Give My Heart For You
Band: Dir en grey
Rating: R-NC/17
Pairing: KaoxKyo main
Chapter 2 - Unknown…Despair…A Lost
~+~Next day, Hospital~+~
As Kaoru made his way down the halls to Kyo’s room he thought of how Kyo would be handle all this. The smaller man wasn’t very strong emotionally and no matter how he tried to hide his demons, the rest of them could easily see. They had all tried their share of times to talk to him about it but he always either pushed them away or changed the subject. It sometimes worried them.
He finally came to the door and knocked quietly, opening it before awaiting an answer. His eyes fell upon the sleeping devil, he looked so innocent like a small child, it was actually adorable. Kaoru smirked slightly, imagining what would happen if Kyo could infact read thoughts. He grabbed Kyo’s small bag of things and went over to the bed, nudging Kyo lightly.
“Hey Kyo, time to get up. We’re leaving. ” Nothing. “Kyo~ Get up.” Again, nothing. “God damnit Kyo get the fuck up before I give your rats to Gackt as Mei’s new playtoy!” That got him up, Kyo snapped up glaring at Kaoru.
“What the fuck?! I’m up! Shit, what’s your deal?!” Kyo lashed out angrily but Kaoru could only hold in a small laugh.
“Oh you’re ‘up’ eh? Well I was going to have you go get dressed but now that you say that… ” Before he could finish, Kyo snatched his bag from Kaoru’s hands and climbed out of the bed.
“Do you mind, you old hentai fuck?” Kyo spouted, glaring at Kaoru. Kaoru snickered slightly with a “No, not at all” only making Kyo more agitated, but then gave up and left the room pouting to give him some privacy.
Moments later the door opened and Kyo popped out fully dressed in his normal street clothes. Kaoru patted his head, making him growl slightly. “Shall we go now? I’ve signed off your releases.”
Kyo nodded and started down the hallways with Kaoru beside him. “Thanks, These places piss me off.”
“I’ve noticed..” Kaoru mumbled and looked down at Kyo who was staring at the floor as they walked.
“I’m…” Kyo started. Kaoru cocked his head in question. ‘hmm?’ “I’m sorry Kao.. for being an ass to you and everyone else.” Kaoru stopped and stared it him, but Kyo didn’t look up.
Kaoru didn’t know what to say, it was unlike Kyo to apologize like this. “What do you mean?”
“Nothing.. Forget it.” Kyo sighed and they started walking again out to the car, Kaoru decided not to push it further.
After Kaoru opened the door for Kyo then went to his side and got in, they drove off with their newest CD blaring throughout the car. Kaoru looked over at Kyo who was staring out the window, watching the lights as they flew by. “Hey.. I forgot to mention before but, I would really like for you to come live with me for a while. I’ve talked to the others about it.”
Kyo shrugged. “I don’t need a caretaker, I’ll be fine on my own thank you.” He said passively. Kaoru frowned.
“Please? It’s for your own good and we do worry.” Kaoru pleaded.
Kyo scoffed and rolled his eyes. “Do whatever you want. Not like I have a say in anything anymore, I’ll be gone soon enough so why bother.” This gave Kaoru a small tinge in the pit of his stomach that remained for the rest of the drive.
~+~Kaoru’s apartment~+~
The ride home had been awkward and quiet even when stopping by Kyo’s to pick up some stuff, when they finally got home it had begun to storm.
Kyo was sitting on the couch still staring at nothing when Kaoru walked in from the bathroom with a towel. He kneeled infront of Kyo and handed him the towel but he got no response, Kyo didn’t even take it. “Kyo? You alright?” After a few seconds Kyo snapped out of it and snatched the towel, standing up.
“Oh I’m just dandy, Leader-Sama. I just got told I’m going to die soon and there’s barely a chance for me to be cured. Wow, I feel great!” Kyo yelled, and Kaoru could tell by the tremble in his voice that he was holding back. The guitarist was about to try comforting the man but was instead pushed out of the way as Kyo pushed past. “I’m going to bed.. ” Kyo sighed and walked to his room that Kaoru had shown him to when they first arrived.
Kaoru just sat there wordlessly, he wanted so much to help the little Prophet but didn’t know how. After a while of trying to watch TV incase Kyo decided to come back out, he finally gave in and went to bed as well.
~+~midnight, Kyo’s room(Dreamstate)~+~
He lie there crying in an endless expanse of blood. The only thing able to be seen were the silhouetted demons that haunted him ever so often drawing nearer. The only thing able to be heard was the sound of a heartbeat, deep and thick as honey, and the low merciless growls of the stalking fiends. All he could think about was not wanting to leave his beloved friends and fans. They were everything to him. Suddenly he could feel the sharp pains of claws scraping and teeth ripping at his flesh and mind, the sounds mixed with their disgusting hisses were sickening. There was nothing to be done, he could never escape it and he would never escape this situation he was in. The heartbeat began booming faster and louder until his ears felt like bursting. The claws mauling his body grew more insistent until finally everything stopped and he was left in a lonely black abyss to be devoured by his own insanity, accepting his fate.
