moonless moments crawl toward sunless days
five a week, two by myself -four semesters
trying my patience and understanding, willing me to destroy you at every turn
testing and studying and marginalizing, breaking apart who i am in place of who fits the fall catolouge
brandwash conformity unremittingly attacking any deviation
fuck you.

best ending i ( Read more... )

you know what? i made a decision, fuck my miserable existance, fuck ( Read more... )

she say ( Read more... )

well I finally got my ass down to home depot  and got the wood i ( Read more... )

you know what? I'm really fucking tired. I'm tired of being ( Read more... )

There once was a boy
   He tried to picture his life
but he didn't know where to look for it
it was lost like the 16 years already past
    He had no memories of happy times
and the sadness made him forget the rest
living in the day to day was killing him
    And he was glad

So he tried picturing his future
but he couldn't
    He didn't think he ( Read more... )

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
     He wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
      Because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
       and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
       and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
       took all the ( Read more... )

I hope you know how much it hurts that you won't respond to my calls/emails/posts/pain ( Read more... )

I really don't know why I write in this journal. I guess to most of the people here ( Read more... )

I had a slow day today. I started taking my anti-depressants again, or rather my mom's been forcing me to, but whatever. I'm not sad anymore, or at least not all of the time, which is good. Looking back it's kind of comforting to think that i can still feel this horrible, and that i could still feel that good ( even if it was only for a few days ( Read more... )