being on autopilot pretty much sucks. i'm still in that unfortunate phase of having to dial my emotions down to a mere trickle. keep the big girl pants on, etc. i'm trying to deal with things, trying to handle all this like an emotionally mature person, but if i let too much through, the dam's going to break and my ass will be back in therapy ( Read more... )

i just got back from my grandmother's funeral a week ago. today, brandell's mom, the much-beloved sue, got in a bad wreck on the way back from tallahassee with one of her friends. she was conscious at the scene, but had massive internal injuries. they had her in surgury within a couple hours, but there was nothing the doctors could do. 15 hours ( Read more... )

the last month or so has been really crazy, in a good way. ever since we moved in to the new house, i haven't had a chance to be bored or lonely. old and new friends have been around constantly. spending time with people i'd never had much of a chance to get to know before. dee and kem came up last weekend, and that was amazing, too. i truely love ( Read more... )

so tonight i went over to jeremy's. we don't see each other as much as we'd like since i moved, and i try to make my ass motivate itself in that direction as much as possible. well. we did our thing as per usual, drinking and talking shit, when low and behold, a former coworker of mine (and very cool person) walks out of the apartment next door. 3 ( Read more... )

well, brandell and i just signed a lease on an amazing house. i am so in love with this place. its 3/2, 2 story, high ceilings, garage...it is amazing. i never thought i'd be able to afford a place like this at this stage in my life. of course, affording it *is* a bit of a problem right now, but that's because we just had to pay the deposit, ( Read more... )

i hate leechy people.

i hate not wanting to step outside of my apartment or go to work for fear of either being asked for something and/or having to be nice about explaining why it ain't fuckin' happening.

i wish i could just say what i mean, but these are people i have to see again.

so here i sit, queen neutron bomb as always.

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You fit in with:
Spiritualism

Your ideals are mostly spiritual, but in an individualistic way. While spirituality is very important in your life, organized religion itself may not be for you. It is best for you to seek these things on your own terms.

60% spiritual.
60% reason-oriented.


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You are a
Social Liberal
(76% permissive)

and an...
Economic Liberal
(10% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Socialist

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but me, i'm feelin' pretty good as of now
i'm not so sure when i got here, or how
sun melting the fake smile away
i think you know i'll be ok.to lelly ( Read more... )