all good things...

[53_inches]

It's over. I'm over. I just want to fall off the earth, but the memphis bridge will have to do. I told jackie I didn't want to be a parent. Which was a flat lie. I do want to be a parent. But not necessarily to her son. Well that did it for her...

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[fairytale_sex]

all i can do is say im sorry, again.

i feel like shit because your so torn up.

i hope things start looking up for you soon :-/

<333-kathleen

[nabbypop]

i know you're hurting, but you shouldn't feel so bad...

just think of her reaction...ask yourself: could you really have made it with someone who just probably wanted you for one reason?

also, if you wanted to be a parent SOMEDAY, you should her told her that instead of "I don't want to be a parent". I think that might have gone a little more smoothly...but I think she would have left you anyways.

You're a great, FUN guy, Paul =) There will be someone better. Just like that girlfriend before this past one....there's another one coming after this one. And you're just the man to catch that specialy someone. Take things slow. Have more fun =D

Just be Paul Lemieux~ Sauve American guy with a kickass French last name!!!

[nabbypop]

and, yes...I know I've made lots of spelling and grammatical errors...but I'm still cool~! hehehe

[53_inches]

yes you are the essence of cool. thanks yer. so are you feeling well? i've read your recent entries and it seems you've had a few complications. hope you are ok. i miss you already :-(

[nabbypop]

I guess i'm ok...just having lots of problems and won't be able to see a doctor till I get "proper" financial help...which sucks because I don't know my way around here...have to find the Medicaid office or something?

It sucks...life sucks...I'm just geting more and more depressed wishing that I never had to wake up anymore. stupid hormones and mood swings.

But yea...miss you too~!