Fall Away chapter 4 [END]
Here's the final chapter of this short mess, hope you enjoy it!
x-posted everywhere on earth.
Fall Away
A D.Gray-Man Fanfiction
By SisterWicked
Chapter Four
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Well, surprisingly enough, I think people actually like this! i guess I should get happy and write a lil more then..
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Last Time -
He looked away, clenching his hands furiously. "I didn't have time to think up some big ass seduction fantasy, but I sure as fuck didn't get off on you lying to me! I might have been stupid enough to want you, but I'm not retarded!" He turned to glare at the man's wide-eyed expression. "Now, either fuck me or kill me, but keep your Goddamned mouth shut while you do it."
Snorting at the other's speechless surprise, he looked away determinedly. "You can see in the dark, can't you? Turn off the lights, so I don't have to look at you. That's the best sweet talking you could do for me. If you actually let me go, I'll have the old man get rid of me, so that the next me won't have to remember touching you."
Tyki narrowed his eyes, taking hold of the boy's face. Turning him back to face him, he tightened his grip to keep him still. "I told you, Lavi. I don't lie." Ignoring the redhead's disbelieving expression, he bent closer, forcing the boy to meet his gaze. "Would you have accepted me, Lavi? If I had come to you, before you returned to your home, would you have allowed me to have you as I pleased? I wish I had, then." He released his hold, shaking his head angrily. "I didn't expect you to be so loose with yourself, but I don't suppose you would have minded, since you can't care."
Smirking at the Exorcist's indignance, he nodded thoughtfully. "Rather than concerning myself with your wishes, I should have done just as you say, Lavi. I should have followed you to whatever accommodations your Order provided, and had you the way I wanted you. Now I understand why my Other lost interest in you." Staring seriously down at the still-glaring boy, he sighed.
"It wanted your hatred, more than your willingness. It lost interest because you have no hate. That would require feeling, which you don't have." Taking in the redhead's wide eye, he shook his head. "This me is worse, in it's own way. I was more concerned with your willingness, but you can't feel that either, can you? Is there anything you can feel, Lavi? One with no heart shouldn't be able to mourn the lack of it."
Lavi closed his eye tightly, keeping his voice low. "I don't need you to tell me what I am! I already know that this me is broken, or I wouldn't have wanted you at all!" Pressing his hands against his face, he growled in annoyance. "And you're wrong, I can hate! I hate everything about this person, because none of the others wanted what they couldn't have! This me is going to lose everything, and I'll have to feel it when it happens!"
He laughed at himself, dropping his arms to his sides. "Just do what you wanted to do, Tyki. If this side wanted me willing, you have that. I didn't know what you were before, but I wanted you so bad that it made me sick." He rose to his elbows, leaning into the older man's weight.
"What you said was almost exactly what I thought. I had to try so hard to be quiet that it wasn't even funny.. Just thinking about how good it would feel made me want to die." He closed his eye, ignoring the man's sharp gasp of surprise. "I've never came like that, hard enough to be scared of it.. It's like that every time I do it, too."
Shivering at the memory, he laughed. "I think I'm sicker than either part of you, Tyki. Even knowing what you are doesn't stop it, I think it would probably be even better.. I bet I really would scream, imagining this you and the other one.." He rocked upward, humming quietly. "I don't even care which one of you it is, I just want you to fuck me. Do you still want to?"
The older man stared at him in astonishment. "I truly hope that you mean what you say, Lavi.. Hearing you say it on your own is enough to assure that you'll get what you're asking me for." He bent his head, catching the boy's mouth roughly. Reaching toward the carefully placed container, he lowered his free hand to the Exorcist's hip, pulling him up to meet his purposeful movements with a hiss. "Gods, I'm going to fuck you so hard.. Is that what you want, Lavi? I won't ask again, so be very sure."
The boy nodded, closing his eye with a soft moan as the older man pressed fully against him. "Please," He mumbled, arching into the touch. "I mean it, don't ask anymore.. I won't lie if you won't, Tyki." Allowing the man to push his knees upward, he gasped at the feeling of a work-callused hand on his skin, biting his lip to stifle a cry. Tyki worked open the bottle, tipping it to pour a generous amount of the clear liquid over his fingers.
