It's been that long or not long enough seems like. It's still not easy. May 2nd. I wish she was here. I wish she'd always been here. I miss her A LOT! I can't seem to stop looking at her photos. I can't stop thinking about her. I can't stop tearing randomly ( Read more... )

Just wanted to say that I am still alive. Blah....

A great friend of is going through some rough time. Dan's dad passed away this morning. May he rest in peace and may Dan find peace too. I love you Dan.

My BF David arranged a birthday late lunch for me and it was very sweet. Times like these makes me cherish them more.

Happy New Year Everyone.

Happy Freakin' New Year and happy freakin' birthday to me!!!

Yep. This was a great holiday despite of the lack of finance. I was able to get my Baby some things he wanted and John some things he wanted and other people hopefully things they will enjoy having. Plus I got the fragrance that was no longer available..how'd they do that? I don't know. And a nice comfy robe ( Read more... )

Still not out of this phase yet. Still waiting for my sister to show up and say "Hey Silly Girl, snap out of it. You're here for a reason." She hasn't been in my dreams for the longest time.

I don't know. I just go in and out of dazes hazes and gazes.

Oh well....

whatever....

One of my family members had a history of being manic depressive. Whether it’s genetic, hereditary or whatever, I have a phase of depression that I go through myself once in a long while…I can probably say every 3 years or so. I never really talk about it because I really never had to. The one person that knew me best knew that all I needed was her ( Read more... )

I really need to keep this up to date. I mean, what’s a journal if you don’t upkeep it? Right ( Read more... )

I missed Seattle so much. It's the home away from home. Having a month of solitude and meditation should bring you joy, right? Eh...yeah I did no sinning: drinking, sex, impure thoughts, no road rage, no anger or getting upset, no yelling or talking back or arguing, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera but I don't know just didn't make me as happy as I ( Read more... )

Like that's going to happen....EVER ( Read more... )