THIS PISSES ME OFF YET AGAIN.....WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH TODAY'S PEOPLE...JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR
I am so infuriated right now....why do these fucking idiots talk to me about shit if they don't want to hear my viewpoints? Hello buy a fucking clue....
The convo is long but its behind a cut so please if you want to read I would like some ideas on how to go about things better next time...this time obviously my anger got the best of me....
PULSE of KAOS [2:07 PM]: hey
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:07 PM]: hey
PULSE of KAOS [2:08 PM]: wassup?
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:09 PM]: nuttin brb though
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:09 PM]: need a cig
PULSE of KAOS [2:09 PM]: bad bad adam
PULSE of KAOS [2:24 PM]: [14:06] AsherLev01: have fun last nighht?
[14:06] mathwhiz78: just hung out with my neighbor, same as most nights
[14:07] AsherLev01: i thought you had an orgy?
[14:10] mathwhiz78: oh THAT! yeah, it was cool
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:25 PM]: i know mathwhiz
PULSE of KAOS [2:25 PM]: hes fun
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:25 PM]: have you hung with him
PULSE of KAOS [2:26 PM]: never met him
PULSE of KAOS [2:26 PM]: but he saved my life once
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:26 PM]: oh really?
PULSE of KAOS [2:26 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [2:26 PM]: i had attemptemted suicide and he called 911
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:27 PM]: ohhh well suicide's no good
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:27 PM]: unless it is figurative
PULSE of KAOS [2:28 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [2:28 PM]: no this wasnt
PULSE of KAOS [2:29 PM]: i overdosed on a cocktail of tylanol, excedrin, ibuprofen, depakote, geodon
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:29 PM]: depakote...yikes
PULSE of KAOS [2:29 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [2:29 PM]: about 5 grams
PULSE of KAOS [2:30 PM]: oh and Klonopin
PULSE of KAOS [2:30 PM]: forgot bout that one
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:33 PM]: well lots not do that again ok
PULSE of KAOS [2:34 PM]: somehow i dont think its a good idea
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:35 PM]: yeah its not lol
PULSE of KAOS [2:35 PM]: heh :-/
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:35 PM]: +hugs+
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:35 PM]: don't be emo lol
PULSE of KAOS [2:36 PM]: i was emo before the stupid kids started faking it
PULSE of KAOS [2:36 PM]: i was the real thing
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:36 PM]: i haven't always been emoish
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:37 PM]: but i don't think i fake anything...i'm about as harsh and real as there ever will be
PULSE of KAOS [2:42 PM]: yeah
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:42 PM]: fuck what do i know
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:42 PM]: emo is just a term
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:42 PM]: labels limit
PULSE of KAOS [2:42 PM]: yep
PULSE of KAOS [2:42 PM]: but the kids like labels
PULSE of KAOS [2:43 PM]: thats part of the reason they get confused
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:43 PM]: well they are kids....i mean they aren't gonna know everything
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:44 PM]: they can hardly decide who they are to begin with
PULSE of KAOS [2:46 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [2:46 PM]: the hell am i tlking about anyway
PULSE of KAOS [2:46 PM]: im only 21
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:46 PM]: me too but age is nothing but a number
PULSE of KAOS [2:46 PM]: hehe
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:46 PM]: collectively you may be older
PULSE of KAOS [2:47 PM]: maybe
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:47 PM]: but then i dont know you so
PULSE of KAOS [2:47 PM]: this thing used to be fast
PULSE of KAOS [2:47 PM]: now it sucks
PULSE of KAOS [2:48 PM]: maybe you do
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:48 PM]: mine is slow
PULSE of KAOS [2:48 PM]: maybe i could be taking a vacation 3 blocks from you
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:49 PM]: nah i dont think so
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:49 PM]: i'd call you retarded if you were
PULSE of KAOS [2:50 PM]: hehe
PULSE of KAOS [2:50 PM]: youre calling me retarded now
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:51 PM]: well i would never vacation in cartersville for one
PULSE of KAOS [2:51 PM]: so its a valid point, isnt it?
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:52 PM]: what is valid?
PULSE of KAOS [2:52 PM]: that i might be near you
PULSE of KAOS [2:53 PM]: cause youd call that person retarded
PULSE of KAOS [2:53 PM]: so if im there, youd be calling me retrded now
PULSE of KAOS [2:53 PM]: so i might be there, no?
