friend anyone could ever ask for, to boot -- but he realizes, later, how blessed he is, and he hates it.
14. Burning
“Bloody hell,” James says, awed, when they realize that they’ve just inadvertently set the Fat Lady on fire all the way from the Hufflepuff common room, and when Sirius lets out a mad cackle, James grabs him and kisses him.
34. Serenade
Of course in the end, his story, like all great stories, was just one big love song.
41. Nowhere
A year ago, he was wandering nowhere with Buckbeak, lost and drifting and depressed, but now he sees he’d rather be nowhere then stuck in this stupid fucking house.
36. Sordid
James leaves Harry with Lily so he can go and visit Sirius, see how he's doing: Sirius' place is sordid, and his breath smells like whisky, and James remembers dimly thinking that Sirius never did know how to take care of himself.
25. Quitting
“I thought you quit,” James says, as Sirius lights a cigarette, and Sirius tosses such a contemptuous look that James accidentally bites his tongue.
35. Sarcasm
Sarcasm (another S word, no wonder Snape has mastered this cruel, sneaky art to perfection) is something that Sirius never uses -- well, of course he uses it in that obnoxious, obvious way that everyone does, but not like the rest of the Blacks do, delicate and insidious; the first time Sirius does, it’s like a slap in the face.
32. Sorrow
“I’m never going to fucking get over you, James Potter,” Sirius says bitterly; “I’m telling you this because I hope it makes you feel really fucking bad,” and James says helplessly, “I--”
21. Quiet
The first thing Sirius thinks, when he checks up on Peter that Halloween, is that it’s much too quiet.
27. Jester
Sometimes Sirius wonders if this is all really just one of James' elaborate jokes: if, any moment now, he'll pop out from behind the corner and say, "Gotcha!" and they'll be fifteen again, making faces at Madam Pince and turning Remus' book back a page every time he isn't looking.
50. Defeat
When the Dementors get him, he begins to laugh, because somewhere, somehow, he has to admit, it is kind of funny, it is kind of fucking funny, isn’t it?
20. Bane
Sirius still loves him.
26. Jump
“Hullo,” the boy says, “My name’s James Potter, what’s yours?”