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[libraterra]

 
I don't know how much longer I can hang on.  I've been a while now without hurting myself, but the urge is coming back so strong.  I feel like every time I gain some ground, everything falls even further down.  I have recently found out what the main people in my life really thinks about me - and it wasn't pretty.  The sad thing is, the things

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[baretoedgirl]

I'm really sorry you are having a hard time with people. I went through that about 10 mos ago, big time...I'm not even on speaking terms to the people that were formerly most important to me. It was totally crippling. I know what its like to be numb, I know what its like to WISH you were numb to escape the pain...trying so hard to find peace and some balance that makes sense and is liveable. Stay strong, fight as long as you can.
I don't know you well, but I do know that you are not inadequate in my eyes, or "not enough"...what I've seen of you here, you've been supportive of other people (including myself), and offered help freely and willingly, despite your own struggles. Thats pretty amazing.
Take care of yourself...