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:53 PM]: you might and you might be retarded too lol
PULSE of KAOS [2:53 PM]: hehe
PULSE of KAOS [3:01 PM]: sooooo
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:01 PM]: soooooooooooooooooooooo
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:01 PM]: +insert crickets+
PULSE of KAOS [3:02 PM]: california
PULSE of KAOS [3:02 PM]: walking on the burning shore
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:02 PM]: WHAT ABOUT CALI?
PULSE of KAOS [3:03 PM]: they're singing about it
PULSE of KAOS [3:03 PM]: actually thy're singing about drugs
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:04 PM]: who is?
PULSE of KAOS [3:04 PM]: but they mention california
PULSE of KAOS [3:04 PM]: the dead
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:04 PM]: hmmm nice band name
PULSE of KAOS [3:04 PM]: as in grateful dead?
PULSE of KAOS [3:05 PM]: i think you've heard of them
PULSE of KAOS [3:05 PM]: maybe
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:05 PM]: ahahaha oh yeah
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:05 PM]: i thought you just meant The Dead
PULSE of KAOS [3:05 PM]: well
PULSE of KAOS [3:06 PM]: thats the same band
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:06 PM]: my friend chrystal loves the dead..she's a hippie
PULSE of KAOS [3:06 PM]: they dropped "grateful" after Jerry died
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:06 PM]: i wouldn't know i only know that one song
PULSE of KAOS [3:06 PM]: which one?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:06 PM]: i dont evenknow the name
PULSE of KAOS [3:07 PM]: how doe it go?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: it's like some kind of something about grey or something
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: i dont' remember
PULSE of KAOS [3:07 PM]: touch of gray
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: they turned into skeletons on the video
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: yes
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: that was it
PULSE of KAOS [3:07 PM]: i like that song
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: i listen to folk but i dont listen to "The Dead"
PULSE of KAOS [3:07 PM]: PPM?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:08 PM]: I'm more this day and age kind of guy
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:08 PM]: what is that short for
PULSE of KAOS [3:08 PM]: Peter, Paul & Mary\
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:08 PM]: nah
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:08 PM]: I like Ryan Adams
PULSE of KAOS [3:08 PM]: i've seen them live
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:09 PM]: cool
PULSE of KAOS [3:09 PM]: they were fun
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:09 PM]: and Guster
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:09 PM]: they are more my pace of music
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:09 PM]: but Peter Paul And Mary I have never actually heard a lot of
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:09 PM]: or Jump Little Children
PULSE of KAOS [3:09 PM]: i got this '60's style sweatshirt
PULSE of KAOS [3:10 PM]: and their new album
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: hahaha freak lol
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: jay kay
PULSE of KAOS [3:10 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [3:10 PM]: oh but i am
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: well thats ok
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: i like that
PULSE of KAOS [3:10 PM]: *licks lips*
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: not in that way lol
PULSE of KAOS [3:10 PM]: heheh
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: i'm sexophobic
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:11 PM]: well not totally but for the most part
PULSE of KAOS [3:11 PM]: hehe
PULSE of KAOS [3:11 PM]: i am also
PULSE of KAOS [3:11 PM]: at least homosexual sex
PULSE of KAOS [3:11 PM]: im still a virgin, but i wouldnt mind with a girl
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:11 PM]: i am scared of anything that can kill me slowly with a disease careful or not careful
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:12 PM]: with a girl or a dude
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:12 PM]: i sowed my wild sexual oats when i was 12 all the way to 18
PULSE of KAOS [3:12 PM]: thats why im gonnna wait until im married
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:12 PM]: now I am looking for substance
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:12 PM]: i'll never be married
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:13 PM]: cause i am not moving to some other state just for that
PULSE of KAOS [3:13 PM]: and have a monogymous relationship
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:13 PM]: that is a great thing
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:13 PM]: and i have had those
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:13 PM]: but guys are too i dunno just...like they can't settle down
PULSE of KAOS [3:13 PM]: well technichnically, no
PULSE of KAOS [3:14 PM]: if you've had more than one
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:14 PM]: but i mean to end up with one person is monogamous
PULSE of KAOS [3:14 PM]: yeah
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:14 PM]: just like polygamy is a relationship with many
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:14 PM]: sooo not into that scene lol
PULSE of KAOS [3:15 PM]: yeah
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: i'm not sharing my dude with anybody
PULSE of KAOS [3:15 PM]: just...
