I feel like such a waste of space today.  It's my day off what have i done? Andy and I were fighting this morning but i do feel slightly better now.  I'm only depressed about the Earth.  so why am i not outside? also i am really starting to miss people.  just visiting random myspace pages, looking through pictures...i don't know why i felt like i  ( Read more... )

When we hear that song, we will dance ( Read more... )

i woke up this morning
i found that i had
a smile on my face
i asked myself whats this for
and i remembered you
and i thought of you

reality
you barely know me
i want to know you
i want to sit beside you
and talk about anything
i wanna be with you
everyday with you
but that
that wont happen
that probly wont happen
no way
no way

but then i recall last nights drama
i ( Read more... )

ohhhhhhhhhhhh LIFE.

!!

i don't know how we ended up hurting each other so much. 
when neither of us ever could. 
i love you.

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i want to be important. 
i want someone to lay with. 
i don't ever want to think about anything ever again. 
i want to believe in love. 
i want to have someone to talk to.

this is why im purposely isolating myself.
well maybe it's not on purpose.
it's just happening.

i want to feel happy. 
i want to be able to trust someone. and have it be worth it that i trusted them. 
not trust someone completely so that they can hurt me.
i dont want people to lie to me. 
i want to be close to someone. 
i dont want anyone to use me.

im so upset and confused.

i hate you this time.

im gonna make a stupid decision and go get drunk tonight even tho its not necessary and probably not gonna be that much funps: i love carla.