shit shit shit, cocksucker fuck!
So fuck, my ex who I'd dated for two and a half years and only broke up with a few months ago is back in town for the summer. He's been calling me a lot and I've been blowing him off a lot but today I was talking with my friend who's dealer ran dry and I knew my ex had some bud so I called him up and he offered ot drive it over to me and give me however much I wanted for free. So, thinking that my friend cedric would be with me, I agreed.
A bit of background history, TJ (my ex) cheated on my three times, then broke up with me when I thought my mom had cancer because he didn't want to deal with any of my emotional issues, got back with me after I slept with him after being completely trashed, slept with my best friend, cheated on me another four times, lied about having a girlfriend in college, then started going to a bunch of gay orgy's before I finally called it quits for good and stopped talking to him.
My friend cedric had to leave so I was stuck waiting for tj on my own. He shows up with his crew of wanna-be goth friends and gives me the weed. I tried to leave and he grabbed my arm and dug his nails into me so hard I started bleeding and told me to sit down and talk to him (we were at a starbucks). So I sit and every few minutes try to get up and leave. I'd texted jorin before hand to tell him to come with me but he didn't get the message until after I left. The whole time I was with TJ he kept hinting that he wanted to get with me ("oh lets go to my house" "lets go over there" "there's no one by my car, lets go talk over here"). I stand by that he used to be hot when we were dating, but now he's dropped about fourty pounds so he looks disgustingly thin and has grown his hair out longer than mine!
I was finally able to leave by pressing the ringtone sample button on my phone while it was in my purse and pretending that I had a call from my mom and that she wanted me home then ran off and gave the skrill to my friend who wanted it.
When jorin found out he got all pissed and was sending me texts saying he felt really shitty that I had to talk to TJ by myself and kept asking where I was so he could come talk to me and help me feel better. I felt really weird about it and we'd made plans to hook up tonight but I didn't want to, knowing that it would probably come off as a sort of pity fuck so I just told him that I was fine and to keep doing whatever he was doing. It took about ten texts of me reassuring him that I was okay before he made me promise to call him as soon as I woke up the next day and to promise not to answer my phone if TJ called me again.
So then I'm sitting over at Micheal James house, trying to calm down and smoking some cigarettes with Toby and his friend Lisa and I get a call from TJ. I didn't answer it just like I promised but I checked my voicemail and he was like "I didn't see your car at your house, where are you, why didn't you want to hang out with me?"
And when I was talking to TJ, I kept saying that I was seeing jorin because I wish I was and it would make TJ back off and jorin would go along with it for my sake if he needed to. So now (like... right now as I'm typing) I'm getting all these texts that I'm not responding to. "did you enjoy the nickle bag?" "where are you?" "are you with jorin?" "what do you like so much about jorin?" "just call me tomorrow, I want to see you" "we need to hang out" "Why aren't you responding?"
I don't get it, and I can't make him leave me the fuck alone!!!!