Remember that time you really were a Christian? Yeah, where did that go ( Read more... )

I have this song stuck in my head and it's making me angry. I heard it on the radio earlier today. It's that one that says "your body is a wonderland...if you have any plans, we'll break them...cause this is going to be amazing..." I don't know, it's something like that. When I think about it I start writhing. I think, "No! My body is not a ( Read more... )

I really want to sit and read for LARGE chunks of time for nothing but pleasure. I don't want to read for school or to finish a book or anything like that. That's probably why I have seven books in progress. I really don't want to read to get to the end and accomplish a task. I want to read simply to soak in various styles of writing. I like ( Read more... )

Why is it that I cannot ever say what I want to say? I have so much inside of me but for some reason I'm afraid of letting it out. It's like I'm scared of bein noticed; but more of being admired, looked up to, respected, addored, revered. I must think quite a bit of myself eh ( Read more... )

Wow, if I read correctly the last time I updated LJ was about half a year ago. Interesting. I remember when LiveJournal was the hip thing to do. Now it's all Xanga and Facebook. I hope I never, ever, get on Facebook. I think that's what I said about Xanga quite some time ago...but whatever. It's just that there's so much more to Facebook than ( Read more... )

I don't know. When I'm at home and there's a fresh pan of brownies in the kitchen I find it rather difficult to concentrate on typical, daily, activities. Every few minutes I remember that there is chocolatey goodness just in the next room. I ponder getting up and getting some. Finally I actually get up, walk into the kitchen, grab a paper- ( Read more... )

Today in chapel the guy talked about Jewish kids and how they learned. Anyhow, I couldn't catch all the big words and such but I did especially attach myself to the concept of the teacher/dude pouring out honey (a delecacy) and saying "you need to learn to value the Word of God as much as you do this honey." It was something like that...I'm sure ( Read more... )

I have eaten too much of the world this year. I am not longer hungry for the taste of Jesus. I think I should do a world fast until I am so hungry that God is the only one who/that is big enough to fill me up.

The more couples I see hitchin' it up over the first week of school the less interested I am in catching myself a man. I don't know...I have my eyes on a hunk...and he's really quite nice. I'd like to date him but I suppose I simply do not wish to fall into the status quo. Stupid freshmen that hook up with other freshmen when they don't even ( Read more... )

How can stuff get so screwed up? How can I do this sort of thing? Why am I so unfocused? How can I become so tired so quickly? What makes me change my mind ten times a day? How come being firmly set on something means nothing? How can they take it all away? Why do I let them?