These past three weeks have been wonderful to me. They have meant so much to know that i can be somewhere in this world where i am appreciated. I always thought that oxford i am appreciated but i am in alot of ways looked down on. But ( Read more... )

today i decided i had to live my life. I know brian wouldnt want to see me grief in the way that i imagine of doing. I went to work today but i left early because my day was so miserable just thinking to myself all of the times we did spend. and how i could have prevented all of this from happening ( Read more... )

i think nows the best time to ask your favorite question....
what the fuck is really goin on?

THAT WAS ALL I HAD TO DO! JUST ONE! ONE FUCKING PHONE CALL!

I dont usually lead a what if life but this time, i cant help it ( Read more... )

Love is patient; Love is kind. It does not envy;It does not boast. Love is not proud. Its not rude. Love IS NOT self seeking. It is not easily angered. Love keeps NO records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It always protects; always trusts; always hopes; always perserveres ( Read more... )

I didnt mean for you to be dissapointed ( Read more... )

it is about 1:30 am and i cant sleep. The one and only thing that runs through my head is, well, everything. I just got off the phone with the one person that actually knows me. The one guy that never questioned me. Never hurt me(intentionally). Never doubted me. He was/is the one guy that always understood me ( Read more... )

you know the weirdest emotion came over me today. you know what that was? Nothing at all. It is a Saturday!! Keep that one in mind. I am supposed to be out drinkin with a few good friends and BY CHOICE, this is what i did today. I woke up at 8:30 to go shopping. Those of you who know me know i can get up to go to work (sometimes) but thats as far ( Read more... )

to every one who does check this, you know my life story and i just miss you all