"Relax, Lavi. This may be uncomfortable for a moment, but I promise that it will get better." He stroked the warm skin of the boy's opening lightly, spreading the oil carefully over him before pressing inward. Hearing the redhead's sharp gasp, he smiled. "Shh.. Don't be afraid, just relax.. It won't be long, Lavi." Keeping his movements slow, he poured more oil onto the boy's skin, cautiously adding a second finger. "You're burning up.. Are you feeling well?"
The redhead whimpered quietly, struggling to ignore the sharp sting of the man's fingers. Shifting anxiously, he stiffened abruptly as Tyki curled his fingers in a come-hither motion, pressing against a place inside him with deliberate strokes. "Oh, God.. Tyki, please just.. It's.." The older man nodded, continuing his insistant touches.
"You like it, don't you? Have you never done this to yourself, Lavi? Surprising, I should think you would have known what to do.." Leaning close, he nibbled teasingly at the boy's throat. "That's what you'll feel, when I take you.. Just like this, but more."
Withdrawing his hand, he laughed at the redhead's pleading whine. "It's different now, isn't it? Was what you felt before like this, Lavi?" Urging the boy's hips up, he pressed against him teasingly. "Are you ready, now? You're shaking like mad, have you changed your mind after all?" Lavi shivered violently, shaking his head.
"I want it, please stop toying with me! You said you wanted this, so why are you waiting? Do I have to beg for it, is that what you want?" Tyki hummed a brief negative, tightening his grip as he rocked forward with a quiet moan.
"Don't beg yet, Lavi.. Wait until it feels so good that you can't help it." Feeling the boy's shaking increase, he pulled back, thrusting forward slowly. "You're so fucking tight.. Just like I thought you'd be.. Does it hurt?" Lavi nodded faintly, his eye closed resoloutly. Taking a shuddering breath, he gasped in surprise at the touch of a hand on his face, eye wide with shock at the gentleness of it.
The man sighed at his expression, shaking his head as he wiped away the damp track of a tear, halting it's descent toward the redhead's ear. "You look at me like you expect me to revel in your pain, Lavi.. My other side would have tortured you, if that were all we wanted." Shifting carefully, he moved forward again, retreating at the first sign of resistance. Repeating the action, he winced at the boy's freely watering eye. "Relax, Lavi.. It won't last, if you just let go."
Blinking rapidly, the Exorcist looked away. "It needs to hurt." He muttered, embarassed by the rough sound of his voice. "I should have made you kill me, instead of.. God I hope there isn't a Hell, because I really will go there for this." He laughed harshly, taking hold of the man's shoulders. "Don't stop, though. It's already getting better, so just..!" He broke off with a gasp, his hands tightening in astonishment as the man rocked firmly against him, the movement bringing him into direct contact with the place he'd shown the boy before. Shaken by the sensation, he whimpered brokenly when the other continued his teasing assault.
Smiling faintly at the Exorcist's obvious pleasure, Tyki slid a hand beneath him, lifting his hips with a soft hiss. "There, Lavi? Hold on tight, there's much more than that.." Lowering his face to the boy's arched throat, he bit down on his damp skin as he quickened his pace. "Tell me what you like, Lavi.. Is this good?"
The redhead nodded rapidly, his eye closed tightly as he gasped. "All of it! I wish.." He bit his lip, pressing closer. "Oh God, please! I don't care if it's not real, I want-!" The man hummed curiously, slowing his movements.
"Not real, Lavi? How is this not real?" He stroked along the boy's thigh, pushing lightly against it to urge him to tighten his hold. "Can you not feel that, Lavi? Anything you can see or touch has to be true, yes?" The Exorcist shook his head, refusing to answer. Frowning, Tyki slipped a hand beneath the other's back, using his free arm to lift himself to his knees. Keeping the boy close against him, he licked a slow trail over his collarbone, rocking upward with a hiss.
