sexual tic-tac-toe;
so.. i'm not dead. /sidles back into view/ excuse the title of this post, adam lambert's voice is almost all that i'm blasting these days.
it's pretty apparent that i've left my lj to fester on its own for about two months and that i've not done any posting of fics or any post for that matter. it's not that i mean to, really- i was only planning to take a really, really short break after my basketball competitions and first preliminary exams before jumping right back into my writing tracksuit, but shit blossomed and this fucking absence happened. i don't really know if anyone remembers me, or even knows me for that matter, but i just wanted to apologise for my un-informed hiatus haha.
and for reasons that have contributed to my hiatus:
1. school. just boring, dreary school.
i'm graduating this year, and thus i'll be taking my national exams around mid october till early november, then receiving my results somewhere in january. my school's really good at rubbing our noses raw against the books, so we've got three preliminary exams since march, each about a month or so apart. i'm just done with my second one, and luckily i haven't screwed up badly or anything. i had to study half the syllabuses and then some more for most of the subjects i'm taking, and just this monday i took a chinese national exam, which happens to be one of my weakest subjects. i'm just hoping a get a distinction this time because it's the second time i'm taking the chinese paper, and i mugged a bazillion times harder this time. don't judge me i know i'm chinese /facepalms
2. the glorious writer's block.
i've been trying to write in my hiatus, but honestly i scrapped stuff more than i wrote them. within two months i scrapped like, ten fics that i've written halfway and just given up on because they just started looking too unrealistic. i do get lots of plot bunnies that just breed all by their lonesomes in the back of my mind, but for some reason i can never get them to work the way i want them to. the break has taken away my ability to write properly, and truthfully i'm quite upset about that, because writing is one of the few things that i really enjoy doing. does anyone have any ideas on how to get rid of writer's block?
now that i've sort of explained myself a little bit for my disappearance, i want to give a sort-of update about my current writing status and such. which is seriously unimpressive and rock bottom.
1. love me whenever
i know that this series hasn't been updated in forever and a couple of eternities.firstly, i'd like to apologise sincerely to every single reader of lmw, because in my hiatus i have reviewed what i've written so far, and coupled with teh writer's block i'm having lately, i'm afraid that i wouldn't be continuing the series anymore. it's not that i don't love it (it is one of my first fics after all), but whenever i try to get started on the next chapter, i find my story increasingly disgusting and weak, and that the plot seems really flat. the essays that i have written in school in my absence have made me realize that the way i think and my writing style has been gradually changing, and that the way lmw is written just doesn't feel right for me anymore. i know i said that i will be discontinuing the series, but at the same time i've decided to rewrite the entire thing, and fix it so that it flows like a smooth long!fic. i feel like what i'm doing is such a disappointment, but i do hope that the revised version in the future will be a good enough apology to anyone who's been reading and waiting for the next update.
2. under wraps
this is something new that i've started, and it was my last post. again, i wouldn't be continuing it anymore, because the plot bunny is a horrendously unbelievable one, and personally i think that the 2min in the story would just seem very dubious. i wouldn't be a ble to convey their relationship properly. it's shit of me to start fics and not continue them, i know, but i really think that i could do better.
3. future works
i'll be coming back with a new fic. this time, i'm solemnly swearing that i will never abandon this one, because i spent a long time mapping out the plot and sort of giving its world a skeleton. it's going to be a jongkey AU long!fic. i feel that my comeback piece (lmfao) should be a minkey, since i ship them wtih all my heart, but for some reason when this plot bunny started breeding and devouring all my thoughts about anything else, i kept seeing jonghyun in my head as the one. i tried to twist the plot so many times just so i could make minho the protaganist and not feel weird about it, but it just didn't work out. so, jongkey it stays. i'm far from finishing it, but i sincerely hope that i'll be able to post it by the end of june.
if anyone is still reading this post, well thankyou for staying with me. i don't understand how i can always come up with such long posts that don't say much, really! till the next time, and i'd just like to say i miss all of my lj friends that i've managed to establish some kind of friendship with out here. i wish i knew all of you in real life. if you guys would like to, follow me on twitter; my name's @THEDERPKEYED. i get kind of noisy over there, so beware. but it would be nice to have more lj-ers on my tlist and have more people to spazz with!
