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[40oztofreedom_]

I've been pondering for a long time how cynical our generation is amongst the most recent decades. We have severe wanderlust, complain quite a bit about relationships, parents and hometowns, and can be mildly paranoid. On the other hand, we seem to be less rebellious than all our 1990's counterparts. We seem to have harnessed some of the positive

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[40oztofreedom_]

I'm not talking about hipsters. I'm talking about us.

[40oztofreedom_]

well I think the hipster phenomenon is a biproduct of these conflicting feelings within us.

But I'm more interested in seeing it within the people that I identify with. I feel this terrible blackness within me, yet I find myself laughing alot more, listening to happier music, being more at peace with my friends, my family and my surroundings, yet that black thing is still there as prevalant as it ever was. So you can understand that I used to believe it was the absence of something, something missing in my life. But no, it is conflict itself. One that I'm not sure I will ever fully digest. On this day, I believe that I will carry it around forever.

[dft]

are you peaking around in my brain?
you write what i think and cannot yet express. so thank you.
bc there is something weird about us. and i know there is definitely something weird about me.

[40oztofreedom_]

I'm not expressing what I was trying to say properly. Something about a negative undertone which we embrace, dominates our serious thoughts, how we justify it with a quest for wisdom and perspective through wikipedia entry information.

yet over that, these same people are happy. I see it as a kind of desperation to be liked when we don't like ourselves.

I'm working on it.
and yes, I found this one on page 342 of 'Lara's brain: Vol. 2' and just expanded it a bit.