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I was half a bus away from him. He sat at the front, I at the back. I felt like puking. He didn’t even look that much like Him, just certain features, his height. He wore the same sort of tweed stuff that all people that age wear. He had the same kind of walking cane...one of those thick ones made from one piece of wood

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[shag_me_draco]

is this real?
did this really happen to you?
if so then you shouldnt see him next year, and fuck what anyone else says about it.
also i think you should probably see a councelor and think about pressing charges on the asshole.
*hugs*

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*hugs back* Thanks hon. Yup, it unfortunately did...usually I can forget about it, but it just comes up sometimes. I don't want to see him, but at times I just want to yell it out to him so he knows how much he affected me, so he can feel bad, so the whole situation can stop being ignored. The bastard probably doesn't even think anything of it. And nobody's ever said anything; I'm not the first who he's done this to, but I definately want to be the last. Unfortunately, that's how these people continue doing this; they depend on their victims remaining silent, and in my culture where things like this are NotTalkedAbout, its just that much easier. Well, screw him and his pristine reputation...people deserve to know so they can protect their little girls

[shag_me_draco]

oh i see some men looking at kyra and i just want to punch them in the face. i grab her shoulders and hold her tight to me it is so scary.

i think that you *should* yell at this guy. but not if you go and see him alone, or with people who wouldnt support you when you did let loose. but i agree that so many people keep quiet about these things and it is just not on.

how long ago did this happen, if you dont mind me asking? i am so sorry that you had to go through this. it really makes me sick.

all those people deserve to be in jail, rotting and getting their ass beaten in jail for what theyve done to innocent children.

*more hugs*

[dedra]

Oh, honey, they get worse than ass beatings...let's just say that slash is real in prison and the child molesters are everyone's bitch...and they deserve worse, much worse...they stole INNOCENCE, not just the physical abuse itself...and that, my dear, is something that can never be replaced or reclaimed...

What hurts worse than anything is the silence. You're afraid to tell because people won't believe you and you're afraid of what they will think about you...but yelling at them does no good either...when I finally confronted my perpetrator years later, he just gave me a blank stare and said, "I never did anything like that to you."

Right. That's why I have nightmares, fear men with slicked back black hair, and I'm a lesbian. Dream on, MoFo.

And when it's family...worse, so much worse. Adults in your family are supposed to protect you, not hurt you in the worst way possible.

Sorry. I get overwhelmed and passionate sometimes about this. It fucked my life up permanently and made it hard to even relax during sex if I wasn't

[dedra]

My heart goes out to you.

Smells can trigger. So can fabrics. Even lights.

Counseling might help. Better yet, start alone until you can speak about it to a counselor. Courage To Heal is a good start.

Tell someone that you trust. Whatever you do, stay the fuck away from him. It won't make anything any less painful, but it will keep him from triggering those memories with the smirk or using/abusing you again.

I know how you feel. I've been there. I will pray for you.

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Thanks hon. I think this is the worst situation to hear "I've been there" because I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I hope whoever hurt you, pays for his sins against you. If you ever, ever need to talk about it, I'm here

[dedra]

The bastard did pay. He died suddenly last year and I watched them put him in the ground and spit on his grave. I would have done worse if it hadn't been broad daylight with people around