"Gods, Lavi.. Does this hurt?" He smiled at the redhead's whimpered negative, tracing the shaking muscles of his back. "Why isn't it real, then? Is there something more that you need?"
Lavi moaned brokenly, his arms wrapped around the man's shoulders as he arched eagerly into his touch. "Nothing," He panted, rocking his hips back with a shudder. "It feels good, so it doesn't matter.." The man caught his waist firmly, increasing the pressure of his thrusts.
"You still.. Don't understand, do you?" He lifted a hand to the boy's neck, tugging his head back by the hair. Taking in the wideness of his eye, he growled. "This is what I wanted, Lavi. I wanted you just like this, so that you could see exactly who it was that made you feel so damned good.." He pushed the redhead roughly forward, claiming his mouth with a low moan. Hearing his sharp gasp at the movement, he sucked briefly at his lip before pulling away. "Nothing is more real than this, not for me, and not for you."
Feeling the boy's hands clench firmly against his back, he shuddered, holding his steady pace. "This is what I wanted from you, Lavi.. And I knew what you were, it never mattered." He released the other's hair, cradling his head as he pulled him in for a long kiss. "That makes it real.. You wanted this, didn't you?" He smiled against the Exorcist's lips at his halting nod. "You wanted it, but more than that.. You wanted me to want you too.."
Lavi moaned sharply, his fingernails scratching the man's skin as he pressed closer. "Don't.. Please don't say-" He broke off with a startled cry as the older man laughed softly, leaning forward until the boy's back rested against the rumpled blankets.
"Don't say what, Lavi? That I did?" He urged the other's knees upward, growling when his legs rose eagerly to wrap around his waist. "I wanted you so much that I took other lovers and pretended that they were you, Lavi.. In the dark, with my eyes closed.." He laughed breathlessly, moving closer to the Exorcist's heated face. "It was never enough. Nothing but this could satisfy me, do you see? What you wanted was always real, Lavi."
Lavi choked back a whimper, tightening his hold pleadingly. "No more! It was more than just.. I can't have what I wanted! Stop talking and.. Oh God! Tyki!" He arched desperately, his shoulders pressed against the bed for more leverage. "Harder! Please..!"
The older man nodded rapidly, supporting the Exorcist's hips as he increased his pace. "Gods, yes.. Are you going to come for me, Lavi? Look at me, if you are.. I want you to remember who's doing this to you." Watching the boy's eye widen in sudden panic, he faltered. "What -"
The Exorcist shook his head, forcing his thoughts into some semblence of order. "You, too.." He gasped, tightening his hold with a strained whimper. "I wanted you to..!" His breath caught at the man's low moan, the sound triggering a wash of chills along his spine.
Burying his face against the boy's shoulder, Tyki laughed shakily into his dampened skin. "You..want me to come, Lavi? How very sweet of you.." His movements became forceful as he nipped sharply at the redhead's pounding pulse. "Don't you hate me? I could learn to love your hatred, if it makes you like this.."
Hearing the boy's quick whine, he latched onto his throat, sucking hard enough to leave a mark. "Hate me more, Lavi.. Then you won't be able to forget this." The redhead cried out wordlessly, shaking his head in denial as he fought to speak.
"Don't.. hate you!" He panted, his arms locked roughly around the man's shoulders. "Just what you did.. Never you!" Feeling the other gasp against his skin, he shivered. "I can't wait," He whispered urgently, arching away from the blankets. "Please, you said that what I want could be real for now.." Tyki pushed himself to one elbow, blinking at the Exorcist's soft voice.
"What would you make real, Lavi?" His rhythm grew stilted as the boy moved to meet him, his hold still firm as he moaned.
"This," He choked, closing his eye. "I wanted it to mean something, because it's all I can have! I wanted you to understand!"
The last was more screamed than spoken, his arms and legs tightening almost painfully as he bucked against the body above him, muscles clenched and trembling as he cried out the other's name in release.
