So its been way past 72hrs since the police report was filied, and what that means is that it has gone public. Luckly or unlucky im not too sure we didnt have any media asshats hounding around. I believe the inital shock is begining to wear off and now im starting to have nightmares... too my understanding these "flashbacks" may or maynot go away. ( Read more... )

MY voice drops to maintain my own pain, and sorrow. Everytime I have to re-tell the story. It doesnt feel real. It cant be real is just cant be. IT feels like some horrible movie I saw awhile ago. I still smell the blood. I still see their faces. Nobody looked us in the eyes that day. Im trying to be me ya know? trying to maintain a logical out ( Read more... )

Watching your body sag down ( Read more... )

Emmarie Turk ( Read more... )

What makes our innards a soul it's full of sinking feelings within our bowels ( Read more... )

Morals infuse my palate ( Read more... )

I got something today i've been longing for.
Most people havnt gone as far as I have.
And now I know more.
As depressed as i've been. There's still happiness.
An life goes on.
It was the greatest gift.
Communication, Love, and Trust.

New years consisted of drunk people... what else is new...

What did I do for my birthday?
Work

What else did I do?
Worked over time.

Yeah my luck hasnt changed it's still pretty shitty.
Here's to life.

Tonight I turn 21 ( Read more... )

I think i'll go home and mull this over ( Read more... )