i've noticed myself doing this a lot lately...and it sucks to do and makes me feel really alone when i do it but i cant even help it anymore its the firs thting that comes to mind. i'v been noticing certain things that would be really fun to do, if i had somene there to share em with. example...the other day i was watchign a movie... by msyelf and ( Read more... )

i just woke up, marni just called me... it was great to hear her voice again. lindsay says im sensitive... i am damn sensitive and fuckin proud of it.. she yelled at me cuz i told ehr i think i bother her and monica... but i think i do sometimes..heh i dunno im weird, i get wierd vibes er whatever u wanna call it from people sometimes. im a wierd ( Read more... )

blaaah im off today, and tomorrow...and sunday and monday. and i probably wont do much of anything all these days...hopefully we'll record our acoustic song..i like it a lot. interesting/funny stuff just occured...we beat out our friends from dklimb on the mp3.cm davie charts...thats kinda funny im tired and bored...gonna go... watched beavis and ( Read more... )

what an ironic emo way to say goodbye to marni tonight...fun nigh...very little activity, but still a good outing, it was enjoyable...lindsays house is laid out really cool heh i liked it a lot. but anyway she took me home for the last time...for a while anyway. brought back memories from her taking me home from school everyday. even thought about ( Read more... )

wow summers gonna suck dirty...i hate it...i hate working allday long even tho i have deent hours, it sucks to have to be working... today is marnis last day here, that sucks. im gonna keep this a non emo night...hopefully heh im waiting now for lindsay to come pick me up.. we'r hanign out with marni and other people. if we EVEr leave lol im so ( Read more... )

so this is my declaration ...or something ....whatever ( Read more... )

why do i feel like i failed at something?
i feel like im not good enough for anything
not good enuff for a really good band
not good enuff for my parents
not good enuff for her
im not even good enough for my job at a concession stand
this is frustration...this is me

prior show tonight...they played good...met beyond thee echoes..thanks to rachel, that was cool...maybe i have a problem or something, i dont kno, i wish i could figure out whats wrong w/ me ( Read more... )

whyyyyyy am i home at 930???? its soo early and im home already... went to a baseball game w/ nicole and jessica, nicole was "tired" o em and jessica both went home...and here i am... im very blah today. how come every time im out somewhere i get like 800 diff. phone calls, but when im home by myself bored... no one calls? ah i hope someone calls

today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you ( Read more... )