The conclusion to my livejournal entries:

[3million_wishes]

Travis, hate is pretty strong and I'm sorry that that is what you now feel towards me. I'm still hurt by the way things turned out between us, my fault or not, and I'm still struggling to be okay, but I don't hate you. To clarify though, I never tried to tell you who you could and could not date. I did however tell you that if you did date that

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[wolfmanforever]

I don't hate you, obviously I let my anger get the best of me, as I often do. It just hurts me that while you tell me who you'd prefer I not be with, you are hanging all over every guy who comes near you. I know that you have the right to do whatever you want, but I thought you'd be a little more respectful of me, because while I have had thoughts of just trying to be with the first girl who comes my way, I just can't look at them like I look at you, so I don't even try. I'm sorry that things are this way, and I know I did a lot to ruin us, I hope you find what makes you happy, and even though I've said this before, I will be here if you ever need something.

[wolfmanforever]

I'm not hanging all over every guy who comes near me. I'm sorry if I made it seem that way because I know thats hurtful. I let one guy kiss me because I felt like I was supposed to, and I hated it and kicked him out of my house and havent talked to him since. I'm really relieved that you don't hate me. I don't want to lose contact with you, so keep me posted on how to get in touch with you whenever it changes. I don't know if I can manage a friendship just yet, all the wounds are still too open, but I'm hoping that eventually we can have that. I'm willing to try if you still are...I don't even know if that's the purpose of your comment or if you just wanted to let things go on better terms. You can't have what we had and have a clean breakup though, its gonna hurt and be messy no matter what. You know I will always love you. That never goes away.