Rating: R-NC/17
Pairing: KaoxKyo main
Chapter 2 - Unknown…Despair…A Lost
~+~Next day, Hospital~+~
As Kaoru made his way down the halls to Kyo’s room he thought of how Kyo would be handle all this. The smaller man wasn’t very strong emotionally and no matter how he tried to hide his demons, the rest of them could easily see. They had all tried their share of times to talk to him about it but he always either pushed them away or changed the subject. It sometimes worried them.
He finally came to the door and knocked quietly, opening it before awaiting an answer. His eyes fell upon the sleeping devil, he looked so innocent like a small child, it was actually adorable. Kaoru smirked slightly, imagining what would happen if Kyo could infact read thoughts. He grabbed Kyo’s small bag of things and went over to the bed, nudging Kyo lightly.
“Hey Kyo, time to get up. We’re leaving. ” Nothing. “Kyo~ Get up.” Again, nothing. “God damnit Kyo get the fuck up before I give your rats to Gackt as Mei’s new playtoy!” That got him up, Kyo snapped up glaring at Kaoru.
“What the fuck?! I’m up! Shit, what’s your deal?!” Kyo lashed out angrily but Kaoru could only hold in a small laugh.
“Oh you’re ‘up’ eh? Well I was going to have you go get dressed but now that you say that… ” Before he could finish, Kyo snatched his bag from Kaoru’s hands and climbed out of the bed.
“Do you mind, you old hentai fuck?” Kyo spouted, glaring at Kaoru. Kaoru snickered slightly with a “No, not at all” only making Kyo more agitated, but then gave up and left the room pouting to give him some privacy.
Moments later the door opened and Kyo popped out fully dressed in his normal street clothes. Kaoru patted his head, making him growl slightly. “Shall we go now? I’ve signed off your releases.”
Kyo nodded and started down the hallways with Kaoru beside him. “Thanks, These places piss me off.”
“I’ve noticed..” Kaoru mumbled and looked down at Kyo who was staring at the floor as they walked.
“I’m…” Kyo started. Kaoru cocked his head in question. ‘hmm?’ “I’m sorry Kao.. for being an ass to you and everyone else.” Kaoru stopped and stared it him, but Kyo didn’t look up.
Kaoru didn’t know what to say, it was unlike Kyo to apologize like this. “What do you mean?”
“Nothing.. Forget it.” Kyo sighed and they started walking again out to the car, Kaoru decided not to push it further.
After Kaoru opened the door for Kyo then went to his side and got in, they drove off with their newest CD blaring throughout the car. Kaoru looked over at Kyo who was staring out the window, watching the lights as they flew by. “Hey.. I forgot to mention before but, I would really like for you to come live with me for a while. I’ve talked to the others about it.”
Kyo shrugged. “I don’t need a caretaker, I’ll be fine on my own thank you.” He said passively. Kaoru frowned.
“Please? It’s for your own good and we do worry.” Kaoru pleaded.
Kyo scoffed and rolled his eyes. “Do whatever you want. Not like I have a say in anything anymore, I’ll be gone soon enough so why bother.” This gave Kaoru a small tinge in the pit of his stomach that remained for the rest of the drive.
~+~Kaoru’s apartment~+~
The ride home had been awkward and quiet even when stopping by Kyo’s to pick up some stuff, when they finally got home it had begun to storm.
Kyo was sitting on the couch still staring at nothing when Kaoru walked in from the bathroom with a towel. He kneeled infront of Kyo and handed him the towel but he got no response, Kyo didn’t even take it. “Kyo? You alright?” After a few seconds Kyo snapped out of it and snatched the towel, standing up.
“Oh I’m just dandy, Leader-Sama. I just got told I’m going to die soon and there’s barely a chance for me to be cured. Wow, I feel great!” Kyo yelled, and Kaoru could tell by the tremble in his voice that he was holding back. The guitarist was about to try comforting the man but was instead pushed out of the way as Kyo pushed past. “I’m going to bed.. ” Kyo sighed and walked to his room that Kaoru had shown him to when they first arrived.
Kaoru just sat there wordlessly, he wanted so much to help the little Prophet but didn’t know how. After a while of trying to watch TV incase Kyo decided to come back out, he finally gave in and went to bed as well.
~+~midnight, Kyo’s room(Dreamstate)~+~
He lie there crying in an endless expanse of blood. The only thing able to be seen were the silhouetted demons that haunted him ever so often drawing nearer. The only thing able to be heard was the sound of a heartbeat, deep and thick as honey, and the low merciless growls of the stalking fiends. All he could think about was not wanting to leave his beloved friends and fans. They were everything to him. Suddenly he could feel the sharp pains of claws scraping and teeth ripping at his flesh and mind, the sounds mixed with their disgusting hisses were sickening. There was nothing to be done, he could never escape it and he would never escape this situation he was in. The heartbeat began booming faster and louder until his ears felt like bursting. The claws mauling his body grew more insistent until finally everything stopped and he was left in a lonely black abyss to be devoured by his own insanity, accepting his fate.