I look back to the previous year alot to see what i was doing.
(gut check moments)
I feel pretty good sometimes, like ive grown up gotten something done.

not this time.

Moving is such a pain in my ass sometimes.

this is on top of all the drama ive caused.

anyway

im going to try and find motivation.

In a house, by myself, I hear the ice start to melt and watch rooftops weep for the sunlight ( Read more... )

I hate my life

I hate my life

i hate myself

What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul?

I just liked that one.

I stole it from cheri so thank you

I dont update on here, i start too, then i always just never like what i had to say.

So im trying here

Weakend show tonight

9 and mound at 530

be there

Lots of bands playing,

lots of friends

So this is interesting i am modeling for a fasion show in april at the masonic temple.

I get to keep all the clothes....this was the kicker for me saddly.

but i mean this is kinda cool to me

If Myspace was real ( Read more... )

Sometimes i just dont understand the world.

sometimes i just dont understand myself.

everything makes me worry lately.

I know im not really worried about anything, but i am worried lately about something

and i dont know what to make of it or what to do

:-(

i just found my deadjournal i had when i was in my senior year of highschool

kinda cool

I feel very lost and confused.

like pulled in to many directions at once.

i dont know what to make of any of it

and i certainly dont like it regardless.