The brunette answered his cry with one of his own, equally astonished by both the abruptness and intensity of his reaction. Sinking himself completely within the boy's shuddering heat, he gasped at the force of his own climax, momentarily losing himself in pure sensation.
Struggling for breath, he shifted to hold his weight above the still-trembling Exorcist, his eyes widening at the continued grasp of his arms. "Lavi..?"
The boy shook his head mutely, his breathing slowed to somewhat normal as he he sighed. Swallowing audibly, he relaxed his grip, allowing the other to pull back. "S'fine. Sorry about that." Swiping quickly at his face, he laughed. "Is it dawn? There's no windows.."
The older man hummed a negative, leaning back onto his knees. "Highly doubtful, probably closer to two or three." Reaching for a corner of the sheet, he drew it across his skin with a soft hiss, wincing at the lingering sensitivity. Glancing at the redhead speculatively, he smirked at his vivid blush. "Would you like a turn, Lavi..? You seem to have a bit of-"
The Exorcist spluttered indignantly, his flush deepening to rival his hair as he snatched the proferred material from the other. Scrubbing furiously at his stomach and upper thighs, he avoided the man's stare pointedly, dropping the damp cloth with a soft huff. "Go on and laugh, smartass. But just so you know, you missed a spot."
Snorting at the brunette's confused expression, he pushed himself upright, leaning in to lick at a spot just below the point of his chin. The other's astonished jump made him laugh, the sound only faintly hoarse. "There, all better.. But seriously, could I maybe have my clothes back now?"
Tyki smirked, moving to stand by the bed. "Certainly." He vanished, reappearing almost instantly with their castoff clothing. Sorting the pile, he handed the boy his slightly mussed uniform, tugging his underclothes and pants over his legs. Slipping his arms into his shirt, he left the garment mostly unbuttoned, eyeing the redhead closely as he donned his own.
"Are you really in such a hurry, Lavi..? There's plenty of time left before-"
The Exorcist straightened abruptly, his eye narrowed. "Before I see if you're a liar or not? I told you already, I can't do anything but keep my end of the agreement, Tyki."
Inhaling sharply, the brunette clenched his jaw, thrusting a hand into his pocket with a low growl. Pulling out the redhead's hammer, he showed it to him, turning it to prove that it was as yet undamaged.
Dropping the miniscule form of the boy's Innocence beside him, he gestured shortly. "My word is as good as yours, Lavi. Take your toy and go." He lifted an eyebrow at the other's quick breath, humming curiously.
For the span of several seconds, the boy said nothing, tucking the object carefully into its holster. Then he cleared his throat awkwardly, ignoring the small twinge of guilt at his reluctance. "Then.. Just like that? I thought you.. That maybe.."
The brunette cut him off with a short laugh, shaking his head. "That maybe what, Exorcist? That I'd be so besotted with you that I couldn't bear for you to leave? Have sense, now." Waving a hand at the other's indignant sound, he snorted. "Run along, boy, but as a parting gift I'll give you a bit of advice: Don't be so eager to believe everything someone tells you. It was merely an unanswered question, and now that I know, I have no further need of you." Willing the Noah's doorway into existance, he nodded toward it. "Now, if you don't mind, I suddenly feel the urge for a bath. Good evening, Lavi."
The redhead would have spoken despite the man's clear dismissal, but the opportunity was lost when the Noah stepped forward quickly, seizing the lapels of his jacket and hauling him to his feet. Meeting his gaze squarely, he allowed his darker side a moment of half-restrained freedom, seeing the Exorcist's eye widen at the change. "Do not test our patience, little fool. This part of me is the only one interested in matters of the heart."
Turning the boy to face the open doorway, he shoved him none-too-gently through it, ignoring his strangled protests. Waiting only an instant for him to clear the space, he closed the portal with a halfhearted gesture, releasing a long sigh. Rubbing distractedly at the bridge of his nose, he stepped into his hastily discarded shoes, summoning a new doorway.
Stepping through, he frowned ruefully.
The bath could wait.
Right now, what he needed was a drink.