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: unless they want to share matching blade scars
PULSE of KAOS [3:15 PM]: sex with a guy?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: its no different thatn a girl a lot of the time
PULSE of KAOS [3:15 PM]: its a scary thought for me
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: well that is a barrier you have reached
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: i'm past all that
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: sex is sex
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:16 PM]: your own personal boundaries are set by yourself ultimately i believe
PULSE of KAOS [3:16 PM]: also im orthodox
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:16 PM]: i'm christian
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:16 PM]: but i still had buttsex anyway
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:16 PM]: lol
PULSE of KAOS [3:16 PM]: so its kind of ummm sodomy?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:16 PM]: well as i said we all have our own vices
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:17 PM]: i'm not here to judge
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:17 PM]: you do what makes you happy and let me do the same
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:17 PM]: so its cool
PULSE of KAOS [3:17 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [3:17 PM]: i mean
PULSE of KAOS [3:17 PM]: it comes to mind every once in a while
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:17 PM]: for everyone it does
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:17 PM]: you either choose to indulge or not to
PULSE of KAOS [3:18 PM]: but im scared of the disease
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: me too
PULSE of KAOS [3:18 PM]: and how it would feel
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: i've been raped by a guy wearing no condom
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: it wasnt pleasent but i am clean and that is all that matters now
PULSE of KAOS [3:18 PM]: owwww
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: that is why i take sex so seriously
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: i will only have sex with the guy i fall for
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: i don't have anonymous hook ups like most gay guys
PULSE of KAOS [3:19 PM]: that would give me reason to stay away altogether if that happened
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:19 PM]: well i am stronger than rape and i beat it
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:19 PM]: so i cant change who i am
PULSE of KAOS [3:19 PM]: i've been asexual for a long time
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:19 PM]: and part of who iam is likeing guys
PULSE of KAOS [3:19 PM]: i wasnt raped
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:19 PM]: i am only physically attracted to men
PULSE of KAOS [3:19 PM]: but i was abused
PULSE of KAOS [3:20 PM]: same here
PULSE of KAOS [3:20 PM]: i would make out
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:20 PM]: no no you dont understand....I ultimately want to be with a man
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:20 PM]: if i could have a family with a guy and it be legal i would
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:20 PM]: i would be a great father
PULSE of KAOS [3:20 PM]: move to spain\
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:20 PM]: but the government won't let me and that is cool too i just believe that i should be allowed my freedom
PULSE of KAOS [3:21 PM]: they're making a big deal over it
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:21 PM]: well idont really care either way because sometimes i am disinterested in my own fate
PULSE of KAOS [3:21 PM]: and kicking all the mayors who wont allow it out of office
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:21 PM]: i am not gonna scream equality when some fags don't deserve it
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:22 PM]: they don't want EQUALITY are you fucking kidding me...they want supremacy some of them...anyways
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:22 PM]: and I am not about that shit
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:22 PM]: the same way some blacks started to rise up and want their slavery money back...reperation or whatever...they didnt even know what it felt like to be enslaved
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:23 PM]: its todays culture man
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:23 PM]: i just don't feed into the shit
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:23 PM]: personally I am an internal anarchist in ways
PULSE of KAOS [3:24 PM]: i cant relate to all this
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:24 PM]: yeah you can
PULSE of KAOS [3:24 PM]: im still trying to deal with myself
PULSE of KAOS [3:24 PM]: and the way its going
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:24 PM]: it's universal dude
PULSE of KAOS [3:25 PM]: its complicated
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:25 PM]: well life is complicated
PULSE of KAOS [3:25 PM]: i prefer guys
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:25 PM]: so you gonna stop living just because it's complicated?
