Tears and Fears Part I (Higurashi Kagome/Hiei (Inuyasha/Yu Yu Hakusho) #39)
Fandom: InuYasha/Yu Yu Hakusho
Title: Tears and Fears (Part I)
Author/Artist: yume_mori
Theme: 039: Bonus: Hear the thunder roar and the lightning clash.
Pairing/Characters: Kagome/Hiei
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I claim no ownership of Sengoku Otogizoushi - InuYasha or Yu Yu Hakusho. InuYasha belongs to Takahashi Rumiko, Shogakukan, Viz Media, ShoPro Entertainment, and Shounen; while Yu Yu Hakusho belongs to Togashi Yoshihiro, Shueisha, Viz Media, and Shounen. No profit or money of any kind is made from this fan-created crossover.
Summary: The sound of the raging storm reflected the one that he was experiencing internally.
Warnings: Foul language.
Cross-posted to: fanfiction.net; mediaminer.org
The mood couldn’t have been more perfect in his mind. A freak storm is what the captain of the boat they were on had said. He smirked; it was the perfect homecoming after everything that happened. The tournament of darkness was over with, but at what price?
Kurama had become crueler, thanks to unlocking more of his soul’s power and secrets. That was the only attack in the entire tournament that ended up backfiring horribly. What had been meant to make Kurama defenseless, made him even more deadly. And if Hiei thought Kurama was a cold bastard when they first met nearly two years ago, he was now a cruel one as well. Hiei’s smirk grew as he thought over the whispers that had spread since that day: “Kurama has returned.” They didn’t know how right they were.
The oaf, on the other hand, had lost his spiritual powers. Or rather, they were locked away from him. Such was his punishment for playing with temperamental swords not meant for him. If it was possible, Kurabara’s worth had dropped even further in his eyes.
Out of the four of them, the detective had grown the most. The ass kicking he received at the hands of Toguro was exactly what Yuusuke had needed to grow up more. It seemed it always took losing something precious and dear for a person to learn how to cherish it. Yuusuke had definitely learned that lesson when he almost lost his best friend.
And he… Hiei had also learned that lesson. Or rather, had relearned it. He learned the value of precious things when he lost his hiroseki stone. It was taught to him again when he found out about his twin sister who was also missing at the time. And now, he was learning it again because of one insufferable miko.
Two weeks away from her and he was already ready to be in her presence again. He needed to make sure she hadn’t forgotten him or found some other demon to torment. If it meant keeping her company to himself, then he would put up with her antics for however long. It took only twelve days away for him to realize that despite how weak and soft he felt around her, he didn’t want to be anywhere else in the world.
All he wanted was to go back to spending his nights in the tree on her shrine, watching over her. While he knew it would make him seem like some lowly stalker, they both knew it wasn’t true. As she had said so many months ago when they first met, he was more like her guardian angel. It was sickening for him to think of how many times he had saved her from harm and certain death. How did her following of mangy mutts ever put up with it?
“Man, I bet KoEnma’s laughing his ass off from up in Spirit World,” Yuusuke muttered darkly. “That little toddler-bitch probably thinks it’s funny how our home-coming got rained out by this damn storm. It’s the middle of summer for fuck’s sake!”
Hiei ignored the ramblings of his former team leader. He didn’t like the rain either, but was he complaining about it? No, he didn’t think so. Just because everything turned out all sunshine and puppies for the detective and the rest of the team most of the time didn’t mean everyone was bemoaning the gloomy atmosphere.
“Well, Yuusuke-kun,” Kurama spoke up, “Just because you won the Dark Tournament doesn’t mean you can control the weather.”
He could hear the detective grumble, “Yeah, well, it should. Stupid weather.”
“So, ah,” Kurabara said, scratching his head, “I guess it’s all done now… We can go back to our regular lives?”
Hiei snorted softly. Of course they could go back to their normal lives. And finally, after nearly a year of servitude towards that stupid toddler and that damn Spirit World, he was finally free of their shackles. Apparently, he had helped save the world enough to earn his semi-freedom. Unfortunately, he was unable to return to the demon world. But it wasn’t like he wanted to just yet. There was a certain little miko keeping him in the Human World.
Kurama nodded his head in agreement; they could finally head back into somewhat normal lives. Complete normalcy was out of the question, though. Two humans with high spiritual awareness, another human harboring a demon soul, and a hybrid demon… There simply was no way for them to be completely normal.
“Hey, that reminds me!” Yuusuke snapped his fingers as he remembered. “What did KoEnma speak to you two about during the tournament anyway?”
Kurama and Hiei shared a brief look before Hiei shrugged. It wasn’t as if he cared what was told to the idiots, anyway.
