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[21enemies]

I honestly am not even sure what I'm doing with my life anymore.

Each day is harder than the one before it. I don't get along with my parents. I used to, but I don't anymore. If my father isn't acting like he's a fucking eight year old, he's demanding I eat. So is my mother. We fight about it every single damn day. Them trying to shove food down my

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[21enemies]

Yeah, what's going on with my mom certainly doesn't help. And part of it is that I feel so badly fighting with her when she's recovering herself, but I need her to lay off at the same time, and let me try to handle this in my own way.

Thank you <3 It's comforting to hear that, y'know? That someone actually does think I can make it through this.

[ordinaryxday]

Don't say that. Please, don't say that. Because life would not be easier if it was over. I've been there before, wanting nothing more than to just leave this world, but it gets better. I can promise you that it gets better. It might take a little bit, but it does. c:

I understand the fighting with your parents and how it can stress you out. I went through a few months of similar things, but mine was more so along the lines of my mom forcing me to take my medication and eat balanced meals. Just try your hardest not to freak right out on them.

Because, like you said, help is a week away. And even if it seems like something to be iffy about, help is always good. My counselor got me to talk about things I never talked about and we figured a lot of shit out. I'm confident that you'll find things to go the same way.

But whatever you do, don't give up. I'm here if you ever want to talk. I'm always willing to listen and give the best advice possible.

<3

[21enemies]

I really want to believe it's going to get better. I'm sure it's true, but I'm at a point in my life where the light at the end of the tunnel isn't exactly visible. I wish I had more courage and positivity, but lately. . . it's been lacking :/

Oh, man, is it hard not to freak out on them. They're so insistent, so stubborn that their way is the only way, and it can't be. Y'know? But that's encouraging to hear, that you had a good experience with a counselor! I honestly haven't had much positive feedback on counseling, so that's comforting.

Thank you so much. Like. Truly and honestly, that means so fucking much <3

[saintxcharlatan]

Fuck school, I'm flying out to New York and smuggling you back to Wisconsin with me. Enroll you in my school. Seriously. Your parents are failing so hardcore with this. Mine wouldn't scream at you to eat something...

And please, please, please don't talk like that. I know it's gotta be unimaginably difficult to be going through this, but you'll make it through. Hopefully, once the proper help finally starts, it might get a bit easier to cope with.

I'm here whenever you need me, love. Whenever you're feeling down, text me. Doesn't matter what time of day <4569

[21enemies]

Could you please? I hate living here right now. It's like a constant war going on, everything's so fucking tense, and my mom isn't herself. . . ajkfsjdkf. Just lemme bunk with you for a bit :(

I'm sorry, I just. I don't know, lately it's been hard, but I'll try to grin and bear it. Help can only. . . help, y'know, and hopefully then I'll have a brighter outlook.

Thanks, wifey. You've already been so awesome, and y'know I appreciate it <4569 I don't know what I'd do without you, babe.