PULSE of KAOS [3:25 PM]: but
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:25 PM]: but what?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:25 PM]: this is a reality for me
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:25 PM]: so yeah i feel strongly about it
PULSE of KAOS [3:26 PM]: i dont imagine having a serious relationship
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: well thats you
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: and that is fine
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: but why use people
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: to me that is using someone
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: for personal gratification
PULSE of KAOS [3:26 PM]: not for sex
PULSE of KAOS [3:26 PM]: i just told you
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: for what then
PULSE of KAOS [3:26 PM]: i dont have homosexual sex
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:27 PM]: so what?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:27 PM]: there are couples out there who dont
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:27 PM]: well this feels a bit patronizing to me
PULSE of KAOS [3:27 PM]: its going to have to wait a few years anyway
PULSE of KAOS [3:28 PM]: until i can finally move out
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: well i mean ultimately it falls on you
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: and its a growth
PULSE of KAOS [3:28 PM]: :-/
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: you either grow one way or the other
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: and its fine either way
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: but don't use gay experiences to shape that
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: like not even sexual but in general
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: it isnt fair to other people
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:29 PM]: nobody wants to be a stepping stone ya know
PULSE of KAOS [3:29 PM]: i would tell them my situation up front
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:29 PM]: that is inconsequential
PULSE of KAOS [3:29 PM]: either it goes
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:29 PM]: it's still wrong to do
PULSE of KAOS [3:30 PM]: or i move on
PULSE of KAOS [3:30 PM]: no harm
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:30 PM]: u should never use peopl for personal gain
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:30 PM]: there IS harm, you could be hurting one of my loved ones.
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:30 PM]: you could hurt that person
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:30 PM]: very badly
PULSE of KAOS [3:30 PM]: im very sesitive
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:30 PM]: yeah well so am i
PULSE of KAOS [3:31 PM]: they can always cry on my shoulder
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:31 PM]: but there is a time to be smart dude
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:31 PM]: don't go around possibly hurting people and let them do that..
PULSE of KAOS [3:31 PM]: as i am looking for one i can cry on
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:31 PM]: well then you have step up and be real
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:31 PM]: to*
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:32 PM]: don't go around telling people anything like that up front....you will be setting them up for heartbreak
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:32 PM]: and I am tired of seeing these people who ultimately want to be with women talk about how they are gay but aren't really...identity crisis spreads like the plague and it is not a good thing...grow some balls and say I like cock!
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:32 PM]: and it rots people from the inside out
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:33 PM]: there is no rush to find out who you are dude
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:33 PM]: just be you...but don't possibly hurt people to get to that next step
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:35 PM]: I think you are a good person at heart....I just don't want to see you hurt or struggle and i dont want that to project onto innocent people
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:36 PM]: but it really does'nt matter what I say because I am nobody to you...so why worry about it to begin with....I am just a person giving you my point of view
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:36 PM]: some random guy who happens to be gay....but knows a lot about it
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:38 PM]: It's ok to hate me...I'd rather be hated than used by you.
The convo is long but its behind a cut so please if you want to read I would like some ideas on how to go about things better next time...this time obviously my anger got the best of me....
PULSE of KAOS [2:07 PM]: hey
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:07 PM]: hey
PULSE of KAOS [2:08 PM]: wassup?
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:09 PM]: nuttin brb though
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:09 PM]: need a cig
PULSE of KAOS [2:09 PM]: bad bad adam
PULSE of KAOS [2:24 PM]: [14:06] AsherLev01: have fun last nighht?
[14:06] mathwhiz78: just hung out with my neighbor, same as most nights
[14:07] AsherLev01: i thought you had an orgy?
[14:10] mathwhiz78: oh THAT! yeah, it was cool
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:25 PM]: i know mathwhiz
PULSE of KAOS [2:25 PM]: hes fun
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:25 PM]: have you hung with him
PULSE of KAOS [2:26 PM]: never met him
PULSE of KAOS [2:26 PM]: but he saved my life once
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:26 PM]: oh really?