“KoEnma told us that if we helped you to defeat Toguro, that his father would consider our probation over with.”
“So, you guys are free to go then?” Kurabara asked.
“So it would appear,” Kurama said.
Yuusuke glared, “How come you two get to go off and do whatever, but I’m still stuck being their little lap-dog! I mean, you two fucking stole from them with a plot to take over the Human World!”
For the first time in weeks, Hiei resisted the urge to roll his eyes while Kurama chuckled. “We were only on probation, detective. You’re the idiot who owes them your life.”
“Who cares!” he shouted, “You all get to go back to your lives and I’m stuck doing the ‘save the world’ gig. Fucking bullshit.”
He watched with a small amount of amusement as the oaf caught Yuusuke in a headlock and gave him a lecture about the necessity of saving the world and how he wasn’t alone in that job. Better the detective than he.
“So Hiei, what do you plan on doing with your new-found freedom?” he turned his attention to the fox, not liking the sly smile on his face.
He knew they knew something was up with him, and that Kurama was now trying to pry information out of him. As if he would let anything slip about his private life, even if they could be considered friends. Hiei already knew exactly what Kurama would do if he ever found out about her and that would be to steal her away. Now that was something he would never let happen.
However, he revealed none of his inner thoughts and kept a cold air about him. “What I do in my private life is none of your damn business.”
Almost immediately, Kurama’s smile became one of teasing as he held up his hands in mock surrender. “I meant no harm, I was merely curious.”
Hiei snorted softly at that. Curious coming from a fox never meant the right type of curiosity.
“I guess this means we part here, until KoEnma screws up again that is,” Yuusuke said. “Try to stay out of trouble you two! I don’t want to have to drag your asses back into Spirit World!”
Kurama sighed, “I assure you, you won’t have to worry about that, Yuusuke-kun.”
Kurabara waved as he began to walk off with Yuusuke, “Keep in touch. It’d suck for us all to only see each other to save the world! Except for hamster legs!”
“As if I’d like to see your ugly face more than necessary,” Hiei bit out, knowing he wouldn’t be able to hear him, but unable to let Kurabara get in the last word.
With a small smile, Kurama shook his head. Even in parting, those two couldn’t get along. He turned to Hiei and inclined his head, “I’ll see you around.”
Hiei didn’t respond, but waited until the fox was out of sight before leaving. He didn’t want anyone to follow him because he wanted to keep her all to himself. There was no way he would share her with his friends -- he wanted all her attention for himself. And he now had two weeks without her presence to make up for.
If there was one thing he was going to do for certain, it was spend as much time as he could in her presence. Though, of course, he’d never admit to it if anyone called him out on that. Because, as he would say, it wasn’t because he liked her that he spent his nights with her, but to keep her from doing something stupid. He was thoroughly convinced that she would die from her idiocy long before old age.
As he got closer to the Higurashi Shrine, he could feel the storm pick up. Not only was the rain falling harder, but he could also hear the beginning rumblings of thunder and smell the ozone that signaled lightning. He sped up as he realized the storm was about to turn nasty, and he’d rather be in the safe confines of her room.
But all he really wanted was to see that she was fine. He needed to reassure himself that she hadn’t pulled any stupid stunts while he was away and couldn’t watch over her. After watching her jump into a dry well, he wouldn’t put anything past her (even after knowing her reasons for doing so).
The familiar torii came into view, and he quickly jumped over it and headed into the branches of the ancient tree. For the first time in hours, he finally had some shelter from the rain. The cold drops clung to his clothes, skin, and hair, but he didn’t notice. All his attention was focused on one little window that kept him from breathing in her scent and feeling her presence.
In the two weeks he spent away, he found himself able to ignore the urges to touch her and feel her skin against his. Yet now, being only a few meters away from her, he found those longings returning. She was so close. However, he knew he shouldn’t act on those urges. Whenever he came into physical contact with her, it made him want more, or so he had learned from experience.
Yet the sight that greeted him was not one he had been expecting. While it was close to midnight, she was sprawled haphazardly across her bed, a pillow tightly held in her arms. He leaned in closer to the window as the first bolt of lightning streaked across the sky and provided enough illumination into her room.
Even in her sleep, she was crying.
A familiar feeling of guilt wormed its way back into Hiei’s heart at seeing the tears she was still crying. He barely noticed the water dripping from his face and hair as he leaned forward and opened her window. Before too much rain could get in her room, he slipped in and shut the window.
While he had told himself he wasn’t going to touch her, he needed to wake her up. He needed to make this right because he never intended to make her cry. And for the first time, he was afraid of a human.
