so anyway! today was horrible! ben made me cry like six times! errrrrrr! i should have listened to my mom! but anyway here is the story! i was in ae an i started to cry out of the bloo! i mean i didn't know what was wrong with me! so i started to have my little panic attacks! and i got mad for some reason! when i got to breakfast kyle and carla ( Read more... )

so anyway! the search to make my parents has came to a climax, i was talking to my mom about how weird justin main was being and well she brought up the topic about how she wants me to find a nice good looking guy that is decently rich! lol! yeah right! they are all jerks! but anyway, when i asked about what she thought of ben, she told me no that ( Read more... )

http://www.sunfyre.com/links/petsphotos.htm you guys have got to look at this!

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so i am in government and we are in the library so i am writing! lol! i am done with the thiny i had to do! lol! i was so frustrated doing it though, so i started to guess! lol! so anyway! ben just left! lol! so we are dating now, but like no one can know! see my mom wont let me date anyone, since i guess that i have been dating too many people ( Read more... )

so ben is over at my house! and i know that i sound like a little school girl, but i am so excited! yay! i really miss hanging around him! nothing he can do can make me sad, well as long as he is by me and talking to me! i am so giggley! lol! omg! i wish that i could date! i would want him to ask me out! but my mom doesn't want me to date for ( Read more... )

so i hung out with ben today, and well i have to say, i wish that i could've sat in his arms all night! lol1 i gave him a note explaining how i feel about him, and well i haven't got an answer yet, but i am hoping when i do it's good! lol! well i have to go! peace out!

ok, i woke up at like 10:30 today, and then i knew today was going to be a good day! i watched the fodd network shows with dad and micki, and they seem to be in a good mood! yay! i'm happy for them! i kinda don't have a specific mood today! i'm kinda just here! i wanna go work in the yard, but dad and micki want to pay ben and steve for that! ( Read more... )

hey this is the rest of our discussion coming from school! i would have wrote in my dairy, but i dont need scott reading it! that would be bad! ok, to explain how i feel, i love ben, but i care for scott! i dont know why, and i would rather be dead than have to make a decision! i know it is better for my rep if i break up with him, but i dont know ( Read more... )

ok...i know...crystal...i haven't been updating on my lj a lot, but i do on my other thingie so i forget! i'm sprry yall! lol! so anyway! i had a good day today! yup, no reason, but i did!