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[boyonherbicycle]

I'm afraid to tell my friend that the reason I can't look at her or talk to her in person is because she reminds me of myself when I had anorexia.

I'm afraid to tell her that I can't look at her because I want to throw up every time I do.

I'm also afraid that I'll go back to that, and I can't.  It's hard enough to not think about the amount of food

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[firebomber]

I had to defriend a very close friend of mine on livejournal because she fell back into her eating disorder right around the time I was starting to develop one. She got very angry; I still haven't told her why I had to defriend her.

I can understand your fear, and your need to keep distance. Is there any way of reaching out to her to help her, through a letter or something?

[boyonherbicycle]

I follow her on tumblr, so we tend to send messages to each other. I mentioned it to her, and she said that she's trying to get better (which is true, last time I saw her she passed out because she didn't eat) but she regresses and it's just... hard because I relate to that D: