Public entry.
Who knows, maybe you'll learn something about me here that you never knew before.
I DISLIKE
[in no particular order]
1. Eating noises. Bleurgh. Nothing drives me up the wall quite like loud and moist chewing does.
2. Telephones and calling people on them.
3. Creepy strangers, both on the internet and in the real world
4. Studying endlessly for a test and then not knowing anything on it. Similarly, discovering you've failed when you thought you'd done a really good job.
5. When people only talk to me so they can ask about my brother. You try living in his shadow for a while and see how you like it.
6. Loneliness or feeling ignored/unloved.
7. People who are mean for no reason.
8. Unnecessary drama
9. Jerks, bitches, idiots, whiners, pessimists, lalalala
10. Stupid fights
11. People who walk into your house or something and act like they own the place; Privacy invasions.
12. Ja Rule. I don't need a reason.
13. This one memory that haunts me. I don't want to elaborate.
14. Waking up really early
15. Morning breath
16. How Abercrombie or Victoria's Secret models are usually naked. Wtf.
17. When your contact lenses dry up in your eyes and there's nothing you can do about it.
18. Breaking nails really far down. Not because it looks ugly, because it fucking HURTS. Ripped part of my toenail off a while ago. Bled like a mother.
19. Severe humidity on really hot days
20. Feeling left out or out of the loop. See #6.
21. Getting into big trouble
22. People who do drugs or drink just so they can brag about it later as if it's their most notable achievement. [NOTE: I don't care if you do it, honestly, it's your life; but it's lame to do it primarily because you think talking about it later on makes you look cool.]
23. Jealously
24. Those days when you're just in a really bad mood and everything pisses you off, and everybody around you hates it too, which pisses you off more, which pisses them off more, and it's just a whole cycle of pissyness.
25. Excessive armpit sweating. Excessive sweating elsewhere for that matter.
26. Really intense feelings that make your heart physically hurt [like grief or helplessness], except that's not necessarily bad because it happens with good feelings too.
27. When you say something like "Sorry, I'm in a bad mood" and whomever you're talking to says something like, "No shit! You've been such a bitch today" and it's just like, okay, I admitted it. No need for you to make it worse.
28. Hopelessness
29. Random aches and pains that you can't get rid of, so you're just in pointless agony.
30. My age. I'm old enough to be mature and independent but too young to do anything about it.
32. My downhill trend in school. All my A's turned into B's, and my hopes of getting into a good college are dying. A 3.0 is pretty much failure compared to the 3.93 GPA I averaged in grades 6-9.
33. When you try to be the better person by apologizing for something [like a fight] that you didn't even start, and the person you're apologizing to starts yelling and starting the fight all over again.
34. Acne
35. Having wonky nutrition at the brink of puberty so I'm smaller and less developed than I would have been.
36. Really realistic nightmares
37. The fact that grades and SAT scores are such a huge factor in getting into college.
38. My love-hate-hate-love-like-loate relationship with my mother. This should probably be higher on the list.
39. Not being as smart as people sometimes think I am.
40. Change for the worse
41. Frustration
42. Those rare hysterical breakdowns where I can't figure out why I'm crying but I can't stop for the life of me.
43. Insecurities
44. Not being able to get something distracting off your mind
45. Trusting somebody and having them betray you
46. Losing people close to you
47. Feeling fat or ugly or stupid or overall "not good enough"
48. The ticking of clocks in really quiet rooms
49. PMS. And cramps, the ones that make you throw up because they hurt so bad.
50. Theatre politics
I LIKE
[again, no particular order]
1. Many more things than I dislike. I'm probably going to forget several and add them on as time goes by.
2. My friends
3. My dad and my brothers
4. Daydreaming and thinking "what if"
5. Baby pictures and home movies.
6. Catching rain in umbrellas instead of shielding myself from it
7. Theatre
8. Birthdays
9. Middle names
10. The time period between September and December
11. Fingerpainting
12. Jumping fences
13. Birthmarks that look like something [I've got Orion's Belt on my face and a vampire's bite on my neck]
14. Wind blowing in my face
15. Conversations without words, just facial expressions and pure feelings
16. Cooking food over an open fire
17. Cirque du Soliel
18. Swinging in hammocks, especially near the beach, where you can hear the waves and smell the salty air
19. Dipping my fingers in hot candle wax and letting it dry on my fingers
20. Putting my face in the freezer on a really hot day, or wrapping myself in a towel straight from the dryer on a really cold day
21. The smell of gasoline and kerosene
22. Old fashioned photo booths
23. Attention
24. Those days where everything just seems to go your way
25. Awkward silences
26. The sensation of piercing something
27. Tattoos
28. Patterned toilet paper and how it's too pretty to use
29. Crowdsurfing as a way of getting out of a really unpleasant moshpit
30. Getting caught by a bouncer
31. Days where it's raining so hard that there's a loud roar coming from outside
32. Going outside in said rain and getting drenched
33. Going outside in said rain, but staying wrapped in a blanket under a covering [especially if I'm also eating something hot]
34. Scars, physical and emotional
35. Having somebody who doesn't even know my name care about me
36. Staring out the window to the driveway waiting for somebody to show up
37. Learning cheat codes in video games
38. Saying parts of a conversation in spanish; Spanglish
39. Twins and triplets, especially identical
40. Feeling like there's somebody watching over me [even though I'm not religious]
41. Having somebody hold your hair back for you when you're sick
42. The distorted reflection on a lamp or a similar uneven shiny surface
43. The feeling in your stomach when a rollercoaster drops
44. Watching a fire burn out
45. Roller skates/blades
46. Finding things in bizarre places
47. Coloring books
48. Toddlers
49. Surprises
50. Being an Autumn baby on the lip of Summer
51. Naming things
52. Harry Potter
53. Getting a joke before everybody else
54. Getting a joke after everybody else
55. Squeezing into the backseat of a car with too many people
56. My cat, he's my favorite
57. Mohawks and fauxhawks
58. Lucid Dreaming
59. Dressing up for no reason at all
60. Running away
61. Falling down
62. Being happy for other people
63. Holding fistfuls of sand and letting it run out between your fingers.
64. Feeling like nothing can stand in your way
65. Thinking in Spanish or a foreign accent and the feeling of bewilderment as you realize you're doing so
66. Oprah Winfrey, I want to be her when I grow up
67. Those moments when you don't know whether to laugh or cry
68. Chewing on straws until they're mangled
69. Dead flowers
70. Feeling somebody look at me
71. How different a person's face looks when they get their braces on or off
72. Having my cheeks or stomach hurt from laughing so much
73. Spinning around in circles until I'm so dizzy that I fall over, or if I'm wearing a really flowy skirt that fans out as I spin
74. Seeing things in clouds
75. Looking at the stars on really clear nights, especially when there's a meteor shower or you see a shooting star
76. Neon colors
77. Applying song lyrics to real life
78. Licking envelopes shut
79. Seeing somebody you were just thinking about
80. Unusual piercings
81. Skirts floating up in the wind Seven-Year-Itch style
82. Canada and the UK
83. Highlighters
84. Telling a secret I've been holding in for a really long time
85. Finding errors in publications like really popular books
86. Doing bizarre things in public places to see other peoples' reactions
87. Backscratches
88. Laughing at everything when it's really late and I'm tired
89. Melting things like plastic spoons
90. Goosebumps from being excited or scared
91. Telling somebody something and then realizing afterward that it wasn't even remotely true
92. Writing on windows or glass with dry erase markers
93. Barbies
94. Handcuffs, toy and fuzzy and real
95. Late-night talks
96. Reading between the lines
97. Seeing spots after you've looked at a really bright light
98. Warm and breezy nights
99. Floating on my back in water
100. Life
101. Eating something that nobody else will dare touch
102. Making play-doh
103. Sitting in shopping carts
104. The sensation of poprocks popping in your mouth
105. Vacations
106. Laughing at something funny when nobody else is around
107. Sneezing
108. Pokemon
109. Full House
110. Dying my hair
111. 25 cent candy and gumball machines
112. Holding a baby
113. Playing with makeup
114. Basements and attics
115. Learning something shocking
116. Brightly colored tights and leggings
117. 1337
118. Putting your hands together slowly so it doesn't make a sound and then putting them together quickly so it makes a loud clap. Try it, IT'S MIND BOGGLING.
119. Promises
120. A Bright Eyes song. SHHHH.
121. Weird designs
122. Crossword puzzles and wordsearches
123. Meeting new people
124. Putting headphones on but not listening to music
125. Letting my mind wander
126. Peeling things [like stickers or fruit]
127. Works in progress
128. Clavicles, ribs, hipbones, cheekbones
128. Tearing things perfectly
129. Listening to heartbeats
130. Holding paint and other really thick liquids
131. Ribbons, and sliding satin ones across my face. Also, wearing them around my waist or in my hair.
132. The crunch of fallen leaves under my feet
133. Long conversations that are wonderful but not about anything
134. New York & New Orleans
135. Sharing beds
136. Old photographs from when my grandparents were young
137. Understanding something perfectly when it shouldn't make sense
138. Finding something you thought you'd lost
139. Collecting memories in a box
140. Getting and giving gifts when there's no special occasion
141. Altering clothing so it fits just right
142. Driftwood or rocks that have been worn smooth by the waves
143. Rediscovering CDs and bands that I love and haven't listened to in a long time
144. Interesting and unique but not exactly pretty faces
145. Being positive you've just seen a ghost
146. Magic
147. Climbing trees and getting stuck in them
148. Halloween '04, when I spilled kerosene all over myself
149. The time I went to the zoo with Hannah and Andy and got attacked by a giraffe
150. Thrift-store and garage sale finds
151. A nice smile
152. Tea or hot chocolate on a really cold day
153. Leprechauns
154. Old movies
155. Jack-o-lanterns
156. Unintentional rhymes
157. Cute text messages
158. When you're feeling really lonely or down and suddenly get a call from a friend, as if they knew you were sad
159. Freckles
160. Castles; turrets and spiral staircases and moats
161. Broadway Musicals
162. Scissors
163. Felix The Cat clocks [where his eyes and tail move back and forth as the clock ticks]
164. Ordering off the kids' menu whenever possible
165. Learning and memorizing really trivial things that you'll never use in the real world
166. Going swimming when it's raining outside
167. Skipping rocks
168. Really good artists, I'm so jealous of their talent
169. Books that make you think
170. Transformers
171. Uniquely painted fingernails
172. Being at the very top of a mountain
173. Snow
174. :D
175. Talking Man and Conversation Girl
176. Neptune Boy
177. When my hair straightens nicely
178. Compliments from strangers because they're unbiased
179. When weird things happen to you and makes the kind of story that you re-tell over and over again
180. Getting your tongue stuck to ice cubes, or metal things outdoors when it's snowy
181. Bessie, my mooing koala Build-a-Bear
182. Rupert and Eugene, my statues of an elephant and a puma [respectively]
183. When there's a big fire near your house and the sun going through the smoke makes everything red
184. Oversized sunglasses, because I'm secretly a scenester
185. Burned CDs, because I'm secretly a pirate
186. Myspace, because I'm secretly super pathetic
187. Pretty underwear
188. Windex
189. Bass players
190. Chamber pots
191. Invisible dog leashes
192. Kool-aid
193. Crushes. This could also go in the "hates" section.
194. Silly Putty
195. Explosions
196. Organ grinders
197. The Vin Diesel Facts generator
198. Andrews and Sams
199. My goldfish, Gyarados, and my tiny turtles, Cairo [& RIP Couscous]
200. I wish I had something really cool to put here.