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huihui24 in 21_gashes

Think positive

Oct 10, 2009 19:25

Aloha All,

I am holding strong with resisting the urge to cut….today while flipping thru the channels I came across a made for TV movie about SI called “Painful Secrets”, I remember watching this movie in the late 90’s and feeling like it was almost mirroring my situations/my feelings. It was defiantly triggering. As I sat there watching this I ( Read more... )

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superbondo October 11 2009, 09:55:12 UTC

Just wanted to extend some support to you. It's hard to ride it out when you've been triggered, and harder still when you don't have many people to talk to about it (or that may understand.)

You're not alone; even shitty Lifetime movies can be horribly triggering. We're here. :-)

huihui24 October 12 2009, 02:15:15 UTC

~that’s funny I totally agree - this movie had bad acting and over dramatic scenes but …yes still triggering.

Super b from the islands? I can’t remember the doc I was seeing, I believe you were my caseworker….it would be shy of 3yrs ago? Is any of this ringing a bell? I dunno..if so “HI” if not oopppss sorry.

baretoedgirl October 11 2009, 18:23:52 UTC

I used to watch intervention sometimes. Or any other bloody movie that had triggers in it for me. I used to like the punishment of watching it, and seeing how strong I was. It was weird, but to this day I'm not strong enough to turn the channel or leave the room.
Great job not cutting though, that really is good. Don't forget to be nice to yourself in other ways while you are struggling with this. Buy a special treat, or light some candles and read a favorite book, or just do something fun you don't normally do. That always helps me get out of my head a bit, and remember to enjoy life.
Stay strong and take good care!

huihui24 October 12 2009, 02:30:11 UTC

You verbalized what I couldn’t…its like I am torching myself and “testing” how much I can watching before I break.

I don’t want to let myself down at the same time I don’t want to beat myself up about it…..I feel selfish with all these “I” statements. I hope the best for you and thank you for the kind words.

baretoedgirl October 12 2009, 02:53:12 UTC

Funny...for the longest time I thought I was the only one that felt that way...part of me wanting to be strong, part of me wanting to fail so I can fit the image I have in my head about how messed up I am.
Anyway, you don't sound selfish. Just honest. There is a difference. :o)
Stay strong and take good care.