How could one slip of a woman cause so much anxiety in someone like him? It was all because he was terrified of not being forgiven. How unacceptable.
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Title: Tears and Fears (Part I)
Author/Artist: yume_mori
Theme: 039: Bonus: Hear the thunder roar and the lightning clash.
Pairing/Characters: Kagome/Hiei
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I claim no ownership of Sengoku Otogizoushi - InuYasha or Yu Yu Hakusho. InuYasha belongs to Takahashi Rumiko, Shogakukan, Viz Media, ShoPro Entertainment, and Shounen; while Yu Yu Hakusho belongs to Togashi Yoshihiro, Shueisha, Viz Media, and Shounen. No profit or money of any kind is made from this fan-created crossover.
Summary: The sound of the raging storm reflected the one that he was experiencing internally.
Warnings: Foul language.
Cross-posted to: fanfiction.net; mediaminer.org
The mood couldn’t have been more perfect in his mind. A freak storm is what the captain of the boat they were on had said. He smirked; it was the perfect homecoming after everything that happened. The tournament of darkness was over with, but at what price?
Kurama had become crueler, thanks to unlocking more of his soul’s power and secrets. That was the only attack in the entire tournament that ended up backfiring horribly. What had been meant to make Kurama defenseless, made him even more deadly. And if Hiei thought Kurama was a cold bastard when they first met nearly two years ago, he was now a cruel one as well. Hiei’s smirk grew as he thought over the whispers that had spread since that day: “Kurama has returned.” They didn’t know how right they were.
The oaf, on the other hand, had lost his spiritual powers. Or rather, they were locked away from him. Such was his punishment for playing with temperamental swords not meant for him. If it was possible, Kurabara’s worth had dropped even further in his eyes.
Out of the four of them, the detective had grown the most. The ass kicking he received at the hands of Toguro was exactly what Yuusuke had needed to grow up more. It seemed it always took losing something precious and dear for a person to learn how to cherish it. Yuusuke had definitely learned that lesson when he almost lost his best friend.
And he… Hiei had also learned that lesson. Or rather, had relearned it. He learned the value of precious things when he lost his hiroseki stone. It was taught to him again when he found out about his twin sister who was also missing at the time. And now, he was learning it again because of one insufferable miko.
Two weeks away from her and he was already ready to be in her presence again. He needed to make sure she hadn’t forgotten him or found some other demon to torment. If it meant keeping her company to himself, then he would put up with her antics for however long. It took only twelve days away for him to realize that despite how weak and soft he felt around her, he didn’t want to be anywhere else in the world.
All he wanted was to go back to spending his nights in the tree on her shrine, watching over her. While he knew it would make him seem like some lowly stalker, they both knew it wasn’t true. As she had said so many months ago when they first met, he was more like her guardian angel. It was sickening for him to think of how many times he had saved her from harm and certain death. How did her following of mangy mutts ever put up with it?
“Man, I bet KoEnma’s laughing his ass off from up in Spirit World,” Yuusuke muttered darkly. “That little toddler-bitch probably thinks it’s funny how our home-coming got rained out by this damn storm. It’s the middle of summer for fuck’s sake!”
Hiei ignored the ramblings of his former team leader. He didn’t like the rain either, but was he complaining about it? No, he didn’t think so. Just because everything turned out all sunshine and puppies for the detective and the rest of the team most of the time didn’t mean everyone was bemoaning the gloomy atmosphere.
“Well, Yuusuke-kun,” Kurama spoke up, “Just because you won the Dark Tournament doesn’t mean you can control the weather.”
He could hear the detective grumble, “Yeah, well, it should. Stupid weather.”
“So, ah,” Kurabara said, scratching his head, “I guess it’s all done now… We can go back to our regular lives?”
Hiei snorted softly. Of course they could go back to their normal lives. And finally, after nearly a year of servitude towards that stupid toddler and that damn Spirit World, he was finally free of their shackles. Apparently, he had helped save the world enough to earn his semi-freedom. Unfortunately, he was unable to return to the demon world. But it wasn’t like he wanted to just yet. There was a certain little miko keeping him in the Human World.
Kurama nodded his head in agreement; they could finally head back into somewhat normal lives. Complete normalcy was out of the question, though. Two humans with high spiritual awareness, another human harboring a demon soul, and a hybrid demon… There simply was no way for them to be completely normal.
“Hey, that reminds me!” Yuusuke snapped his fingers as he remembered. “What did KoEnma speak to you two about during the tournament anyway?”
Kurama and Hiei shared a brief look before Hiei shrugged. It wasn’t as if he cared what was told to the idiots, anyway.
“KoEnma told us that if we helped you to defeat Toguro, that his father would consider our probation over with.”