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Ha, well there's the end.. As one of my good enemy's icon's says, how ya like them apples? XD Til' next time!
Review if you like!
x-posted everywhere on earth.
Fall Away
A D.Gray-Man Fanfiction
By SisterWicked
Chapter Four
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Well, surprisingly enough, I think people actually like this! i guess I should get happy and write a lil more then..
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Last Time -
He looked away, clenching his hands furiously. "I didn't have time to think up some big ass seduction fantasy, but I sure as fuck didn't get off on you lying to me! I might have been stupid enough to want you, but I'm not retarded!" He turned to glare at the man's wide-eyed expression. "Now, either fuck me or kill me, but keep your Goddamned mouth shut while you do it."
Snorting at the other's speechless surprise, he looked away determinedly. "You can see in the dark, can't you? Turn off the lights, so I don't have to look at you. That's the best sweet talking you could do for me. If you actually let me go, I'll have the old man get rid of me, so that the next me won't have to remember touching you."
Tyki narrowed his eyes, taking hold of the boy's face. Turning him back to face him, he tightened his grip to keep him still. "I told you, Lavi. I don't lie." Ignoring the redhead's disbelieving expression, he bent closer, forcing the boy to meet his gaze. "Would you have accepted me, Lavi? If I had come to you, before you returned to your home, would you have allowed me to have you as I pleased? I wish I had, then." He released his hold, shaking his head angrily. "I didn't expect you to be so loose with yourself, but I don't suppose you would have minded, since you can't care."
Smirking at the Exorcist's indignance, he nodded thoughtfully. "Rather than concerning myself with your wishes, I should have done just as you say, Lavi. I should have followed you to whatever accommodations your Order provided, and had you the way I wanted you. Now I understand why my Other lost interest in you." Staring seriously down at the still-glaring boy, he sighed.
"It wanted your hatred, more than your willingness. It lost interest because you have no hate. That would require feeling, which you don't have." Taking in the redhead's wide eye, he shook his head. "This me is worse, in it's own way. I was more concerned with your willingness, but you can't feel that either, can you? Is there anything you can feel, Lavi? One with no heart shouldn't be able to mourn the lack of it."
Lavi closed his eye tightly, keeping his voice low. "I don't need you to tell me what I am! I already know that this me is broken, or I wouldn't have wanted you at all!" Pressing his hands against his face, he growled in annoyance. "And you're wrong, I can hate! I hate everything about this person, because none of the others wanted what they couldn't have! This me is going to lose everything, and I'll have to feel it when it happens!"
He laughed at himself, dropping his arms to his sides. "Just do what you wanted to do, Tyki. If this side wanted me willing, you have that. I didn't know what you were before, but I wanted you so bad that it made me sick." He rose to his elbows, leaning into the older man's weight.
"What you said was almost exactly what I thought. I had to try so hard to be quiet that it wasn't even funny.. Just thinking about how good it would feel made me want to die." He closed his eye, ignoring the man's sharp gasp of surprise. "I've never came like that, hard enough to be scared of it.. It's like that every time I do it, too."
Shivering at the memory, he laughed. "I think I'm sicker than either part of you, Tyki. Even knowing what you are doesn't stop it, I think it would probably be even better.. I bet I really would scream, imagining this you and the other one.." He rocked upward, humming quietly. "I don't even care which one of you it is, I just want you to fuck me. Do you still want to?"
The older man stared at him in astonishment. "I truly hope that you mean what you say, Lavi.. Hearing you say it on your own is enough to assure that you'll get what you're asking me for." He bent his head, catching the boy's mouth roughly. Reaching toward the carefully placed container, he lowered his free hand to the Exorcist's hip, pulling him up to meet his purposeful movements with a hiss. "Gods, I'm going to fuck you so hard.. Is that what you want, Lavi? I won't ask again, so be very sure."
