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[4_four_4]

i really need to get over you,
but there's something about you,
that won't let me go,

something tells me,
don't give up hope,
but what if that's best?

you tell me to wait,
i didn't even want you to know,
but it it just,
came out.

now you know,
will it hurt what we have?
did i put our friendship,
at risk?

for years,
this is what i've hid,
i didn't know how to react...
then i lost you,
and i hated myself for it,
look where it got me,
nowhere

here i sit,
with emotion built up inside,
you've moved on,
i'm left behind,
i just want you to know,
you've stayed on my mind...

something about you won't let me go, no matter how hard i try...

♥

i can't even begin to explain to anyone what i hold inside, how often i put others before myself, maybe that's why my life is like it is, maybe i should've been more concerned with myself more all this time, but no, i care for others more, i was put on this earth for a reason, though i may not know what for exactly, helping others gives me a sense of happiness, to see the one i've helped smile, to know they're okay, to know that someone is happy, those are the few joys left in my life....

writing about other people's problems seems to help me somewhat, does anyone besides me find that odd at all? =/