ugh what the hell ( Read more... )

omg im so bored being bored makes me go nuts. what happend to all the ppl i used to have to call to do somthing whenever? i dont remember who i musta hung out with all the time.....but i wish i remembered now

how do you deal with finding out NOW that something happend a long long time ago in your childhood that you blocked out and no one ever mentioned to you?. it answers alot of questions im grateful for that. but will i ever get on the right track?? It seems like no one in this situation ever recovers ( Read more... )

i just want to be able to not have to walk on eggshells with someone. every little thing has to be a big deal. girls girls girls-most of em need to get whatevers up their ass's out. no one specific of course.

ugh fucking damnit, i dont want life to be a rollercoaster anymore.

just an FYI when i write in here, its me over reacting. and its kinda a big joke. i just wanna reasure everyone.

i need to trust my instincs alot more than i trust other peoples words and promises. as soon as i feel somethings weird, even if its not my fault. i should run away and never come back. ok thats a little dramatic. but i had a bad day ( Read more... )

today i heard:

"i know of ton of guys that think your gorgeous and wanna talk to you"

"your sweet!"

"i have to drop a deuce"-from a girl

"your pretty"

"what do you mean you never get hit on?"

"you beat the ex/you won"

flattery!!..i like it.

now its nap time. then its time for farrah. then...who knoooows.

oh, and its monophobia. i have

whats it called when you have a fear of being alone ( Read more... )

man, i need some more single friends cuz then they wont always be with their bf/gf alone and we could do stuff more often. i do do stuff wtih kay all the time tho so im not complianing. but i have nothing to do today and no one to do it with. :-( . when am i gonna have someone to tell other ppl "im spending alone time with _____ today" ugh fuck. ( Read more... )