The boy nodded, closing his eye with a soft moan as the older man pressed fully against him. "Please," He mumbled, arching into the touch. "I mean it, don't ask anymore.. I won't lie if you won't, Tyki." Allowing the man to push his knees upward, he gasped at the feeling of a work-callused hand on his skin, biting his lip to stifle a cry. Tyki worked open the bottle, tipping it to pour a generous amount of the clear liquid over his fingers.
"Relax, Lavi. This may be uncomfortable for a moment, but I promise that it will get better." He stroked the warm skin of the boy's opening lightly, spreading the oil carefully over him before pressing inward. Hearing the redhead's sharp gasp, he smiled. "Shh.. Don't be afraid, just relax.. It won't be long, Lavi." Keeping his movements slow, he poured more oil onto the boy's skin, cautiously adding a second finger. "You're burning up.. Are you feeling well?"
The redhead whimpered quietly, struggling to ignore the sharp sting of the man's fingers. Shifting anxiously, he stiffened abruptly as Tyki curled his fingers in a come-hither motion, pressing against a place inside him with deliberate strokes. "Oh, God.. Tyki, please just.. It's.." The older man nodded, continuing his insistant touches.
"You like it, don't you? Have you never done this to yourself, Lavi? Surprising, I should think you would have known what to do.." Leaning close, he nibbled teasingly at the boy's throat. "That's what you'll feel, when I take you.. Just like this, but more."
Withdrawing his hand, he laughed at the redhead's pleading whine. "It's different now, isn't it? Was what you felt before like this, Lavi?" Urging the boy's hips up, he pressed against him teasingly. "Are you ready, now? You're shaking like mad, have you changed your mind after all?" Lavi shivered violently, shaking his head.
"I want it, please stop toying with me! You said you wanted this, so why are you waiting? Do I have to beg for it, is that what you want?" Tyki hummed a brief negative, tightening his grip as he rocked forward with a quiet moan.
"Don't beg yet, Lavi.. Wait until it feels so good that you can't help it." Feeling the boy's shaking increase, he pulled back, thrusting forward slowly. "You're so fucking tight.. Just like I thought you'd be.. Does it hurt?" Lavi nodded faintly, his eye closed resoloutly. Taking a shuddering breath, he gasped in surprise at the touch of a hand on his face, eye wide with shock at the gentleness of it.
The man sighed at his expression, shaking his head as he wiped away the damp track of a tear, halting it's descent toward the redhead's ear. "You look at me like you expect me to revel in your pain, Lavi.. My other side would have tortured you, if that were all we wanted." Shifting carefully, he moved forward again, retreating at the first sign of resistance. Repeating the action, he winced at the boy's freely watering eye. "Relax, Lavi.. It won't last, if you just let go."
Blinking rapidly, the Exorcist looked away. "It needs to hurt." He muttered, embarassed by the rough sound of his voice. "I should have made you kill me, instead of.. God I hope there isn't a Hell, because I really will go there for this." He laughed harshly, taking hold of the man's shoulders. "Don't stop, though. It's already getting better, so just..!" He broke off with a gasp, his hands tightening in astonishment as the man rocked firmly against him, the movement bringing him into direct contact with the place he'd shown the boy before. Shaken by the sensation, he whimpered brokenly when the other continued his teasing assault.
Smiling faintly at the Exorcist's obvious pleasure, Tyki slid a hand beneath him, lifting his hips with a soft hiss. "There, Lavi? Hold on tight, there's much more than that.." Lowering his face to the boy's arched throat, he bit down on his damp skin as he quickened his pace. "Tell me what you like, Lavi.. Is this good?"
The redhead nodded rapidly, his eye closed tightly as he gasped. "All of it! I wish.." He bit his lip, pressing closer. "Oh God, please! I don't care if it's not real, I want-!" The man hummed curiously, slowing his movements.
"Not real, Lavi? How is this not real?" He stroked along the boy's thigh, pushing lightly against it to urge him to tighten his hold. "Can you not feel that, Lavi? Anything you can see or touch has to be true, yes?" The Exorcist shook his head, refusing to answer. Frowning, Tyki slipped a hand beneath the other's back, using his free arm to lift himself to his knees. Keeping the boy close against him, he licked a slow trail over his collarbone, rocking upward with a hiss.
