Roses (Cardcaptor Sakura, Syaoran/Sakura, challenge #4)
Title: Roses
Author/Artist: rhap_chan
Pairing: Li Syaoran/Kinomoto Sakura
Fandom: Cardcaptor Sakura
Theme: 04. spilled perfume
Disclaimer: Cardcaptor Sakura belongs to CLAMP.
She spilled her perfume today getting ready for school, she explains, her face red. Tomoyo laughs and assures her that she doesn't smell bad at all.
It's a sweet scent, I think, but I won't say. I have become quiet recently as my only defense against her beauty and charm. She smiles at me and asks my opinion, and my face grows hot. I look away so I can reply.
"It's not bad," I mutter. She nods, but her eyes are a little hurt, and I want to apologize, but I won't. I don't really understand it myself.
She smells like roses, but sweeter, and it is the scent I always smell in my dreams. It was her mother's, I believe, though the woman rarely wore it, and rarely did her daughter wear it, but when she does I am even more captivated.
It is dangerous. I could so easily lose control.
When she asks me if I want to walk home with her today I am gruff while declining and a tear blooms in the corner of her eye. I want to wipe it away, but she is not mine (not mine!), so I pretend I do not notice and walk away.
She loves Yukito, and it shows. She is not mine to love.
I walk home alone, slowly, kicking rocks and eloquently courting her in daydreams. When I make it to the building the dream ends, like it always does. I shake my head to rid myself of her phantom scent, which seems to have absorbed itself into my skin. It smells good against my musk, I think, and then shake my head again.
How do you do it, Kinomoto? You look at me and my heart melts, even though you don't even try.