The End Of An Era ( Read more... )

it's been a really really long time since all i've done is sleep all day.
it was uber relaxing.
i've been working too much. i had 92 hours on my last paycheck.
and tonight, i'm off to the milk to enjoy some more relaxation.

- derek -

"they will try to injure me. but of those who come near me none will know where to find my wounds, my vulnerable places, under the deceptions that will cover me."

-cavafy, 1918

i have a kitty. i want to name her celeste, or melodica. i think she's deserving of either one of those names. my roomie found her outside last night. i know i should probably give her back, but i've always wanted a pet. i'm buying a cat when i move back to london and i'm going to live in an apartment, because i love them dearly ( Read more... )

what kind of cheese ain't yo cheese?

...

nacho cheese.

- derek -

He must be really confused right about now. i ask Him to send me someone, one of his angels, and i get rid of him. thinking it wasn't an angel at all, but much more of a demon, causing me pain. and now, after all this thinking and searching i realize it is what i want. bath tubs, candles and incents. it was a good night, tears hidden in the ( Read more... )

i think i had a dream about false hopes last night. a few moments before i woke up to the sound of the phone i dreamt that i missed a phone call because of slumber. i jumped out of my bed and ran to check it out and there were 23 new messages. i checked the caller ID and no new callers, i pressed play on the machine and no new messages or any ( Read more... )

the new job is getting better. not nearly enough hours. gotta look for something else. if my parents didn't live so far out of town everything'd be cool as shit, but i'm paying a certain price for certain actions...whatever, i don't care. it's good enough for me, i'm not lazy, i'm just scared ( Read more... )

i have 30 days to decide whether or not i move to Toronto. I got accepted.