"Gods, Lavi.. Does this hurt?" He smiled at the redhead's whimpered negative, tracing the shaking muscles of his back. "Why isn't it real, then? Is there something more that you need?"
Lavi moaned brokenly, his arms wrapped around the man's shoulders as he arched eagerly into his touch. "Nothing," He panted, rocking his hips back with a shudder. "It feels good, so it doesn't matter.." The man caught his waist firmly, increasing the pressure of his thrusts.
"You still.. Don't understand, do you?" He lifted a hand to the boy's neck, tugging his head back by the hair. Taking in the wideness of his eye, he growled. "This is what I wanted, Lavi. I wanted you just like this, so that you could see exactly who it was that made you feel so damned good.." He pushed the redhead roughly forward, claiming his mouth with a low moan. Hearing his sharp gasp at the movement, he sucked briefly at his lip before pulling away. "Nothing is more real than this, not for me, and not for you."
Feeling the boy's hands clench firmly against his back, he shuddered, holding his steady pace. "This is what I wanted from you, Lavi.. And I knew what you were, it never mattered." He released the other's hair, cradling his head as he pulled him in for a long kiss. "That makes it real.. You wanted this, didn't you?" He smiled against the Exorcist's lips at his halting nod. "You wanted it, but more than that.. You wanted me to want you too.."
Lavi moaned sharply, his fingernails scratching the man's skin as he pressed closer. "Don't.. Please don't say-" He broke off with a startled cry as the older man laughed softly, leaning forward until the boy's back rested against the rumpled blankets.
"Don't say what, Lavi? That I did?" He urged the other's knees upward, growling when his legs rose eagerly to wrap around his waist. "I wanted you so much that I took other lovers and pretended that they were you, Lavi.. In the dark, with my eyes closed.." He laughed breathlessly, moving closer to the Exorcist's heated face. "It was never enough. Nothing but this could satisfy me, do you see? What you wanted was always real, Lavi."
Lavi choked back a whimper, tightening his hold pleadingly. "No more! It was more than just.. I can't have what I wanted! Stop talking and.. Oh God! Tyki!" He arched desperately, his shoulders pressed against the bed for more leverage. "Harder! Please..!"
The older man nodded rapidly, supporting the Exorcist's hips as he increased his pace. "Gods, yes.. Are you going to come for me, Lavi? Look at me, if you are.. I want you to remember who's doing this to you." Watching the boy's eye widen in sudden panic, he faltered. "What -"
The Exorcist shook his head, forcing his thoughts into some semblence of order. "You, too.." He gasped, tightening his hold with a strained whimper. "I wanted you to..!" His breath caught at the man's low moan, the sound triggering a wash of chills along his spine.
Burying his face against the boy's shoulder, Tyki laughed shakily into his dampened skin. "You..want me to come, Lavi? How very sweet of you.." His movements became forceful as he nipped sharply at the redhead's pounding pulse. "Don't you hate me? I could learn to love your hatred, if it makes you like this.."
Hearing the boy's quick whine, he latched onto his throat, sucking hard enough to leave a mark. "Hate me more, Lavi.. Then you won't be able to forget this." The redhead cried out wordlessly, shaking his head in denial as he fought to speak.
"Don't.. hate you!" He panted, his arms locked roughly around the man's shoulders. "Just what you did.. Never you!" Feeling the other gasp against his skin, he shivered. "I can't wait," He whispered urgently, arching away from the blankets. "Please, you said that what I want could be real for now.." Tyki pushed himself to one elbow, blinking at the Exorcist's soft voice.
"What would you make real, Lavi?" His rhythm grew stilted as the boy moved to meet him, his hold still firm as he moaned.
"This," He choked, closing his eye. "I wanted it to mean something, because it's all I can have! I wanted you to understand!"
The last was more screamed than spoken, his arms and legs tightening almost painfully as he bucked against the body above him, muscles clenched and trembling as he cried out the other's name in release.
