okay...so....I've lost hope I think

[2muchawesomness]

So you said you'd be there
fuck, how could I believe
that you'd be telling the truth?
I might've hoped for it
or maybe really thought
that you could really love me
that you could tell me
something that I'd trust in
but once again, fuck,
I believed too much
I believed you'd come with me


so you now try to say
that I was the wrong one
that I said the wrong words
and so you made me believe
and so you made be worry
seeming that I'd been so wrong
thinking I'd gone a bad way
thinking I'd gone the wrong way
but where did I do it
if I went so very bad
if I went so very wrong
tell me when did that happen?

I'd just like to know
just to find out
just to know the actual truth
can we ask someone
someone else
someone close, of course
but someone
someone between us
so hey, maybe we can ask?
maybe we find out
maybe we can see who knows
I'd like to guess
like to guess that maybe I'm right
but I must say
that me and right
I'm not usually that way
its usually you

go ahead, laugh, mock,
giggle and guffaw
but fucker and fuckers
just know that I'm more
I'm more than I've been
because that's what the first love does
it changes me
and so recently I changed
so much its too much
too much too fast and too
changed.

go with me
I'll make the journey worth
the trouble that you take.
so please, if I may ask
can you come along with me?
take the trouble, take the time
I love you more
than you'll ever guess
but you'll never know
but you'll never love me back
because when the time comes
the love...the love....