Day 6...Spent, But Not Broken

[365dollarblog]

I have something to admit, in this post.
Today, on the verge of tears, and shaking with anger, I left the house. And, for a compulsive spender, it is NEVER a good idea to leave the house, when consumed with an emotional blend, consisiting of equal parts of sadness and rage. I have already written that stress has ALWAYS been a 'reason' for me to play

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[mattiescottage]

Well, good job on avoiding the shopping malls and stores, anyway. You made some good moves there while under stress: (1) You tried to exercise a "free" option instead of shopping by going to the library, and (2) you resisted temptation to go into the bookstore when the library didn't meet your needs at that time.

I'm sorry about your nephew's disrespectful behavior. It sounds like he has his own problems. Sometimes its not you, even if it is directed at you. (Is there any chance that he was just having a really bad day and said something he'll regret on another day?)

Yeah, it really hurts when someone who should appreciate you turns on you. I've had family members say things that just broke my heart. But you can't force people to respect you or treat you right. You can only do your part of it, and it they don't match up, that's their problem--their loss--and you have to let go. That's what makes the friends that do stick with us so wonderfully special.

[365dollarblog]

Thank you so much for this note. Reading this made me feel very good. You are right...I did make more than one good choice today. And, I still believe that eating out (this one time) constituted a need.
It is possible that his anger is misdirected. But even still, it KILLED me, hearing him say that.

[kae1crafts]

Congrats on making the good choices today. I'm glad you cut yourself some slack over lunch.

So sorry that your nephew was so disrespectful to you. Erratic behavior often means problems with drugs, alcohol or some other issue. Especially where a total change of behavior from past connections are concerned.

Glad you are still crocheting. Did you ever learn how to knit?

Hugs and happy stitching,

Kae

He should be spanked.

[ext_1271425]

Sorry to have read this. There's nothing worse than the pain caused by family. I hope at some point after the exchange your nephew felt the least bit guilty for saying the things he said. No excuse for that. Keep up the good job you're doing!