yeah shes still on town but rents r being mean and wont let me go hang cause shes at a hotel...sigh i miss her so much but just hearing her voice makes things seem ok,even though they r far from it...but yeah i sit here now playing wit the gooze and just thinking...how long can 3 months seem?

well shes gone...i just got back from dropping leslie off for the last time at the hotel her family is staying in.i cant believe thats its happened...shes really left for kansas. god this fuckin blows...fuck all this...

yeah i got a damn sinus infection,which blows. but yeah i went to the doctor and got all this medicine so hopefully ill be feeling better soon. plus im on spring break now so i can just get me sum well deserved R&R and get to feeling better by tomorrow. but ne way check this out...


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hmmm well im just sitting here its a lil after 1am and im just thinking. yeah it seems all around me ppl r getting sum1 to make themselves happy. they r finding that special sum1, but me. hey dont me wrong i think its great for those of u, and u deserve to be happy(at least sum1 is). and it just makes me wonder if that person exsists for me? hell ( Read more... )

well today was ok.finally got to try DDR(damn that was fun but do i sux). but yeah i just hung out and chilled wit everyone today, and everything was pretty good besides the cold breeze i felt...yeah well ne way just thought i would give a update and say that my plan failed(see my last journal entry)and that things r back to hurting again, o well ( Read more... )

hmm well ive been in a sort of a downhill run lately and i fear things r only gonna get worse b4 they get better. but right now im gonna try to cheer up and just act happy even if im not(cause hell if i fake it and lie about it long enough maybe ill start to believe it.) but yeah i just thought i would update and tell everyone not to worry about me ( Read more... )

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hmmm almost 200am and im still awake, damn this suxs. im not even the least bit tired theres just too much shit running through my mind. all i can do is sit here and try to figure things out with no hope of coming up wit a answer to it all. i only got 1 thing truly on my mind and yet soon that shall also be gone, one of the few things that cheers ( Read more... )

hmmm well all srry for the lack of updates. ive not been in the best mood lately and again this is not a real update(that would take 5 or 6 pages with all the shit thats going on). but yeah ne way most of u know wuts going on so its useless to post the same old tired story, so im not going to im just going to say hey to everyone and i luv u all. ( Read more... )

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