PULSE of KAOS [2:26 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [2:26 PM]: i had attemptemted suicide and he called 911
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:27 PM]: ohhh well suicide's no good
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:27 PM]: unless it is figurative
PULSE of KAOS [2:28 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [2:28 PM]: no this wasnt
PULSE of KAOS [2:29 PM]: i overdosed on a cocktail of tylanol, excedrin, ibuprofen, depakote, geodon
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:29 PM]: depakote...yikes
PULSE of KAOS [2:29 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [2:29 PM]: about 5 grams
PULSE of KAOS [2:30 PM]: oh and Klonopin
PULSE of KAOS [2:30 PM]: forgot bout that one
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:33 PM]: well lots not do that again ok
PULSE of KAOS [2:34 PM]: somehow i dont think its a good idea
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:35 PM]: yeah its not lol
PULSE of KAOS [2:35 PM]: heh :-/
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:35 PM]: +hugs+
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:35 PM]: don't be emo lol
PULSE of KAOS [2:36 PM]: i was emo before the stupid kids started faking it
PULSE of KAOS [2:36 PM]: i was the real thing
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:36 PM]: i haven't always been emoish
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:37 PM]: but i don't think i fake anything...i'm about as harsh and real as there ever will be
PULSE of KAOS [2:42 PM]: yeah
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:42 PM]: fuck what do i know
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:42 PM]: emo is just a term
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:42 PM]: labels limit
PULSE of KAOS [2:42 PM]: yep
PULSE of KAOS [2:42 PM]: but the kids like labels
PULSE of KAOS [2:43 PM]: thats part of the reason they get confused
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:43 PM]: well they are kids....i mean they aren't gonna know everything
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:44 PM]: they can hardly decide who they are to begin with
PULSE of KAOS [2:46 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [2:46 PM]: the hell am i tlking about anyway
PULSE of KAOS [2:46 PM]: im only 21
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:46 PM]: me too but age is nothing but a number
PULSE of KAOS [2:46 PM]: hehe
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:46 PM]: collectively you may be older
PULSE of KAOS [2:47 PM]: maybe
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:47 PM]: but then i dont know you so
PULSE of KAOS [2:47 PM]: this thing used to be fast
PULSE of KAOS [2:47 PM]: now it sucks
PULSE of KAOS [2:48 PM]: maybe you do
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:48 PM]: mine is slow
PULSE of KAOS [2:48 PM]: maybe i could be taking a vacation 3 blocks from you
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:49 PM]: nah i dont think so
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:49 PM]: i'd call you retarded if you were
PULSE of KAOS [2:50 PM]: hehe
PULSE of KAOS [2:50 PM]: youre calling me retarded now
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:51 PM]: well i would never vacation in cartersville for one
PULSE of KAOS [2:51 PM]: so its a valid point, isnt it?
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:52 PM]: what is valid?
PULSE of KAOS [2:52 PM]: that i might be near you
PULSE of KAOS [2:53 PM]: cause youd call that person retarded
PULSE of KAOS [2:53 PM]: so if im there, youd be calling me retrded now
PULSE of KAOS [2:53 PM]: so i might be there, no?
ITookAKnife2U21 [2:53 PM]: you might and you might be retarded too lol
PULSE of KAOS [2:53 PM]: hehe
PULSE of KAOS [3:01 PM]: sooooo
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:01 PM]: soooooooooooooooooooooo
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:01 PM]: +insert crickets+
PULSE of KAOS [3:02 PM]: california
PULSE of KAOS [3:02 PM]: walking on the burning shore
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:02 PM]: WHAT ABOUT CALI?
PULSE of KAOS [3:03 PM]: they're singing about it
PULSE of KAOS [3:03 PM]: actually thy're singing about drugs
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:04 PM]: who is?
PULSE of KAOS [3:04 PM]: but they mention california
PULSE of KAOS [3:04 PM]: the dead
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:04 PM]: hmmm nice band name
PULSE of KAOS [3:04 PM]: as in grateful dead?
PULSE of KAOS [3:05 PM]: i think you've heard of them
PULSE of KAOS [3:05 PM]: maybe
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:05 PM]: ahahaha oh yeah
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:05 PM]: i thought you just meant The Dead
PULSE of KAOS [3:05 PM]: well
PULSE of KAOS [3:06 PM]: thats the same band
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:06 PM]: my friend chrystal loves the dead..she's a hippie
PULSE of KAOS [3:06 PM]: they dropped "grateful" after Jerry died
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:06 PM]: i wouldn't know i only know that one song
PULSE of KAOS [3:06 PM]: which one?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:06 PM]: i dont evenknow the name
PULSE of KAOS [3:07 PM]: how doe it go?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: it's like some kind of something about grey or something
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: i dont' remember
PULSE of KAOS [3:07 PM]: touch of gray
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: they turned into skeletons on the video
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: yes
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: that was it
PULSE of KAOS [3:07 PM]: i like that song
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:07 PM]: i listen to folk but i dont listen to "The Dead"
PULSE of KAOS [3:07 PM]: PPM?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:08 PM]: I'm more this day and age kind of guy
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:08 PM]: what is that short for
PULSE of KAOS [3:08 PM]: Peter, Paul & Mary\
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:08 PM]: nah
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:08 PM]: I like Ryan Adams
PULSE of KAOS [3:08 PM]: i've seen them live
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:09 PM]: cool
PULSE of KAOS [3:09 PM]: they were fun
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:09 PM]: and Guster