The brunette answered his cry with one of his own, equally astonished by both the abruptness and intensity of his reaction. Sinking himself completely within the boy's shuddering heat, he gasped at the force of his own climax, momentarily losing himself in pure sensation.
Struggling for breath, he shifted to hold his weight above the still-trembling Exorcist, his eyes widening at the continued grasp of his arms. "Lavi..?"
The boy shook his head mutely, his breathing slowed to somewhat normal as he he sighed. Swallowing audibly, he relaxed his grip, allowing the other to pull back. "S'fine. Sorry about that." Swiping quickly at his face, he laughed. "Is it dawn? There's no windows.."
The older man hummed a negative, leaning back onto his knees. "Highly doubtful, probably closer to two or three." Reaching for a corner of the sheet, he drew it across his skin with a soft hiss, wincing at the lingering sensitivity. Glancing at the redhead speculatively, he smirked at his vivid blush. "Would you like a turn, Lavi..? You seem to have a bit of-"
The Exorcist spluttered indignantly, his flush deepening to rival his hair as he snatched the proferred material from the other. Scrubbing furiously at his stomach and upper thighs, he avoided the man's stare pointedly, dropping the damp cloth with a soft huff. "Go on and laugh, smartass. But just so you know, you missed a spot."
Snorting at the brunette's confused expression, he pushed himself upright, leaning in to lick at a spot just below the point of his chin. The other's astonished jump made him laugh, the sound only faintly hoarse. "There, all better.. But seriously, could I maybe have my clothes back now?"
Tyki smirked, moving to stand by the bed. "Certainly." He vanished, reappearing almost instantly with their castoff clothing. Sorting the pile, he handed the boy his slightly mussed uniform, tugging his underclothes and pants over his legs. Slipping his arms into his shirt, he left the garment mostly unbuttoned, eyeing the redhead closely as he donned his own.
"Are you really in such a hurry, Lavi..? There's plenty of time left before-"
The Exorcist straightened abruptly, his eye narrowed. "Before I see if you're a liar or not? I told you already, I can't do anything but keep my end of the agreement, Tyki."
Inhaling sharply, the brunette clenched his jaw, thrusting a hand into his pocket with a low growl. Pulling out the redhead's hammer, he showed it to him, turning it to prove that it was as yet undamaged.
Dropping the miniscule form of the boy's Innocence beside him, he gestured shortly. "My word is as good as yours, Lavi. Take your toy and go." He lifted an eyebrow at the other's quick breath, humming curiously.
For the span of several seconds, the boy said nothing, tucking the object carefully into its holster. Then he cleared his throat awkwardly, ignoring the small twinge of guilt at his reluctance. "Then.. Just like that? I thought you.. That maybe.."
The brunette cut him off with a short laugh, shaking his head. "That maybe what, Exorcist? That I'd be so besotted with you that I couldn't bear for you to leave? Have sense, now." Waving a hand at the other's indignant sound, he snorted. "Run along, boy, but as a parting gift I'll give you a bit of advice: Don't be so eager to believe everything someone tells you. It was merely an unanswered question, and now that I know, I have no further need of you." Willing the Noah's doorway into existance, he nodded toward it. "Now, if you don't mind, I suddenly feel the urge for a bath. Good evening, Lavi."
The redhead would have spoken despite the man's clear dismissal, but the opportunity was lost when the Noah stepped forward quickly, seizing the lapels of his jacket and hauling him to his feet. Meeting his gaze squarely, he allowed his darker side a moment of half-restrained freedom, seeing the Exorcist's eye widen at the change. "Do not test our patience, little fool. This part of me is the only one interested in matters of the heart."
Turning the boy to face the open doorway, he shoved him none-too-gently through it, ignoring his strangled protests. Waiting only an instant for him to clear the space, he closed the portal with a halfhearted gesture, releasing a long sigh. Rubbing distractedly at the bridge of his nose, he stepped into his hastily discarded shoes, summoning a new doorway.
Stepping through, he frowned ruefully.
The bath could wait.
Right now, what he needed was a drink.
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