Illusions (9/?)
Title : Illusions (9/?)
Rating : NC 17
Pairing : Ruki x Kai
Theme : IV - 9 - Couch.sofa
Summary : I turned to my side, watching him looking out.
A/N : Ah.. most people had thought that it was Kyo.. but then.. ^^; i didnt write it with Kyo in mind actually. rofl. its a person that most people wouldnt know or expect it to be. ^^; but then.. ^^; pats Ruki's head.. ^^; dont hate him too much ^^: C&C are welcomed!This is from Ruki's POV.
Past chapters
Chptr 1, 2 , 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8
I stared up at the dark ceiling, not bothering with the lights, preferring to wallow in my own self pity for the time being. I turned towards the opened door, seeing Kai enter, also not bothering to switch on the lights as his eyes adjusted to the darkness. Did he see me here? He moved towards the window, sitting on the sill, looking out at the dark streets outside.
“Not going back yet?”
I turned to my side, watching him looking out.
“No. Yourself?”
“No”
“The others?”
“Reita is having dinner with his cousin who is in town for the weekend. The other two have a date”
I nodded to myself, still intent at looking at him.
“Still him?”
I knew who he meant by that two words. I gave a soft noncommittal grunt before he turned back to me.
“The other day”
I couldn’t help the sarcastic laugh at his innuendo at the possibility of Reita being with me. He flushed slightly, knowing it to be true. Looking everywhere but me, he finally spoke again.
“The other night”
I forced myself to look back up at the ceiling, forcing down the lump that had formed in my throat at the hurt I hear in his voice. I remember leaving him in his bed, sneaking out like a thief in early dawn, not regretting what happened between us but regretting what happened the morning after, regretting what I am doing right then. I swallowed down the lump before finally answering the question hanging in the air.
“It was a mistake”
He gave a short hysterical laugh before standing up.
“Miyavi was right. You do not deserve me”
The door slammed shut behind him as I sat up on the couch. Perhaps the other singer is right in this instance. I do not deserve Kai. Who else would do this to a person that he supposedly loves? Maybe I am just weak and selfish, not being able to keep my pants on even though I do love him. Maybe I am just a slut.
Rating : NC 17
Pairing : Ruki x Kai
Theme : IV - 9 - Couch.sofa
Summary : I turned to my side, watching him looking out.
A/N : Ah.. most people had thought that it was Kyo.. but then.. ^^; i didnt write it with Kyo in mind actually. rofl. its a person that most people wouldnt know or expect it to be. ^^; but then.. ^^; pats Ruki's head.. ^^; dont hate him too much ^^: C&C are welcomed!This is from Ruki's POV.
Past chapters
Chptr 1, 2 , 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8
I stared up at the dark ceiling, not bothering with the lights, preferring to wallow in my own self pity for the time being. I turned towards the opened door, seeing Kai enter, also not bothering to switch on the lights as his eyes adjusted to the darkness. Did he see me here? He moved towards the window, sitting on the sill, looking out at the dark streets outside.
“Not going back yet?”
I turned to my side, watching him looking out.
“No. Yourself?”
“No”
“The others?”
“Reita is having dinner with his cousin who is in town for the weekend. The other two have a date”
I nodded to myself, still intent at looking at him.
“Still him?”
I knew who he meant by that two words. I gave a soft noncommittal grunt before he turned back to me.
“The other day”
I couldn’t help the sarcastic laugh at his innuendo at the possibility of Reita being with me. He flushed slightly, knowing it to be true. Looking everywhere but me, he finally spoke again.
“The other night”
I forced myself to look back up at the ceiling, forcing down the lump that had formed in my throat at the hurt I hear in his voice. I remember leaving him in his bed, sneaking out like a thief in early dawn, not regretting what happened between us but regretting what happened the morning after, regretting what I am doing right then. I swallowed down the lump before finally answering the question hanging in the air.
“It was a mistake”
He gave a short hysterical laugh before standing up.
“Miyavi was right. You do not deserve me”
The door slammed shut behind him as I sat up on the couch. Perhaps the other singer is right in this instance. I do not deserve Kai. Who else would do this to a person that he supposedly loves? Maybe I am just weak and selfish, not being able to keep my pants on even though I do love him. Maybe I am just a slut.