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:09 PM]: they are more my pace of music
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:09 PM]: but Peter Paul And Mary I have never actually heard a lot of
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:09 PM]: or Jump Little Children
PULSE of KAOS [3:09 PM]: i got this '60's style sweatshirt
PULSE of KAOS [3:10 PM]: and their new album
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: hahaha freak lol
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: jay kay
PULSE of KAOS [3:10 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [3:10 PM]: oh but i am
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: well thats ok
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: i like that
PULSE of KAOS [3:10 PM]: *licks lips*
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: not in that way lol
PULSE of KAOS [3:10 PM]: heheh
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:10 PM]: i'm sexophobic
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:11 PM]: well not totally but for the most part
PULSE of KAOS [3:11 PM]: hehe
PULSE of KAOS [3:11 PM]: i am also
PULSE of KAOS [3:11 PM]: at least homosexual sex
PULSE of KAOS [3:11 PM]: im still a virgin, but i wouldnt mind with a girl
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:11 PM]: i am scared of anything that can kill me slowly with a disease careful or not careful
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:12 PM]: with a girl or a dude
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:12 PM]: i sowed my wild sexual oats when i was 12 all the way to 18
PULSE of KAOS [3:12 PM]: thats why im gonnna wait until im married
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:12 PM]: now I am looking for substance
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:12 PM]: i'll never be married
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:13 PM]: cause i am not moving to some other state just for that
PULSE of KAOS [3:13 PM]: and have a monogymous relationship
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:13 PM]: that is a great thing
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:13 PM]: and i have had those
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:13 PM]: but guys are too i dunno just...like they can't settle down
PULSE of KAOS [3:13 PM]: well technichnically, no
PULSE of KAOS [3:14 PM]: if you've had more than one
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:14 PM]: but i mean to end up with one person is monogamous
PULSE of KAOS [3:14 PM]: yeah
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:14 PM]: just like polygamy is a relationship with many
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:14 PM]: sooo not into that scene lol
PULSE of KAOS [3:15 PM]: yeah
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: i'm not sharing my dude with anybody
PULSE of KAOS [3:15 PM]: just...
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: unless they want to share matching blade scars
PULSE of KAOS [3:15 PM]: sex with a guy?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: its no different thatn a girl a lot of the time
PULSE of KAOS [3:15 PM]: its a scary thought for me
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: well that is a barrier you have reached
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: i'm past all that
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:15 PM]: sex is sex
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:16 PM]: your own personal boundaries are set by yourself ultimately i believe
PULSE of KAOS [3:16 PM]: also im orthodox
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:16 PM]: i'm christian
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:16 PM]: but i still had buttsex anyway
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:16 PM]: lol
PULSE of KAOS [3:16 PM]: so its kind of ummm sodomy?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:16 PM]: well as i said we all have our own vices
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:17 PM]: i'm not here to judge
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:17 PM]: you do what makes you happy and let me do the same
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:17 PM]: so its cool
PULSE of KAOS [3:17 PM]: yeah
PULSE of KAOS [3:17 PM]: i mean
PULSE of KAOS [3:17 PM]: it comes to mind every once in a while
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:17 PM]: for everyone it does
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:17 PM]: you either choose to indulge or not to
PULSE of KAOS [3:18 PM]: but im scared of the disease
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: me too
PULSE of KAOS [3:18 PM]: and how it would feel
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: i've been raped by a guy wearing no condom
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: it wasnt pleasent but i am clean and that is all that matters now
PULSE of KAOS [3:18 PM]: owwww
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: that is why i take sex so seriously
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: i will only have sex with the guy i fall for
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:18 PM]: i don't have anonymous hook ups like most gay guys
PULSE of KAOS [3:19 PM]: that would give me reason to stay away altogether if that happened
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:19 PM]: well i am stronger than rape and i beat it
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:19 PM]: so i cant change who i am
PULSE of KAOS [3:19 PM]: i've been asexual for a long time
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:19 PM]: and part of who iam is likeing guys
PULSE of KAOS [3:19 PM]: i wasnt raped
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:19 PM]: i am only physically attracted to men
PULSE of KAOS [3:19 PM]: but i was abused
PULSE of KAOS [3:20 PM]: same here
PULSE of KAOS [3:20 PM]: i would make out
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:20 PM]: no no you dont understand....I ultimately want to be with a man
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:20 PM]: if i could have a family with a guy and it be legal i would
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:20 PM]: i would be a great father
PULSE of KAOS [3:20 PM]: move to spain\
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:20 PM]: but the government won't let me and that is cool too i just believe that i should be allowed my freedom
PULSE of KAOS [3:21 PM]: they're making a big deal over it