“So, you guys are free to go then?” Kurabara asked.
“So it would appear,” Kurama said.
Yuusuke glared, “How come you two get to go off and do whatever, but I’m still stuck being their little lap-dog! I mean, you two fucking stole from them with a plot to take over the Human World!”
For the first time in weeks, Hiei resisted the urge to roll his eyes while Kurama chuckled. “We were only on probation, detective. You’re the idiot who owes them your life.”
“Who cares!” he shouted, “You all get to go back to your lives and I’m stuck doing the ‘save the world’ gig. Fucking bullshit.”
He watched with a small amount of amusement as the oaf caught Yuusuke in a headlock and gave him a lecture about the necessity of saving the world and how he wasn’t alone in that job. Better the detective than he.
“So Hiei, what do you plan on doing with your new-found freedom?” he turned his attention to the fox, not liking the sly smile on his face.
He knew they knew something was up with him, and that Kurama was now trying to pry information out of him. As if he would let anything slip about his private life, even if they could be considered friends. Hiei already knew exactly what Kurama would do if he ever found out about her and that would be to steal her away. Now that was something he would never let happen.
However, he revealed none of his inner thoughts and kept a cold air about him. “What I do in my private life is none of your damn business.”
Almost immediately, Kurama’s smile became one of teasing as he held up his hands in mock surrender. “I meant no harm, I was merely curious.”
Hiei snorted softly at that. Curious coming from a fox never meant the right type of curiosity.
“I guess this means we part here, until KoEnma screws up again that is,” Yuusuke said. “Try to stay out of trouble you two! I don’t want to have to drag your asses back into Spirit World!”
Kurama sighed, “I assure you, you won’t have to worry about that, Yuusuke-kun.”
Kurabara waved as he began to walk off with Yuusuke, “Keep in touch. It’d suck for us all to only see each other to save the world! Except for hamster legs!”
“As if I’d like to see your ugly face more than necessary,” Hiei bit out, knowing he wouldn’t be able to hear him, but unable to let Kurabara get in the last word.
With a small smile, Kurama shook his head. Even in parting, those two couldn’t get along. He turned to Hiei and inclined his head, “I’ll see you around.”
Hiei didn’t respond, but waited until the fox was out of sight before leaving. He didn’t want anyone to follow him because he wanted to keep her all to himself. There was no way he would share her with his friends -- he wanted all her attention for himself. And he now had two weeks without her presence to make up for.
If there was one thing he was going to do for certain, it was spend as much time as he could in her presence. Though, of course, he’d never admit to it if anyone called him out on that. Because, as he would say, it wasn’t because he liked her that he spent his nights with her, but to keep her from doing something stupid. He was thoroughly convinced that she would die from her idiocy long before old age.
As he got closer to the Higurashi Shrine, he could feel the storm pick up. Not only was the rain falling harder, but he could also hear the beginning rumblings of thunder and smell the ozone that signaled lightning. He sped up as he realized the storm was about to turn nasty, and he’d rather be in the safe confines of her room.
But all he really wanted was to see that she was fine. He needed to reassure himself that she hadn’t pulled any stupid stunts while he was away and couldn’t watch over her. After watching her jump into a dry well, he wouldn’t put anything past her (even after knowing her reasons for doing so).
The familiar torii came into view, and he quickly jumped over it and headed into the branches of the ancient tree. For the first time in hours, he finally had some shelter from the rain. The cold drops clung to his clothes, skin, and hair, but he didn’t notice. All his attention was focused on one little window that kept him from breathing in her scent and feeling her presence.
In the two weeks he spent away, he found himself able to ignore the urges to touch her and feel her skin against his. Yet now, being only a few meters away from her, he found those longings returning. She was so close. However, he knew he shouldn’t act on those urges. Whenever he came into physical contact with her, it made him want more, or so he had learned from experience.
Yet the sight that greeted him was not one he had been expecting. While it was close to midnight, she was sprawled haphazardly across her bed, a pillow tightly held in her arms. He leaned in closer to the window as the first bolt of lightning streaked across the sky and provided enough illumination into her room.
Even in her sleep, she was crying.
A familiar feeling of guilt wormed its way back into Hiei’s heart at seeing the tears she was still crying. He barely noticed the water dripping from his face and hair as he leaned forward and opened her window. Before too much rain could get in her room, he slipped in and shut the window.
While he had told himself he wasn’t going to touch her, he needed to wake her up. He needed to make this right because he never intended to make her cry. And for the first time, he was afraid of a human.
How could one slip of a woman cause so much anxiety in someone like him? It was all because he was terrified of not being forgiven. How unacceptable.
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