somebody should share with me the secret to manic writing. i never understand how many writers find the time to sit down and churn thousands of words everyday and post long!fics every few days..
it's pretty apparent that i've left my lj to fester on its own for about two months and that i've not done any posting of fics or any post for that matter. it's not that i mean to, really- i was only planning to take a really, really short break after my basketball competitions and first preliminary exams before jumping right back into my writing tracksuit, but shit blossomed and this fucking absence happened. i don't really know if anyone remembers me, or even knows me for that matter, but i just wanted to apologise for my un-informed hiatus haha.
and for reasons that have contributed to my hiatus:
1. school. just boring, dreary school.
i'm graduating this year, and thus i'll be taking my national exams around mid october till early november, then receiving my results somewhere in january. my school's really good at rubbing our noses raw against the books, so we've got three preliminary exams since march, each about a month or so apart. i'm just done with my second one, and luckily i haven't screwed up badly or anything. i had to study half the syllabuses and then some more for most of the subjects i'm taking, and just this monday i took a chinese national exam, which happens to be one of my weakest subjects. i'm just hoping a get a distinction this time because it's the second time i'm taking the chinese paper, and i mugged a bazillion times harder this time. don't judge me i know i'm chinese /facepalms
2. the glorious writer's block.
i've been trying to write in my hiatus, but honestly i scrapped stuff more than i wrote them. within two months i scrapped like, ten fics that i've written halfway and just given up on because they just started looking too unrealistic. i do get lots of plot bunnies that just breed all by their lonesomes in the back of my mind, but for some reason i can never get them to work the way i want them to. the break has taken away my ability to write properly, and truthfully i'm quite upset about that, because writing is one of the few things that i really enjoy doing. does anyone have any ideas on how to get rid of writer's block?
now that i've sort of explained myself a little bit for my disappearance, i want to give a sort-of update about my current writing status and such. which is seriously unimpressive and rock bottom.
1. love me whenever
i know that this series hasn't been updated in forever and a couple of eternities.firstly, i'd like to apologise sincerely to every single reader of lmw, because in my hiatus i have reviewed what i've written so far, and coupled with teh writer's block i'm having lately, i'm afraid that i wouldn't be continuing the series anymore. it's not that i don't love it (it is one of my first fics after all), but whenever i try to get started on the next chapter, i find my story increasingly disgusting and weak, and that the plot seems really flat. the essays that i have written in school in my absence have made me realize that the way i think and my writing style has been gradually changing, and that the way lmw is written just doesn't feel right for me anymore. i know i said that i will be discontinuing the series, but at the same time i've decided to rewrite the entire thing, and fix it so that it flows like a smooth long!fic. i feel like what i'm doing is such a disappointment, but i do hope that the revised version in the future will be a good enough apology to anyone who's been reading and waiting for the next update.
2. under wraps
this is something new that i've started, and it was my last post. again, i wouldn't be continuing it anymore, because the plot bunny is a horrendously unbelievable one, and personally i think that the 2min in the story would just seem very dubious. i wouldn't be a ble to convey their relationship properly. it's shit of me to start fics and not continue them, i know, but i really think that i could do better.
3. future works
i'll be coming back with a new fic. this time, i'm solemnly swearing that i will never abandon this one, because i spent a long time mapping out the plot and sort of giving its world a skeleton. it's going to be a jongkey AU long!fic. i feel that my comeback piece (lmfao) should be a minkey, since i ship them wtih all my heart, but for some reason when this plot bunny started breeding and devouring all my thoughts about anything else, i kept seeing jonghyun in my head as the one. i tried to twist the plot so many times just so i could make minho the protaganist and not feel weird about it, but it just didn't work out. so, jongkey it stays. i'm far from finishing it, but i sincerely hope that i'll be able to post it by the end of june.
if anyone is still reading this post, well thankyou for staying with me. i don't understand how i can always come up with such long posts that don't say much, really! till the next time, and i'd just like to say i miss all of my lj friends that i've managed to establish some kind of friendship with out here. i wish i knew all of you in real life. if you guys would like to, follow me on twitter; my name's @THEDERPKEYED. i get kind of noisy over there, so beware. but it would be nice to have more lj-ers on my tlist and have more people to spazz with!
somebody should share with me the secret to manic writing. i never understand how many writers find the time to sit down and churn thousands of words everyday and post long!fics every few days..