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:21 PM]: well idont really care either way because sometimes i am disinterested in my own fate
PULSE of KAOS [3:21 PM]: and kicking all the mayors who wont allow it out of office
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:21 PM]: i am not gonna scream equality when some fags don't deserve it
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:22 PM]: they don't want EQUALITY are you fucking kidding me...they want supremacy some of them...anyways
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:22 PM]: and I am not about that shit
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:22 PM]: the same way some blacks started to rise up and want their slavery money back...reperation or whatever...they didnt even know what it felt like to be enslaved
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:23 PM]: its todays culture man
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:23 PM]: i just don't feed into the shit
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:23 PM]: personally I am an internal anarchist in ways
PULSE of KAOS [3:24 PM]: i cant relate to all this
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:24 PM]: yeah you can
PULSE of KAOS [3:24 PM]: im still trying to deal with myself
PULSE of KAOS [3:24 PM]: and the way its going
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:24 PM]: it's universal dude
PULSE of KAOS [3:25 PM]: its complicated
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:25 PM]: well life is complicated
PULSE of KAOS [3:25 PM]: i prefer guys
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:25 PM]: so you gonna stop living just because it's complicated?
PULSE of KAOS [3:25 PM]: but
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:25 PM]: but what?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:25 PM]: this is a reality for me
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:25 PM]: so yeah i feel strongly about it
PULSE of KAOS [3:26 PM]: i dont imagine having a serious relationship
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: well thats you
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: and that is fine
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: but why use people
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: to me that is using someone
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: for personal gratification
PULSE of KAOS [3:26 PM]: not for sex
PULSE of KAOS [3:26 PM]: i just told you
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:26 PM]: for what then
PULSE of KAOS [3:26 PM]: i dont have homosexual sex
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:27 PM]: so what?
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:27 PM]: there are couples out there who dont
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:27 PM]: well this feels a bit patronizing to me
PULSE of KAOS [3:27 PM]: its going to have to wait a few years anyway
PULSE of KAOS [3:28 PM]: until i can finally move out
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: well i mean ultimately it falls on you
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: and its a growth
PULSE of KAOS [3:28 PM]: :-/
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: you either grow one way or the other
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: and its fine either way
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: but don't use gay experiences to shape that
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: like not even sexual but in general
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:28 PM]: it isnt fair to other people
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:29 PM]: nobody wants to be a stepping stone ya know
PULSE of KAOS [3:29 PM]: i would tell them my situation up front
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:29 PM]: that is inconsequential
PULSE of KAOS [3:29 PM]: either it goes
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:29 PM]: it's still wrong to do
PULSE of KAOS [3:30 PM]: or i move on
PULSE of KAOS [3:30 PM]: no harm
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:30 PM]: u should never use peopl for personal gain
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:30 PM]: there IS harm, you could be hurting one of my loved ones.
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:30 PM]: you could hurt that person
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:30 PM]: very badly
PULSE of KAOS [3:30 PM]: im very sesitive
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:30 PM]: yeah well so am i
PULSE of KAOS [3:31 PM]: they can always cry on my shoulder
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:31 PM]: but there is a time to be smart dude
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:31 PM]: don't go around possibly hurting people and let them do that..
PULSE of KAOS [3:31 PM]: as i am looking for one i can cry on
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:31 PM]: well then you have step up and be real
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:31 PM]: to*
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:32 PM]: don't go around telling people anything like that up front....you will be setting them up for heartbreak
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:32 PM]: and I am tired of seeing these people who ultimately want to be with women talk about how they are gay but aren't really...identity crisis spreads like the plague and it is not a good thing...grow some balls and say I like cock!
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:32 PM]: and it rots people from the inside out
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:33 PM]: there is no rush to find out who you are dude
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:33 PM]: just be you...but don't possibly hurt people to get to that next step
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:35 PM]: I think you are a good person at heart....I just don't want to see you hurt or struggle and i dont want that to project onto innocent people
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:36 PM]: but it really does'nt matter what I say because I am nobody to you...so why worry about it to begin with....I am just a person giving you my point of view
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:36 PM]: some random guy who happens to be gay....but knows a lot about it
ITookAKnife2U21 [3:38 PM]: It's ok to hate me...I'd rather be hated than used by you.